oh gosh... the "create post" page has been open for.... the whole day... i guess... everytime i on the computer... i'll certainly check my blog... then try to post a new blog post or something... i have been trying to write something since in the afternoon... but nothing special comes in mind...
so i guess.. its time for my random blabs again....
hmm... so what should i write about??? weekends are my rest-days... which i usually will try not to step out of my house unless its necessary.... i prefer staying in... with the internet, facebook, blogs and other online mini games... or maybe just a book will do... i'm still on my way with sophie kinsella's "remember me".... i decide to take it slow.. there's no rush when it comes to reading... although i can read fast but sometimes i think is better to look at every word than to just browse thru the sentence and take things for granted.... i still have loads of books waiting for me... especially my Dan Brown series... which i'm on the way of giving up due to the hard-to-understand content... i'm still the shallow reader who prefers reading light and simple stories...
basically... things are still going on pretty ok for me... just that i have done a few things that i never ever thought i would be doing... which took a hell lot of courage from me before i started doing it... it's a chance that i want to take... i have been delaying it for a long time now... and i think i will regret it if i still want to "preserve" my dignity and hold it back.... sometimes things are meant to happen... and when you try to stop it for the wrong reasons.... you'll just feel uncomfortable inside... and the feeling will last until you found a way to fix it....
so i sure hope that it will turn out the way i want it to be... but if it doesnt... oh well... at least i tried... i should not have stopped that in the first place... so its my fault and i'm not blaming anybody for it... i'm ready to get whatever i deserve... good or bad... (i still hope its good)
working days are pretty tiring...
and when you have to digest some things that is completely pointless... it really exhausts you... besides... everything must have a reason behind it... if you cant give me the reason... so it makes it pointless... a waste of time... effort... and life....
i tried to understand your expectations... but it seems that i'm not in the same level as you since i dont get any of your points... yes.. i admit that i'm maybe not as good as you... so what else can i do?? maybe you just dont get the point yet.... until everybody starts leaving... leaving you with nobody but yourself... is that when you are going to understand the problem??? will it be too late then??? i can honestly say that i dont agree with your ways... and i dont understand what you actually want... sometimes... it just irritates me when you dont speak the language... and just get on with what you think is appropriate.... i find that very disturbing....
anyway... i hope you do see the problem... and change before its too late...
signing off~~~
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