Panda's space: Baby.. baby.. baby Oooh~~~ (I don't wanna grow up)

Friday, November 05, 2010

Baby.. baby.. baby Oooh~~~ (I don't wanna grow up)

When I say grow up, I mean my age... It's a pain to the number increases every year marking how long have I exist here... However, I wouldn't wanna turn back time or something, I'm not thrilled about going back to my school days... I just don't want the numbers of my age to add, it can stay the way as it is now.. I'm very happy with it..

I have always want to scram off school exams and assignments to step into the working world... earning my own pay cheque.. which is why I always want my study years to be short as possible.. which explains my devastation when i screwed up my PTS... i skipped form 6, a-levels and any other pre U programmes that require more than 1 year..

Now I have started working, I am one of the youngest.... as like I have mentioned that my university years is shorter than the typical STPM route which most of my colleagues took.. I am currently the youngest in my team which I'm enjoying... knowing that i have exceeded certain expectations where people would usually judge someone who have just graduated fresh out of university with zero experience in the society... Although I don't have much experience, being in the production field has really speed things up for me.. I have seen all kinds of people and been at work at all hours you can find on the clock... I will grow old in super speed if i stayed in production full time for another 2 years...

So, I'm really enjoying the attention as the youngest, i guess that's because i have been the eldest in the family ever since I was born, being the youngest seem like a new experience, something that i hardly get the chance to try... For my next birthday, i'll wish that my age will stop increasing and the aging process will be irrelevant in my life... weee...

I feel old everytime somebody tell me his/her age that is younger than me... that includes the time when I was a volunteer at the Youth 10 Festival where everybody are schooling kids, mostly in university or just started pre-U.. i was the only one graduated.. I felt old and separated from the group even though some of us were like a year or two apart...

maybe, being young is just an excuse for my kiddy and childish behaviour like constantly hugging my teddy bear or other plushies on my desk during work... And being super happy when a colleague who is going for maternity leave offer me to adopt her Jack-Jack for 3 months.. I was super thrilled for the whole day...