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Pre-CNY... a new resolution...

2012-01-23T00:04:00.002+08:00

It's the eve of Chinese New Year.... I am suppose to stay up as late as I can for the safe of long life for my parents.. Just finish watching I love HK on TV, despite how some people say their standard of shows have dropped.. I still love TVB... and also it was my main channel in learning Cantonese... Watching TVB dramas trained me into listening and thinking in cantonese... and of course it did inspire me to become a scriptwriter.. I think that is why people (who have known and read some of my storylines and plots) say that my ideas are too TVB-ish... not out of the box... whatever lah~~~

This is a tip for those who are learning languages... watching tv is definitely a great way to practise when you have nobody to practise with you at home... This is how I learn cantonese and "got inspired" to be a scriptwriter... I watch the series then i would imagine an additional character into the story and start drafting the dialogues, storyline of that particular character I have "created" and in order to "bring it to life", I'll have to speak out the dialogues to see if it fits the "real thing" or not... the "Real thing" as in the drama =D...

Speaking about languages, I have a confession to make, I have been learning Korean on and off since 2008.. it's on and off so the "frequency" is also on and off... as in.. i remember as i learn, and forget as i stop.. since Malaysian terrestrial channels do not air korean series un-dubbed, ok, they do now but it's in the afternoon.. Don't have to work meh?? So obviously I'm not categorised as their target audience... Sigh~~ So I can't really learn and practise through drama series... which is why I haven;t been improving although I have been attending classes on a weekly basis for almost 1 year already..

Ok, I haven't been putting the effort I was suppose to anyway... and I do feel bad about it... Doing my homework last minute, not revising the grammer and vocabs that I have learnt, which is why I keep forgetting and make mistakes when I'm doing past year papers... Double SIgH~~

My teacher wants me to take Topik this year... It's a korean effieciency something examination where you'll get a certificate to proof that you know, understand, read and write Korean... and it also qualifies you to be a translator.. somewhat qualifies.. hehehehe... I'm more interested in the extra income.. =D

Since it is Chinese New Year.. and it's almost 12am.. I'll make another resolution... I will be putting effort in learning Korean.. not doing my homework last minute and doing revision constantly.. I sure hope I could stick to that.. As you know, I'm not a studious person... so doing revision is so NOT ME... but I am doing it for the sake of mastering the language...
For your information, I did not learn Korean for the sake of K-pop like most of the people out there... I learn for the sake of knowing another language... the main "push" factor is when my ex-neighbour moved in.. he's a korean with a gang of friends, employees, workers.. they speak korean all the time.. the urge of learning is because I would really want to speak to them in korean... but too bad, when I started learning, they moved out... =C

Anyway, my CNY resolution is to master korean and pass my Topik, hopefully with flying colours!!

alrightey, signing off~~ 새해 좋하합니다! 안녕히게세요!! ( I just have to show off... =P)
Toodles...

New Year~~

2012-01-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

Heyo, It has been a long time and believe me, I am aware of that... The new year has come.. 2012, the so-called doomsday is also near.. I'm not sure how the world will turn into during 21st of December 2012 (Is this the correct date??) but I sure would like to see 2013...

Do I believe in doomsday, or whatever else you call it? I actually do, that is why I should be living live to the fullest, at least for this year..

Alright, back to the New Year.. My new year was kinda exciting.. spent almost the whole day at seon seng nim's house preparing dinner, the korean style.. Was actually aiming to learn some korean dishes but end up only remembering how to prepare the salad.. the rest were all bits and pieces.. toboki, bulgogi.. i'll just eat at the korean restaurants then...

What else about the new year?? Resolutions?? Let's see 2011's resolutions are:

1. Go for another oversea trip, -checked- (went to Singapore at the end of last year for my cousin's wedding.. a short 3 days 2 nights trip)

2. Continue learning either japanese or korean, -checked- (have been attending korean classes since March)

Looks like I have accomplished my last year's resolutions. So for this year, I can make new resolutions to be fulfilled.. Hmm..

1. Another oversea trip, this year I'll be going to 3 countries.. This will definitely be accomplished.. I guess my resolution should be to upload blog posts with photos about my trip..

2. pass my Topik, this will be hard by the look of my progress but hopefully i would be able to pass and get the certificate..

and that's all folks!!

signing off~~
Toodles..

10 places that I would love to go again

2011-11-02T17:30:00.000+08:00

Heyo, I'm back to continue my list of "10 places that I would love to go again".

Number 1

Hong Kong

This has always been my top favourite place as a TVB fan... People say it's a really hectic and stressful place to be in but then.. I still like it.. after visiting the country for a handful of times, I never stop liking this place.. With this in the picture

it definitely deserves the very top spot in my list.

Number 2

Shanghai, China

Well, I really like developed cities.. The last time I was here, I only spent 2 days as I was following a tour.. Would definitely love to come again and stay for a week or so..

Number 3

Taiwan

Been there last year, enjoyed and would like to go again years later to see the difference.

Number 4

Hangzhou, China

For those who haven't been here... It's beautiful!!!

Number 5

Beijing, China

I did promise my mom that I'll bring her to the Forbidden Palace again after the tantrum that I caused when I was 5(or 6) resulting us(the family without my brother, yet) never got to see the exciting parts of the palace.. Well, it was not my fault that the place is humongous and I'm a kid with short legs who lived all her life in a place where the sun shines every single day and can't stand the freezing weather in Beijing...

Number 6

Guangzhou, China

Right, I am aware that this is like the 4th (excluding HK and TW) PRC city I have listed... Well, I am Malaysian Chinese and I do feel more comfortable being in a place where the majority speaks a language that I understand. I was on a tour too the last time I've been here and spent only 1 day here.. so i need more time to explore this place.

Number 7

Shenzhen, China

Thanks to several HK dramas, this place has been labeled as the place for pirated stuff and mistresses.. In my point of view, it's a great place for shopping (not for pirated stuff).

Number 8

Singapore

A place close to home... and it has the Universal Studios!!

Number 9

Dalian, China

This will be my last Chinese cities... A very unique city in China, it's different from the other big cities in China.. Worth to be explored..

Number 10

Malacca, Malaysia

And of course, how could I not list a place that is in the country that I'm living in?? I would be suggesting Malacca as the place to go to a foreigner, it has everything from historical stuff, cultural stuff, shopping and food..

As a conclusion after writing both posts about places around the world, I'm more of a city, shopping, play and sight-seeing person.. Beaches are not much of my genre... So, here we are.. my lists of places that I would like to go to...

So time to save my travel funds... i think I should be able to go one place per year... hopefully~~

That's all folks

Signing off

Toodles~~

10 places to go before I die

2011-11-01T22:31:00.003+08:00

I accidentally came across an article called "10 places to go before you die", which I find pretty amusing and since I'm earning (although it's just peanuts) now but I would love to travel, not really all around the world but at least to a few places that I have always dreamt of.

I separated the list to 2 categories, the first one are places that currently only manage to appear in my dreams, while the latter are places that I have visited and would definitely love to go again...

My "10 places to go before I die"

Number 1

Tokyo, Japan

The place that I have always wanted to go since I knew Doraemon. And besides, I did not learn Japanese for nothing.
And of course, Disneyland!! The first Disneyland in Asia.

Number 2

Seoul, Korea

A place that I have grown interest recently. I was not really a K-pop or K-drama fan but I do watch and listen to Korean stuff.. And again, I did not learn Korean for nothing ;P

Number 3

California, USA

When I was a kid, I have always wanted to go visit Sesame Street (I still don't know whether it exists or not), after a while I somehow linked Sesame Street to California.. Ok, I know this makes no sense so just let me try to work this out and connect the dots. Sesame Street is America to me and California is like the signature of America, so Sesame Street seems like California.. If it still makes no sense, then just ignore this..
Aaaaaand, another attraction...

Disney land!!! The one in California is way bigger than the one in Tokyo, definitely worth to visit.

Number 4

New York City, USA

The main reason for this is Gossip Girl.. Hah, the Manhattan Upper East Side and socialites.. I'm such a TV addict..

Number 5

Florida, USA

The biggest reason for this is that it has the world's largest Disney Land!! Ok, that's like the third Disney Land I want to go to. Disney is like everybody's childhood and that's including me.. So, what's wrong about fulfilling a childhood dream??

And then, there's also the Universal Studios

Why?? I love Woody Woodpecker!! huh-huh-huh-haa-haa~~

Number 6

London, England

Well, first things first, my parents graduated here.. So it makes the perfect sense for me to want to visit this place..
Oh, why again??

Like all the other Potter fans, Platform nine and 3 quarters at King Cross Station....

Number 7

Bangkok, Thailand

And yes, I do live in a country right below Thailand and My mom's hometown is like a borderline away from the country and yet I have not been to Thailand. Let's exclude the time when I "conquered" the Thai water(sea) when I was like 14 or something.. Shhhh... that was illegal.

Number 8

Switzerland

This one really came out of nowhere... The land of Swiss chees, Swiss chocolates and watches..

Number 9

Rome, Italy

After watching Triumph in the Skies, Rome seems like the most romantic place on Earth.. This is where all the love stories begins.. and the artsy stuff that I have studied during my foundation year.. I really should go take a look..

Number 10

Paris, France

This was also due to the influence of Gossip Girl... I'm not really much of a fashion person but a look at the World's most fashionable city is a chance you can't miss.

And of course, I promise this is the last time you'll see it in the post

Paris Disney Land!!! Visiting all the Disney Lands in the world is my ultimate dream...

Alright, that's all for the dream list... the "have been to and would love to go again" list will be up on the next post.. Since I don't update that often nowadays anyway.. so a few posts should be able to keep you company, I know there's a whole bunch out there who won't wanna read long posts..

Signing off
Toodles~~

Churpie in da house!!

2011-10-22T12:08:00.001+08:00

Yo... I have been waiting patiently for more than a week for this... Since last Wednesday, it was suppose to arrive by Tuesday, the latest but instead it arrived on Friday or maybe Thursday afternoon or something..

It lightens up my days when I saw the box with my name on it at the reception yesterday morning when I reach the office..

It's my first time receiving a parcel in the office.. Kinda excited when I saw it on the bunch of parcels at the reception desk... Without wasting time I picked it up and walked to my cubicle..

And, open it!!!

It took me a few minutes to get rid of the sellotapes around the box.. and this is the little fella that greeted me after i manage to open the box...

Cute huh?? Its name is Churpie...

Say Hi to little Churpie...

It's now situated at my desk beside my monitor to cheer me up when I'm stressed out with work...

"Write" choices

2011-10-10T10:23:00.001+08:00

Again.. It has been months since I last posted.. Well, I believe I'm not the only so-called blogger here who updates once in a blue moon.. Loads of other once-bloggers have totally ditched their blog and opt to update their facebook status of twitter instead... People nowadays prefer reading straight-to-the-point one-liners instead of long stories in a blog... Which is kinda sad, isn't it?? at least for people who likes to write and share their writings with people whom they know or not..

I still do enjoy writing but I sometimes run out of ideas and fear that the stuff I wanna planning to write about is not cool, exciting, interesting or happening enough... Yes, I am self conscious.. I know there aren't much readers out there but for those who actually do come by and read.. I would not want them to turn their heads away and say "boring..."

Getting a masters degree has always been in my life plans ever since I knew that it exists... I have been scouting for master courses that I think I'm gonna be interested in since I have settled with my foundation... At first, my choice revolves around film-making and directing, then it changed to communications since it's my major.. After that, it went back to film because that was my ultimate interest at that time, at least I thought it was... Then after a year or 2 during my degree course, i realised that it's not the film production that i am passionate about.. I do like it but there's something else.. the thing that I am really passionate about and the sole, ultimate factor that drives me to my choice of the broadcasting course is actually writing... So now you'll wonder, why didn't I enroll myself into the journalism course instead.. that's a course that focuses on writing a hell lot.. Well, that was my second choice though.. but the thing that I really love is writing stories that are to be portrayed into film, or series or whatsoever stuff you see on the tv screen, I want to write scripts and screenplay.. not news or features.. which was why I chose broadcasting instead of journalism... with the idea that since I like to write stories, I wouldn't mind producing them either..

The whole thing did not turn out the way I thought... I thought i will enjoy film, video production but I don't think i actually did.. at least to the extent that i have expected... but I do prefer it more that mixing chemicals in the lab and meddling with figures in accounts.. which convinced me that I didn't make the wrong choice.. If only the subject, scriptwriting and screenplay was not only a subject but a major... I would have done better during my degree and obtain higher GPAs..

So for now, all have past.. I'm planning to do masters sometime in the future.. and I have decided on the course that I think (hope) that I won't regret doing.. Creative Writing.. The thing is, this is not a very popular course comparing it to the MBAs and science-related stuff or journalism-writing stuff.. So there's only a few universities that are offering this course around Asia... 2 in HK, which was my initial choice when I collected enough funds for it.. But something struck me lately, both universities offered the course in English.. a language that I'm not good in.. At first I thought, since it's called Creative Writing, so the "Creative" should come first.. I was so naive about that.. In order to be creative, I will have to at least master the language and gain the ability to play with the words and vocabularies.. I was never good in English.. My grammer failed big time.. so how am I gonna be able to write something that could impress the people approving my application when I can't even differenciate when should I use "has" and "have"??

How depressing... I thought I have finally found a course that I think I will be able to enjoy thoroughly and the reality strikes.. (SFX*thunder)
For the time being... I will search for universities offering Creative Writing in Chinese, which at least for now, I think I could write better in Chinese.. Hopefully, nothing will suddenly strike me the fact that my Chinese ain't as good as I thought it was.. fingers crossed..

that's all for now, folks!!

signing off~~
toodles!!

Wedding Wedding

2011-07-26T21:13:00.007+08:00

I haven been trying to post this since June... But i couldn't upload the photos so I delayed it till today and it's already the end of July... How time flies...

Last month was my training buddy, Hana's wedding... Our team organised a trip to Seremban just to attend the wedding...

We took off at 11.30am and reach the place later than we have expected due to the traffic condition.. It appears there was another wedding going on in one of the restaurant along the road we were using, and their guests were kinda slowing down the traffic.. As you know the roads in kampungs are usually narrow and 2-way so there's no way we could escape the traffic...

We reached the place at around 1.30pm... the ceremony has started.. we greeted the bride and saw her look of relief when she saw us at the reception..
the whole place is packed with guests~~ the food was good especially the lamb... we came all the way for the wedding and also for the lamb...

here's some photos for the day..

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2011-06-29T21:52:00.003+08:00

I have seen some bloggers post updates this way...
short and straight forward....
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What do I have to say for this week???
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I hate this part right here...
It has been a terrible week...
Nothing good happened...
Loads of misfortune...

Alright... Taiwan Trip 2 (June-July 2010)

2011-06-18T18:38:00.005+08:00

It's day 2 in Taipei, early in the morning we took off to LongShanSi （龍山寺）

Our breakfast of the day, cabbage rice and fish.. A really local-like breakfast...

I guess everybody is at work this time in the morning, the park beside the temple is filled with senior citizens looking at us as though we are some kind of aliens wandering on earth

this is 龍山寺~ LongShanSi... It really crowded... and there's a lot of japanese students too.. I guess they're on a field trip... lawatan sambil belajar kinda thingy... to another country, that's so cool!!

Back into the station to our next stop... this is what you can find in their convenient store... How convenient!!

Inside the station...

Next stop, XiMenDing... what am I looking at??

This... The world cup fever is ON, man!!!

the famous ah zong misua 阿宗麵綫... their business is so good, you'll have to stand around and eat... but it's nice, even if you have to stand...

Next stop, JiangKaiShek Memorial 國父紀念館... Just to let you know... it began raining after this photo was taken...

Luckily, the rain stopped not long after...

climbing up the stairs to the see the statue... Trust me, after a day of non-stop walking, climbing up the stairs is a form of torture...

This is what you can find after the loooong staircase...

Here's Bitan (小碧潭）

Snack of the day~~ Crepe

YUmmy!!

That's all for day 2... stay tune for day 3!! whenever i have the mood, that is...

Signing off
Toodles~~

1 week of excitement

2011-05-29T22:09:00.004+08:00

An exciting week has just past.... Bear in mind, it's the Air Asia promotion week... It's chaos on the internet especially the website for the airline... I must be really lucky to manage to secure return tickets to Macau next year... As i have planned... I would like to celebrate my birthday in a different country next year... and I actually am on my way to make it work (quote from Tim Gunn)!!

Although it's not the 10 cent air ticket... but i think it's affordable enough... No regrets there... i never knew it was so tiring to book tickets online, especially when there are like thousands of other people out there who are also booking.... i was kicked into the waiting for like a gazillion times before i could actually reach the booking process... but was kicked out again because i was too slow... talk about a panic attack... good thing only 2 of us are going... not much details needed... and everything could be done quick...

after the tickets have been book, the excitement started to sink in... i couldnt help seeking for budget hotels and tourist spots, promotions and stuff for the trip... even though i have more than 10 months to go...

let's move on with something else with my life... I've finished 10 lessons of korean language.. that marks another milestone to one of my goals.. another 10 to go before i take the topik test, which is the korean language proficiency test... i can't believe i'm actually on the way of achieving my goals... it's usually just a frame-up, where i'll just frame the goal up and look at it when i'm free without really taking any action to make it work(i really like this quote)...

today marks the 10th lesson and i guess i'll take a week or 2 off from classes... to revise and get ready before i start again...
한국어를 배와요~~~

I can type without refering to the character's list now... an achievement after 10 lessons of looking up the online korean dictionary...

that's all for now... after 2 months of silence...

signing off~~
toodles

Colour up!

2011-03-09T15:56:00.003+08:00

My blog used to be colourful with emphasis of words, sudden change of font face and sizes.. because this is not really a picture oriented blog.. I don't bring a camera everywhere to capture candid shots and stuff... neither do i have a nice camera phone that could also carry a similar function (note: if you were following my blog for year.. you should've known that i've lost my phone's pc cable and the photos i've taken could not be transfer into my computer.. and for some reason, my computer does not have bluetooth), so to conclude everything, THIS IS NOT A PICTURE ORIENTED BLOG...

so to avoid boring some reader who likes some visual attraction to death, i played along with colours, font faces and sizes.. until one day I suddenly find all these seems kinda childish and decides to grow up.. that's when the boring mono-coloured, filled-fully-with-words post starts to appear in my blog...

Come to think of it... that's not really that fun to read, ain't it??

So i decided to return to my childish ways~~~ some people thinks it's glaring... some people thinks it's confusing... I once thought it was childish but now I think it's kinda interesting... mono-coloured posts takes only half the time now i guess i'll need twice the amount of time i used to use for writing blogs... oh well...
Maybe I won't do it for every posts...

Signing off
Toodles

as time goes by

2011-03-01T16:11:00.003+08:00

How ironic... when put together some of the things and you realised that it's some kind of sign?? My last post was actually just a sudden thought after watching a TV programme.. and i just happen to have that thought during the CNY period... which is not something that should be going on during a traditional festive season... Maybe I should not have take the superstition so lightly... It does have its consequences... I decided to ignore it... and I'll never ever do that again... If I were to choose, I'll not be posting that blog... I'll stay positive the whole entire festive season.. and I'll keep my mind off these unlucky stuff... if it really does make a difference... i'm willing to reverse it..

The emptiness is felt everyday I walk into or out of the office... everytime i sign in or sign out... everytime I walk to the washroom... the gush of emptiness will just shove itself on me... leaving me feeling really heavy... it's not about weight now.. it's about a feeling... pushes your heart down making you hard to breathe but not enough to suffocate... I wonder... is this all planned?? in the hands of god?? He actually intend to make this happen?? or were there other reasons?? how could something so good have to meet something so bad?? it doesn't really make sense.. if it's all planned by Him... Why?? There are so many other candidates out there... why??

Every other thing seems so petty... relationship problems... money... stress... pure dissatisfaction... nothing seems to matter... to worry about such things really seems kinda pathetic to me now...
you loss a boy/girl?? so what?? you still get to see him/her... you have a concrete physically visible person for you to hate and blame for all the depression you are going through... at least, the person is there...
you dont have enough money to buy the thing you always wanted?? what's that to be depressed about?? you're alive and kicking.. go get your own funds... what's there to whine about the unfair-ness in the world that some people can carry stuff that costs more than the total of your earnings of your entire life... so?? is that really important?? you do have the chance to move and get it.. eventhough it's costs time and effort.. at least you could pay that..
stress and pure dissatisfaction?? ok, so it's your finals tomorrow and you have not studied anything yet.. or you're required to get some job done within seconds... well, at least you could feel the stress and the satisfaction if you overcome them... pure dissatisfaction is just sad, go get a life.. the world does not stop for you if you hated your job, your body, your face, your gf/bf, your rival, the person who have a nicer figure than you, a singer that sings like crap and depends solely on looks... there are plenty of things that are more important than to stop and feel negative towards something that maybe doesnt even care...

I do wonder is there a sign?? what makes me write my previous blog post?? is it a wake-up call telling me that if i want to pursue something i should not be sitting down write a list, and leave it there thinking that it's impossible to get them fulfilled.. instead, i should be planning on how to get it done and dealt with.. I'm a natural procrastinator.. i have a whole lot of things that i wanna do but i always keep it till tomorrow... until the time comes... something tells me this kind of attitude is not getting me going anywhere..

almost everybody takes things for granted... anything, anybody will still be there tomorrow... there are times that you might not be that lucky... and things can be too late, you'll regret but nothing's gonna change anything except for what's done is done... and you cant do anything about it... you may say it's not fair and you dont deserve it... but, does all the earthquake victims deserve to die because of the disaster?? does the victims of suicide bombs deserve to die exploded?? what did they do to the bomber?? besides being at the wrong place at the wrong time?? somethings are just meant to be and eventhough you question them, you'll never get the answer you wanted or expected or want to hear..

i miss the smile that greets me every now and then in the office.. i miss the company.. the constant company when I stay back late to get my work done... the voice that wishes me happy holidays before the celebration... all these seems minor but you'll realise that it really means a lot after it's gone...

I hope you're in a better place now, enjoying every bit...

Signing off...
may you rest in peace... Ernest Ong... you're a good friend and a fantastic colleague to work with.. you're the only person who colour italics so that it's more obvious... I'll miss you always... Goodbye..

What do you want to do before you die??

2011-02-15T21:13:00.003+08:00

Okay, I know it's still within the Chinese New Year celebration season and Valentine's has just past, It's not a time to be talking about such an "unlucky" topic.. Well, superstitions say if you mention the "d" word during Chinese New Year, you'll "suay whole year a!!!" means you'll not have good luck for the rest of the year... But then, that's a topic that came into my mind.. If I don't write it down I forget about it after a while and it'll go to waste.. No use tampering with the date of post because I did think of this during Chinese New Year and I'm typing this during the celebration, so no use changing it because... It's there lah.. ish...

I have been watching this TV show called "The Buried Life" talking about a few guys who didn't want to follow the typical stuff in life made a list of what they want to do and achieve before they die and went on performing them one by one, crossing them off the very long list... Those are mostly kinda impossible things, such as "a date with Megan Fox" (Obviously that failed, as she is fully armed with guards and well-protected by her manager), "attend a party at the Playboy Mansion" (This was successful.. and I didn't the Mansion had such tight security, even Christiano Ronaldo couldn't get in), "Play ball with President Obama" (Apparently Obama is a VERY BUSY person... so this wasn't successful either but i think they manage to have a game with him after that episode), "Help deliver a baby" (this one went great..).. Ok, I can't remember every single episode.. just go and google to find out more... But the best thing about this show is that when they are getting something off their list, they'll help a stranger to fulfill what they wanna do before they die and as far as i remember it, they manage to get all of them fulfilled...

After watching this I have been thinking.. What do I want to do before I die?? Currently, my only goals are traveling to a whole lot of places.. I never thought that actually like to travel but going places is what that came into my mind while i was thinking about my list... besides that, is to go study overseas (travelling again... somehow it counts as travelling.. since i'm going somewhere), and then is to get a writing job or get recognise as a writer...

That's about it.. That's not a lot.. maybe it's a good thing meaning i have achieve most of what i want in life... or I actually don't know what do I wanna achieve in life.. the latter sounds kinda sad... that better not be me...

i'll still be thinking about my list.. and why not you think about it too... take a time off your work or studies to do something crazy that you've always wanted to do.. the feeling of satisfaction after it's done is indescribable... well, i'm imagining it.. as i haven't cross out anything on my list yet..

In a quest to cross out stuff on my list..

Signing off~~
Toodles

CNY (change of resolutions)

2011-02-10T21:00:00.006+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!! It's the Eighth Day of the festival, everybody is still well and running...
My CNY celebrations are similar to the previous years... relative visiting here and there... off the Johor... more visiting... watch TV... eat.. and that's almost it... Well, what do you expect?? CNY is a celebration when relatives, friends and family get together ain't it??

Speaking about TV... The thing i love most about CNY, besides the reunion-get-together part is the TV programs.. When my VCR was still working, I'll usually be recording a whole lot of them so that i can watch them over and over again during the year... But now, it's not working.. and I couldn't stand the faces of the Sony people when I send it for repair.. Honestly, what is wrong with wanting a VCR to get fixed?? It's old fashion, yes.. I know, so what?? People in the advance countries like US and Japan still uses those you know... It's very useful if you ask me...

Back to my title.. I have been thinking and I guess I'm having too much in my mind and I'm going nowhere with any of that.. yet... (I have not started my korean classes just yet)
I've always wanted to go overseas and stay there for a while not really for travelling purposes but to live a in a different place and lead a different life from the one back at home... I'm not too confident that I will be able to get a job overseas... So my next best thing is to study.. although I don't really fancy studying but I dont mind if I had the chance to..

So, one of my New year resolution is to go to Singapore this year.. but I guess i'll have to cancel that and start saving for something bigger tomorrow.. maybe celebrate my birthday at a different place.. other than home.. a different state or maybe a different country... It's the year of the dragon next year.. I have gone through 2 full cycles of the chinese zodiac years in my life.. and that's something special that's worth a celebration.. besides, I need some excitement to stop me from feeling old as I'm aging all the way and i'm getting really pessimistic about that.. something like that may be able to cheer me up... my dull life is leaving me realising that i have not done much in my life.. somehow wasting my years with nothing much to remember..

should I go travel, backpack alone?? that is really exciting... but i'm kinda scared about that... i have been trying to do things alone nowadays.. like going shopping alone.. going to a concert alone (soon.. i'll blog about that if i have the mood).. eat out alone.. and some other things that i may be trying out soon.. alone... so i'm still considering...

if i manage to save enough funds... i'll be going off overseas, to stay for a year or so and living alone.. i should be getting use to that... i was kinda desperate for a company but it seems not many(actually, there's none) of my friends are interested, but now to me, it's kinda pathetic.. so i'll be living up by myself from now on.. i dont really need company everytime i want to do something...

oh well... hope it goes off well..
and still... Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

Signing off!!
toodles..

twelve plus one equals thirteen..

2011-01-20T15:13:00.003+08:00

Well... the current big Hoo-haa besides Thaipusam and American Idol, the thirteenth zodiac.. horoscope.. star sign.. whatever you call it.. the Ophiuchus... how do you pronouce this anyway?? os-fiu-choos?? well.. again.. it's not really my concern as far as the dates and horoscope thingy changes.. my horoscope will not be this os-fiu-choos thing.. so i wouldnt have to care how to pronounce it..

well.. if you are still seeing stars, question marks, fogs aka blur about what i have to say here.. i'll have to say.. stick your face onto a book.. there's like tons of posts, status, notes.. whatever you can post on stick-your-face-onto-a-book (aka Facebook la.. in case you are not in the same direction as i am.. just have to give it in your face!! then I throw you a book.. wahahaha... ok, enough of these faces and books.. back to the story) almost everybody has been posting, announcing, broadcasting, grumbling, moaning about the change of horoscopes because a certain 13th horoscope has been found..

to know more about this.. http://www.coffetoday.com/the-thirteenth-zodiac/908672/
that's one of the website to go.. or else.. go google la.. 13th horoscope or something..

What do I have to say about this?? Not much.. just the fact that I'm split into 2 horoscopes makes the whole thing a lot more fun... have you notice that there's a repitition of the last date and the first date of 2 consecutive horoscopes?? which means people who were born on these dates belongs to 2 horoscopes.. ain't that interesting??

I admit that i do like to read up about horoscopes and fotune telling stuff just for the fun of it and to testify it's accurate-ness... so as long as i still have something to refer to.. i dont mind being in 1, 2, 3 or even 4 horoscopes..

here are the dates and changes.. help yourselves..

- Capricorn : 20 January – 16 February
- Aquarius : 16 February – 11 March
- Pisces: 11 March – 18 April
- Aries: 18 April – 13 May
- Taurus: 13 May – 21 June
- Gemini: 21 June – 20 July
- Cancer: 20 July – 10 August
- Leo: 10 August – 16 September
- Virgo: 16 September – 30 October
- Libra: 30 October – 23 November
- Scorpio: 23 November – 29 November
-Ophiuchus: 29 November – 17 December
- Sagittarius: 17 December – 20 January

this post is kinda meaningless besides spreading the hoo-ha about the horoscope.. and also to bring back my blog-updating mood so that this place will not be neglected too often..

that's all i have to say...
signing off~~
Toodles

On the way with my resolution 2011.. Yay!

2011-01-16T00:25:00.003+08:00

Here I am again... for a random update... Speaking about New year resolutions.. I kept mine moving.. earlier than i have planned.. but it's a good thing.. i guess.. I have registered with my former Korean teacher from when I was attending classes in UTAR.. I'm planning to start either around March or April.. After I'm settled with my finances first... Since I have started working, which will also mean that I'm paying my own fees.. and obviously, the fee for learning a language is not cheap.. especially when you lose your student identity... everything is always more expensive for the working people.. I wonder why???

With the cost of everything increasing since the start of the year... new year, new price as they say.. the only thing that keeps to its stable horizontal line is the amount I'm earning... Coz I'm still new.. I'm not entitle for an increment... yet... tough~~

I have already booked a place with my former and soon-to-be Korean seon seng nim... without doing any research on other language centres offering the service that I am currently looking for.. well, there might be cheaper place which I will regret not finding it first.. or places that does not require me to travel too much and it may also be cheaper which i might be banging my head against the wall five times behind everybody's back after knowing about that.... but... just something to comfort myself for the above situations so that I wont suffer from severe internal bleeding is that since this teacher has taught me before.. she'll know my level and my learning habits so i would be able to pick it back up faster than those who treat me as a new student and unaware of my basics and how much I've learnt previously.. they might be teaching me repititive stuff and might waste my time and money.. so, with somebody who knows where I stopped, I'll be learning something new everytime...
Hopefully those are enough to comfort me if i accidentally found somewhere else that offers the same thing with a cheaper price and a nearer place... i's better go wrap my walls with sponge first.. hehe...

besides that.. i'm now considering about taking the official korean language exam.. TOPIK.. exams are so not me.. I hate exams.. i always stick to the theory where when exams exists.. the student will never be truely passionate about what he or she is learning.. their sole focus will be to ace the exams and not really on mastering the knowledge of the subject itself.. at least that's something i've gone through.. in the end, it's all about exams and i might end up forgetting more than half of it after i step out of the exam hall.. kinda wasted, ain't it?? however, people have been telling me that if i don't take the exam, i'll never be recognised as somebody who knows the language as i have nothing to prove.. no certs or result slips to show how good am i in the language... well.. that carries a point too... cause if i'm really interested in languages and writing, wanting to pursue a career with both of those in my pocket, i should be getting recognition.. getting my writing complete is something that i have said for like a gazillion times and till now i still can't manage to complete them... and besides that, i should be going for exams and get myself some certs to prove that i know the language..

so now, i have started stepping out to get recognitions for Korean.. i think i should be doing something with my japanese as well.. i have my textbooks around.. but i dont really have a tutor to guide.. yeah.. i still have my former japanese tutor's number but i doubt he still remember me.. and i don't think he gives private lessons or something like that.. i do have the materials i think i need.. i have the books.. all i'm left is some coaching.. but that can wait.. until i got my cert for korean first.. one at a time...

before i start attending classes.. it's time to refresh and give my memory a jolt... i have forgot more than half of my vocabulary and grammar.. and work on my listening if i'm serious about taking exams.. i really have bad hearing.. and listening tests is my nightmare.. base on my past listening test experience for japanese.. i think you can find something about it in one of my posts during 2007.. i think.. if you're interested.. i dread listening tests...

okay.. enough blabbing.. it's actually 1am.. and i should be in my bed dreaming about the good-looking korean artiste... male ones.. of course.. hehe.. i always thought choi siwon is kinda cute.. hehehe...

expecting a photo???
sorry to disappoint you..
i'm too lazy to run a google search..
and no.. i don't have his photos stored in my "my pictures" folder..
also... i'm lazy to upload.. or more accurately.. i'm lazy to wait for it to upload although i don't mind blabbing about my laziness...

signing off~~

Toodles!!

Ermmm.. Taiwan trip 1 (June-July2010)

2011-01-08T17:26:00.007+08:00

A week has past since the start of year 2011... Here I am again.. To be honest, I actually don't have a single clue about what to update here..

well... after almost half an hour of leaving this page.. I decided to post the most awaited Taiwan trip post.. day 1...

stick around yo while i upload the photos...

I forgot what time was the flight but i remember it was during the morning.. so i reach LCCT at around 7am.. When I walked into the airport, I coincidentally bump into my cousin brother, it appears that he's going on a company trip to Bali... Small world.. It seems that I'm the earliest among the group so I stood aimlessly waiting for the rest to show up until I heard someone calling my name.. and it happens to be another cousin brother who lives in Kota Bharu.. I haven't met him for years, and he still recognises me.. Hehehehe.. he's joining my cousin(mentioned before) for the company trip...

alright.. done with me family reunion stuff.. here's some photos..

on the way to board the plane to Taoyuan airport...

There's nothing much about the journey.. so i'll fast forward... we've now reach Taoyuan airport..

Ok.. I know it seems the same.. but that's 2 different airports in 2 different countries.. Tell me, which airport does not have escalators??

this is our room when we were staying in Taipei

kinda cosy... not bad~~ hehe..

alright.. our first stop.. Danshui... first meal.. Danshui a-gei..

a stroll along the roads of Danshui..

and we witness our first night scene at Taiwan..

After Danshui, we head back to Jiantan (where we were staying) and went to Shihlin night market...

quite a popular place in Taipei...

one of the shops was having a sale.. and of course, that caught our attention...

don't doubt.. this is what we bought... heheh..

before heading back to our place.. we bought dinner...

This is my absolute favourite... cheese potato!! yummmm....

so that wraps up our first day..
and I know it's very absolutely short.. with a very minimal number of photos... well, I'm not that good in describing stuff in english so i kept the whole post as simple as possible.. and the photos.. it takes time to upload and i'm rushing off for dinner.. so just bear with it..

until we have the next post...

Signing off~~~
Toodles

Belated New Year post

2011-01-03T17:06:00.003+08:00

It's the third day of the year already... and i haven't post anything up yet.. Better get something on here first.. being neglected in the new year is not a good thing... even for a blog..

There's actually another post in my drafts waiting to be posted.. just that i haven't got the photos uploaded into my computer so it's still lying in my drafts waiting for this one fine day where it could see the daylight.. Yeah.. i admit that i'm very lazy when it comes to uploading photos.. which is why my taiwan trip post that i have promised is not up yet..

alright.. let's get on with the typical new year post.. what shall I be writing about?? what else?? new year resolutons.. before i start blabbing about some dreams that i might not be able to achieve.. let's check if i have set any resolutions for the past year... hold on yo!!

alright.. it turns out that I only have 2 new year resolutions for 2010 (after summarising)..
first.. graduate with first class honours..
gosh!! this will be my worst nightmare.. not only that i'm not anywhere near it.. I can only settle with the majority of second class upper.. there goes my hopes of applying scholarships and stuff.. sigh~~

second.. find a decent job after graduation..
Ooo.. this is much better.. although i have been through a series of job hopping experience.. but i finally settled in a decent place, having a job that i think i'll be able to settle in for 2 years before heading off for my masters degreee..

So, will i be making any more new year resolutions for 2011?? maybe.. give me a few minutes to think..
alright..
first and foremost.. I wanna go for another oversea trip.. I'm actually planning to go to Singapore as it is nearer and I might be able to save some of the hotel expenditure as i have relatives staying there.. and there's not only one.. besides, I wanna have a look around Universal Studios.. I heard that it's kinda pricey.. so I'm still saving for it.. hopefully, I could secure my funds..

secondly, continue learning either japanese or korean.. I feel it's kinda wasted being left as it is.. I haven't decide which to continue yet though.. mast probably it will be korean as I'm still in touch with my korean seon seng nim.. we'll see how it goes..

thirdly, ermm... I was stuck here for 5 whole minutes (playing with country story at the same time).. so I assume i have no more ideas for resolutions for now.. i'll update if I suddenly thought of any..

Okay... That's all for now..

Signing off~~
Toodles!

Time for December

2010-12-12T23:37:00.002+08:00

Right... I'm back for my once-a-month update... It's the last month of the year 2010... How time flies.. during the beginning of this year, I was worrying about being jobless after graduation.. It seems like... Ok.. It's kinda long ago... just it doesn't seem like 11 months ago.. maybe like 6 months?? it feels like it though.. oo.. cut the crap~~ in a nutshell, i'm just in denial in the aging process...

December is suppose to be the cold month with warms hearts... as Christmas is near.. jingle bells, snowflakes, feasts, get-together and presents!!!! I never really celebrated Christmas... I'll usually tag along when my friends are celebrating... never really had to mood on my own.. So, what's going on this year?? I'm not that sure yet... hopefully, it'll be fun... even if it involves staying at home watching TV programmes aired by the channel in line with the festive season.. there can still be fun..

This marks almost the end of the year 2010... and to summarise what have i done during the whole year... you can find those events in my previous posts... well.. I never post anything that I wouldn't wanna share.. so feel free to browse around for the history of my life... hmm.. this sounds good.. I should definitely add it in my profile...
Let's see... I had my very last semester in university... sit for my very last final exam (hopefully it's my last..).. then I started work on the very next week after my finals.. guessing that i'm one of the earliest people to start working in my batch... had my moments during that time.. it was fun.. ups and downs... but it's a great experience in my life.. had a bunch of new friends along the way... then i came to the part where i had some, lose some, had it again and lost it without even knowing it... Oh, not forgetting my trip to Taiwan... I haven't been updating about it here.. the delay was due to the unorganised photos... Now i have them organised.. so i guess it'll be up sooner or later.. and then.. a round of roller coaster ride emotionally.. i landed on to my current job.. which I am adapting pretty well and quite happy with what i have..
these are the bigger stuff happening about me throughout the year.. for other smaller stuff.. i might have forgotten them already.. i myself need to check back my posts...

alright... I guess i'm done for now... hopefully to get another post up again before the year ends..

signing off~~
Toodles!

DeePOWraya

2010-11-21T16:33:00.002+08:00

I found some photos of our DeePOWraya(22 Oct) celebration in the company's common drive.. so I might as well grab some to share.. first, let me explain the meaning of DeePOWraya... Deepavali(which is the coming festival) POWerful(the main force of the celebration) Hari raya(the previous celebration that took place not long ago~~)

check out the food... catering from big rajah... sluuurp... yummy~~

After filling our stomach... there was a sketch from the Australia and North Asia teams.. They were imitating Petronas Commercials.. Hilarious and very entertaining...

North Asia... the balik kampung petronas commercial...

Australia B, a very significant deepavali commercial... the muthusamy and grandma

Then, we have the inter-teams Kolam competition... our design were prepared a day before.. and this is my very first time doing a Kolam... and, it's really hard~~~ wooo...

Team member explaining the meaning of our Kolam... reminds me of impromptu presentation.. really miss those.. hahah...

Our end product.. although we didn't win.. but it was fun altogether...

Alright... that's all folks..

Signing off~~
toodles!

FoooooD

2010-11-10T16:19:00.001+08:00

I know i have not been posting blogs with photos for a very very long time.. so here's a treat.. 2 consecutive posts with photos... Well.. thanks to some photographers, I have some photos to share about the Regional Open house at my company during the Raya season... (29 of September, i think)

A small celebration by the Asia teams in my company...

Check out the food!!!

Each and every team member contributed something.. which fills the tables.. a few tables were lined up to fit all these food...

Let's dig in!!

The teams having rounds of charade... and the good news is.. our team won!! yipppeee yay yay!! well, the operations team won.. actually... but because they were our invited guest so they pass the prize to the first runner up... which is us... hehe.. and no, we did not pass it out... it's for us..

Well... i guess that's all folks!!

Signing off..
Toodles!!

Baby.. baby.. baby Oooh~~~ (I don't wanna grow up)

2010-11-05T17:29:00.008+08:00

When I say grow up, I mean my age... It's a pain to the number increases every year marking how long have I exist here... However, I wouldn't wanna turn back time or something, I'm not thrilled about going back to my school days... I just don't want the numbers of my age to add, it can stay the way as it is now.. I'm very happy with it..

I have always want to scram off school exams and assignments to step into the working world... earning my own pay cheque.. which is why I always want my study years to be short as possible.. which explains my devastation when i screwed up my PTS... i skipped form 6, a-levels and any other pre U programmes that require more than 1 year..

Now I have started working, I am one of the youngest.... as like I have mentioned that my university years is shorter than the typical STPM route which most of my colleagues took.. I am currently the youngest in my team which I'm enjoying... knowing that i have exceeded certain expectations where people would usually judge someone who have just graduated fresh out of university with zero experience in the society... Although I don't have much experience, being in the production field has really speed things up for me.. I have seen all kinds of people and been at work at all hours you can find on the clock... I will grow old in super speed if i stayed in production full time for another 2 years...

So, I'm really enjoying the attention as the youngest, i guess that's because i have been the eldest in the family ever since I was born, being the youngest seem like a new experience, something that i hardly get the chance to try... For my next birthday, i'll wish that my age will stop increasing and the aging process will be irrelevant in my life... weee...

I feel old everytime somebody tell me his/her age that is younger than me... that includes the time when I was a volunteer at the Youth 10 Festival where everybody are schooling kids, mostly in university or just started pre-U.. i was the only one graduated.. I felt old and separated from the group even though some of us were like a year or two apart...

maybe, being young is just an excuse for my kiddy and childish behaviour like constantly hugging my teddy bear or other plushies on my desk during work... And being super happy when a colleague who is going for maternity leave offer me to adopt her Jack-Jack for 3 months.. I was super thrilled for the whole day...

Guess which is mine...

With a guest around... the others will certainly grab the chance to take photos.. especially when it looks exactly like Mo JackJackJack...

We call him Guest Jack..

Aren't they cute??

Signing off~~
Toodles!!

WK

2010-10-23T17:02:00.003+08:00

My summary of my days in Wolters Kluwer.. 10 stuffs about them~~

*I'm kinda addicted to this 10 points thing.. i think its a great way to keep me writing.. hehe..

Let's move on with it....

1. I have a big cubicle, a U-shape desk with 3 bears(mine); 2 pencil holder with 4 pens, stick on notes, 2 pencils, liquid paper, 4 highlighters, a ruler; a 3-tier tray, a pc, a file with my training notes; a few binders and books... and i'm very happy with it.. a lot of space.. hehe..

2. I have a nice team, with great team mates around to guide me and an understanding team leader (when I was so stressed out with the indexer.. she said to transfer him/her to my team leader, she'll help me handle him/her.. nice!!)

3. Nice and funny colleagues around.. and go to lunch with... although I'm the youngest but there's no gap.. so i guess i'll have to admit that i have an old heart... Sigh~~

4. a great pantry, with unlimited supply of coffee, teh tarik, hot chocolate... hehe.. and biscuits for snacks.. and it's just opposite my cubicle.. just a few steps away.. weeee...

5. my office is situated in a very quiet place in cyberjaya.. super quiet!! same applies to the environment in the office.. It's like a library... the sounds you hear are tapping on the keyboard, footsteps, the coffee machine, the water dispenser and random whispers..

6. I have started on my products.. so far ok but i still need to refer to notes and seniors...

7. we had fun and happening celebrations... Hari raya open house (team members pot-luck and brought food.. we eat and play games, our team manage to win rm100 in the charade!!） Deepowraya celebration (there were sketches imitating petronas ads, food!! the caterer was great! yummylicious!! and a kolam competition among teams.. my first time doing a Kolam.. it's very hard and fun!! although we didn't win..)

8. I get to arrange my shifts... hehe.. as long as i reach the office before 10am... which is very nice.. hehe

9. we have team activities every now and then... last week, we went for satay session at putrajaya..

10. last but not least, i kinda enjoy working here.. the job, the environment, the people are all kinda nice.. hehe..

alright.. that's all for now..
I'll see ya'll when i see ya!!

signing off...
Toodles!!

random, to tell...

2010-10-18T21:52:00.001+08:00

10 random facts about my life, today..

1. this morning, i didn't wanna wake up because it was raining

2. the kuih bingka or bengka, however it is spelt is so filling that i could not finish my hot chocolate

3. i had an induction session with my production manager, we had this game about random truths and lies.. how random

4. i drove half of my team to putrajaya today for team lunch -- satay

5. i went to taman warisan pertanian and honestly when i first heard of the destination, it sounds like we are going for a field trip aka lawatan sambil belajar

6. i was chased up the wall by my indexer

7. i forgot to bring a plushie to work

8. i changed my login name and password on my office's pc, and change it back again

9. i chat with a random girl from taiwan through my yahoo messenger yesterday and added her on facebook

10. it's my mommy's birthday

come to think of it.. i think this could be a great way from me to constantly update my blog.. 10 random facts, everyday.. or i'll just note them in my journal...

hmmm.. I'm getting my stationery tomorrow!! Yippee.. no more borrowing liquid paper from my team leader.. hehe...

signing off (i almost typed sighing off.. a small typo makes a big difference)
toodles..

iyammaveryboreingpersonn...

2010-10-07T10:31:00.001+08:00

HI!! Just somehow in the mood of writing something.. so here I am... after 1 month in my current company.. i have got to know some of my colleagues pretty well... by listening to their conversations during lunchtime and some sharing.. I think i'm one of the youngest in the group... but i seriously think i look old.. Sigh~~

They have been asking that why did i switch my field from an exciting, happening broadcast tv production field to a boring, routine-ed publishing field?? "it's just routine work, doing the same thing everyday, you'll get bored easily..." Why did you come here?? tv production must be a better and fun environment to be spending your young and carefree days (which i think they mean know, judging on their reaction when they knew my age)".. I know.. i am totally aware of what i am currently signing up for... i know it's gonna be routine work.. i understand that it'll be a 7.5hr job during the weekdays, sitting in the office for 7.5hrs a day, without having to travel.. the furthest i have to walk is from my desk to the cafe which is situated downstairs and at the end of the floor but I dont go there frequently..

the course i studied for my degree is not destined for a 9-5 office job... people enroll to that course for the one main reason is to escape from getting into a 9-5 office job... so what am i doing?? as i have said in the previous post... tv production?? been there, done that... 4 months of internship and 3 months of "part-time" employment is enough for me to see where will i head to if i continue sinking myself into the industry... yes, i like production work... but the things that i like is to be handling the casts and supervising the script (which i hope is written by me), and maybe be in charge of the wardrobe.. that's all i guess.. i don't enjoy experimenting camera angles and lighting, i dont have the interest in arranging the props and trying to make them all look nice on the screen, i dont have the patience to see one thing shot over and over and over and over just to get the perfect shot... and last but not least, i don't like to hang around and act busy because honestly sometimes i have nothing to do on shoot... so i guess i am not that into production after all... the things that i enjoy is lesser than the things that i don't... so since i'm "young and carefree".. i guess i should try my other options and venture into other fields or industry.. like my second choice, the journalism, publishing field.. which i am trying out now..

i know it'll not be as happening and exciting as tv production... all i have is words and more word documents to accompany my hours.. however, i do admit... i'm not a happening and always-seeking-for-excitement person.. i dont plan my weekends.. i prefer staying at home with my tv or computer... i do take annual leaves for nothing (ok, the main reason is to clear them so that they wont go to waste)... i don't mind staying at home 24/7, i have my own ways of entertainment at home.. people will ask, why waste your time going home early?? don't you have any after work programmes?? honestly, no.. i hardly have any.. so a boring job for a boring person is just a match from heaven... they go together perfectly..

if you ask me, do i miss my old life in tv production.. well, yes, i do.. for the things mentioned above, handling casts, wardrobe and scripts... the rest... i can do without them... which is also why i now keep a journal with me.. ok, it's acts as a notebook as well (since i really can't use my pretty journal collection), my yearly organiser... i need to have something to write on.. my blogs are getting more and more exposed to people that i don't want them wandering around about my life... a personal journal works for me then... i could even jot down inspirations... if only i could draw... then it'll be lovely and more interesting instead of dull single-colored writings... but anyway, that also shows how boring am i...

how long have i been spending writing this post??

signing off~~
toodles

my life as a hoarder..

2010-10-02T14:36:00.003+08:00

I said my post will be at a monthly basis so here I am now.. doing what I've said i'll do...

My current life is filled with work.. ever since my previous post which I have mention that i'm fitting into my new position.. now, my training is over and I'll be getting my very first product next Friday.. woohoo!! Malaysia Employer's Handbook.. a Top ten product man!! a newbie's first product is a top ten!! stress... hopefully I won't screw up..

I'm now helping my team mates with their product.. for one, i'm getting a hand of what to do.. and then, i have them to check for me after I'm done.. which is a very good thing because i'm not at all confident with what i am doing... hopefully I did not screw up a lot.. wooo.. so nervous about my first product.. I'll first have to be certain about what i have to do when i get a product.. hopefully the 101 briefing on monday will fill me with those details..

after the updates of my life.. let's start on the topic for this post.. i talked about self narcissism during the last post.. this time i'll like to talk about hoarders.. accumulating stuff for an unknown future use.. which also means for no particular reason.. accumulating for the sake of keeping... well.. some things may seem like rubbish to one but a treasure to another.. although i do belong to the category of a hoarder but i do have my arguments.. maybe they might sound the same as any other hoarders out there.. but still.. those are valid reasons..

you keep the plastic wrapper of your favourite toy.. rubbish?? how can it be?? you'll never know you might need to wrap the toy back again or maybe there's something else that needs wrapping and the size happens to fit!!

you keep your old textbooks.. not for the sake of revising (there might be times that you MIGHT, i said might need to revise your moral textbook), i have other reasons for those.. i'm keeping them around for the sake of the pictures inside.. as moral textbooks will always have pictures.. those are for future picture assignments.. since i'm not good in drawing.. i could cut and paste those picture that matches my need of the assignment.. isnt that a good reason??

i keep my old worn out clothes around because i might need them for the cloth and stuff.. as there are a lot of D.I.Y articles everywhere.. these old clothes may come in handy when you need cloths or buttons and other accessories on the clothing.. It's useful to have it around just in case...

as for my old toys.. for the sake of remembrance.. a sign of my childhood.. i love them a lot.. as each and every one of them have a different story within it... that's priceless, you know...

since i like to accumulate things.. and therefore i have a lot of things.. sigh~~ but i just couldnt bear seeing them end up in the trash.. or anywhere else out of my sight... all of them mean something to me... even a piece of paper have its value..

i have been trying to get rid of this habit.. i persuaded myself that old magazines will not have any use in the future.. and sold them all to the old newspaper man.. after a period of reluctance, that is.. i am still trying.. i can still keep stuff around, i guess.. i just have to organise them..

well, that's me as a hoarder.. i admit that i am one.. i dont need you telling me how serious is my condition and need to start throwing stuff away.. i'm completely aware of that.. but i still can't throw it off.. not yet...

signing off~~

my way of self narcissism

2010-09-12T19:40:00.003+08:00

First post of the month... I have switch my blogging mode to a monthly basis... so my first post might also be my last post... depending on my mood... i might sneak up and update during my office hours, hehehe...

updates... updates... i'm fitting into my new job... as a production editor.. which has nothing to do with tv production... weee.... i have change my path to journalism/publishing... people will be wondering.. i have a major in broadcasting... supposedly i should be in some tv station or production house doing things that appears on tv... well... been there done that... so i think that's enough... I'm not that into tv production.. I just like to write stories.. that, i can treat it as a hobby... this is when my blogs come in handy.. a platform for my writings... in the meantime... i can deal with that...

that's all about my job... nothing much has been happening in my life... it's a fact that i lead a very non-happening aka boring life.. sticking myself at home like the female version of otaku, except i watch tv series and variety shows instead of anime.. read novels and magazines instead of manga... facebook instead of online chat forum..

oh... that reminds me.. i've read something about online narcissism somewhere (cleo, to be specific)... something that i have never myself would be... i am actually an online narcissist.. hahaha... because i make full use of my twitter.. happily posting random updates since it's just a sentence... besides that, the facebook status thing also serves the same purpose... always posting mysterious (which also means half-way-hanging-or-emo-stuff-with-the-purpose-of-people-commenting-to-ask for-further-information) status... i'm usually very "kepo".. so i always ask when i see these "mysterious" posts... sigh~~ my nature is to be "kepo"... what to do?? but i would usually be posting stuff that i want to remember.. in case when there is a time that i would want to check back.. i more of the too much information (TMI) person.. who post stuff that people would not want to know.. instance...

status posts (pov of reader)
i'm starting work tomorrow (so??)
the smell of rendang from the kitchen is making me hungry (erm.. why do i have to know that?? it's not me who is making you hungry...)
no money~~ (then?? not that i'm gonna give you any..)
i'm in dilemma <-- this has been quite a frequent phrase (what does that have to do with me??)

there's more from where it came from.. but these are just some examples... just to let you know, we are all falling into the category of self narcissism online... in order to prevent that... delete your twitter account and dont post any status updates...

for me, i'll just accept the fact... everybody wants attention, i guess.. that is why people are sharing their lives on the internet through facebook, twitter and even blogs... i think it's the "in" thing now... so we are actually "in"!!! wahahahaha...

and i guess.. that's the of my post for today... thank you very much and have a nice day~~

signing off~~

a short update..

2010-08-24T18:41:00.003+08:00

It has been a month or so since I last wrote a blog post.. Now, i'm back to share a fraction of my life.. Another blog post for the month then... I just realise that i have posting blogs once a month.. i guess that should be enough to keep my blog activated..

after a few rounds of job search, i realise that i have not really have much writing works to show.. here's when my blogs became handy... luckily i have been writing quite frequently in the past and enough for people to see my writings by browsing around here..

writing is something i like to do... it will be good to have it as a job.. but after rounds of job search.. to have something you like as your job does not only require passion... there's other factors included as well.. so for now, although i don't have a writing job but i'll still be writing and make sure i have finished works to show when those are required...

thats all folks..
signing off~~

Me, myself as a student (part2)

2010-07-17T00:39:00.003+08:00

I know it has been a long time.. my excuses are still the same.. busy and lazy... oh.. and no mood.. well, you need to have to mood to do things... that is why i am not sleeping now (it's 1.00am, fyi) and sitting in front of my desktop typing myself out...

Where did i stop?? ah, yes... I believe i ended at the end of my secondary years.. which turns into a new phase of study.. a totally different environment, known as the university.. I started my university life with foundation.. An exciting start to begin with... as it is completely different from my previous schooling days.. A fun year to start my university life.. although I did not really get to enjoy a campus life but at least then friends part did help replace that... life was happening back then when there were times we race off to the nearest shopping mall for lunch during our 3 hour break.. and even had k-session during our 4 hour break... don't ask me about the long breaks.. i really dont know why were they so long... anyway.. it's a really exciting experience for somebody who just reached 18..

Then, after my foundation years came to an end... my degree years starts... into a course that i was really looking forward to.. i started ok, my exam results, i mean... and then it went down every time... well, that's not something nice to mark my degree life.. so let's just let it go with this brief introduction... moving to another topic.. it's a bunch of nice coursemates that actually adds in the spices of my degree years.. it was not always happy, carefree, lovey-dovey... there were conflicts, arguments, disagreements and many other negative stuff... but in the end, i guess... we are still a class to hang together with.. besides these, the hanging out part and not forgetting the outings for assignments part are really memorable... during the time when we are free from classes, we'll be out at shopping malls, karaoke, steamboat-ing, traveling... etc... all of us have a gang we belong to.. 616... BFFs?? Nah!! it's just a childish way Paris Hilton use to categorize her friends.. She even have a reality show for it!! a reality show to be a BFF?? what the hell does BFF means to you anyway?? to me, a friend is a friend.. the level of "best-ness" differs but however so, their category as a friend will not change... so, we are friends and hopefully it will last forever... yeah!!
Our friendship could be seen through my previous posts of our outings... it's a bond that not a simple combination of alphabets can just represent.. it's kinda hard to put it in words if you ask me.. so just see for yourself (take a peek at my previous posts if you have time)

I'm almost done here.. I know its much much shorter than my previous one.. but my university life is more less recorded in my blog so i guess there is no point for me to repeat and summarise them here.. those who have been following my blog will know and those who have not, feel free to check them out if you have the time..

that's all folks!!
Signing Off~~~

Happy Pappa Day!!

2010-06-20T00:07:00.001+08:00

I know I wrote a long post for Mami's day... so now, to be fair.. i should a least have a post about my dedi... my pappa has always been, my atm card, my driver, my teddy bear (yep, he's huggable..), my sos call recipient (the person I will call when i have emergencies)... and many others which i can't think of at the time being...

Well, my pappa has always been there for me whenever i need a driver... as i have always said.. my sense of direction could easily flow down the drain.. My life has only been with Federal Highway and LDP... other places.. go at your own risk.. because i have a huge possibility of getting lost on the way... so here's when my pappa will come and save the day... he'll usually be around if he can to take me to places that i have no idea where in the world it is... He'll always try his best to be around when I need a driver... He's the reason why i'm not familiar with the local public transport... I personally think it is not a bad thing... the buses around here is unpredictable..

Pappa is an engineer.. So i can conclude that he's a science and maths person... he's my occasional tutor for my geography, physics, chemistry, add maths... and all those non-language subjects... the first thing he always say when i ask him a question is, " This is very simple.." Oh... easy for you to say... how can it be simple if i'm having problems with it?? Besides, i'm different from the family.. which is super weird.. My mami and pappa are more towards science and maths while i'm a language person... however, my pappa never stop me or try to "convert" me into a scince and maths person.. he lets me go on and i'm free to choose what i want.. as long as he is sure that i like it..

As for my atm card... i believe this applies to almost everybody... i usually get what i want... From CDs, watches, handphones and many other stuff... he will usually get it for me as long as it is affordable... hehe...

When i'm in trouble or anything that i couldn't handle.. the first person i will be calling is my pappa... especially since i started driving... when my car gets cranky, call pappa... when i have a flat tyre, call pappa... when i meet an accident, call pappa... when i'm lost somewhere, call pappa... Oh, this depends.. if it's work then it'll not be pappa.. it'll be my colleague.. hehe... Pappa is my savior..

well... he brings me along during his company trips.. to China, to Hong Kong... and once, i almost get to go to Japan before my semester reopens right on the date of departure.. DANG!!! It's quite fun going out with pappa.. I have more freedom... and i don't have to rush over everything... hehe...

in a nutshell... my pappa is still the best pappa anybody could every have... Love ya, pappa!!
HAPPY PAPPA'S DAY!!! (ok, fine... Happy Father's Day to all the pappas aka fathers out there...)

Signing off~~

The last day of my student card

2010-05-22T16:47:00.001+08:00

Today marks the last active day of my university student card... so that officially means, after today i am no longer a student.. Although there are several "sequels" to my previous blog posts but I'll continue them later..

This post is mainly to mark the end of my student card... which means i no longer qualify to enjoy the benefits as a student.. student discounts, student promotions, student price and stuff... so from now on, i'll have to depend on my working salary instead of student allowance... judging on the amount i'm earning now.. i should keep my eyes off ebay and shoppings malls.. especially now, as i am still saving for my taiwan trip.. living off without weekly allowance feels weird as i have to feed myself and use my own savings since i have not received my first paycheque yet..

I don't know why i have this crazy thought to continue at the company i'm now working in after my taiwan trip.. that is, IF i did not manage to get another job i might switch to be a permanent.. How crazy is that?? after seeing people coming and leaving like the river flow.. How did i end up with such thought?? Really...

My working days has started a week already... so far so good.. Not much frustrations yet.. hopefully there won't be for the whole month... as i am still considered as a temporary.. i am allowed to leave anytime.. hehe....

good-bye student card... embracing my working life... the expiration of the student equals to the evaporation of assignments, exams, cgpa, and marks... until now, for me... it still sounds like a good thing... yippee for now...

A little something from my current life

2010-05-11T19:03:00.001+08:00

Well... Since i am in the mood to post something here.. i will might as well update something about my current life.. which is surrounded and cornered by exams.. foooh... Speaking about exams.. this very last final exam of my degree life is the most torturous ever!! Not only the pressure to my very best to achieve as much gpa as i can to pull up my already pathetic cgpa.. but the mood to get everything done and dealt with, really takes away my mood to study... just think that i could ditch all these once and for all and get on with life makes me excited until i lost the touch with my notes and text books..

the other subjects have passed and are history.. so i'll just talk about the paper i just had this morning and the next paper on thursday... It's film studies paper today.. for this paper, i am not only suppose to know the history and movements of film... i'll have to watch movies too... Not the typical ones.. a significant soviet montage film, the Battleship Potemkin, it's a silent movie.. it's black and white.. and.... the best thing is... it's in Russian!! Then a combination of film noir and science fiction film, Blade Runner... it's an 80s sci-fi film.. and a dash of film noir which is a direct opposite of the typical sci-fi... so i'll have to analyse... well.. it has Harrison Ford in it.. so it's not too bad... but i only watch half of it... at least i watched.. coz i did not touch Battleship Potemkin... i have the feeling that i'll go blank even after watching the film.. so i should not waste time.. better make use of it and search for information online... and a good thing i did... coz what i found is exactly what is required of the question... wahahahahahaha... it's so unusual for me to have luck in spotting questions.. it is usually those i studied hard and memorise will not come out as questions... hmm.. lucky me.. thank god!!

Oh ya.. i am suppose to watch a Malaysian film... but i forgot about it.. so i totally skipped that question.. i did attempt to do that question because it just need arguements instead of theories.. but those need time to build up.. and for the malaysian movie, i could take movies that i have watched.. Kami, the movie, Spinning Gasing, Sepet, Talentime, Impak Maksima, Rain Dogs, Gol dan Gincu... hmm.. i did not realise that i have watched quite a number of local movies.. hahaha... but i also need time to think back and refresh the storyline... however time is what i'm lacking during exam.. so i ditched it..

anyway... i hope my answers are acceptable to get higher marks... hope hope hope.... i really need luck for this...

then on thursday, it will be my last paper... Television Production 2... sigh... a clueless paper.. the whole subject is basically us pouring our whole effort into the final year project which is under this subject, the multi-camera production of a live show... other that tips, dos and don'ts in the studio for the shooting, i could not really remember what else what taught in class... how am i suppose to sit for the exam??!! the best thing is, the guidelines given by the lecturers are so vague that i could just might as well burn the notes and swallow.. hoping i could remember everything in the notes that is so unfamiliar to me... hope hope hope, again...

ok... dinnertime...

SIgning off~~
Toodles

Me, myself as a student

2010-05-09T14:26:00.002+08:00

It's me again... to invade my own blogsphere.. another sudden mood... so another random post... Here goes...

After next week, i could unofficially shed off my student identity card and start a whole new life... why "unofficially"?? the official date falls during the convocation, right?? the day i throw off my student id once and for all... well.. i have been a student for almost my whole life.. and i can't believe that there's one day i will have to say goodbye to it... Maybe because i'm used to ticking the box on the occupation category that states student... Now, i'll have to tick something else.. or maybe UNEMPLOYED!! if i don't manage to get a job secures after my finals... yikes!!

I started to put on school uniforms when i was 2... and that's when i start kindergarten.. in case you are wondering why did i start so early... i remember mentioning that my mom was the headmistress of a kindergarten when i was born till i was around 3 or 4 years old.. so i was basically born in a kindergarten.. when i was 2 my mom put me in my very own school uniform and "kicks" me off to class, where i start learning to read, write and count...
since i started at 2.. my kindergarten days was unusually looooong... there was a time when my cousin ask, why are you forever in the kindergarten stage?? What can i do?? i'm not at age yet to enter primary school.. so of course i'm in kindie... what a question to ask.. i should have answered that during that time... aish... As a kindie student, i was quite talkative.. often being punish for talking in class... hehe.. i was quite good at reading.. judging my process on the "Peter and Jane" series... i was usually ahead of others.. '.' v

after 4 years of kindergarten in 4 different kindergartens... hahaha... my record... i finally reach the age to step into primary school.. my first primary school was in Penang... where i spent 4 - 5 months there... then i moved back to Subang and went to Sungei Way.. it was a "transit" while waiting for Lick Hung to accept me... I was there for around 2 - 3 months.. i remember how i hate the prefects there... i dont know why.. they dont let you open your mouth or stand up for god's sake.. What The??!! At least those in Lick Hung were slightly better...
then i was transferred to Lick hung and settled there throughout my primary years... people always say the pressure in Lick hung is unbearable.. but it's really weird that i don't feel anything... The homeworks are ok, additional classes in the afternoon are kinda fun because our initial classroom is occupied by the afternoon session so we get to use the science lab or the "kemahiran hidup" lab... which is very different from typical classrooms... how boring could it be when you can look at saws, hammers and other tools or test tubes, thermometers and other apparatus in class... they are kinda interesting, if you ask me.. a shift from the text... hehehe...
I was quite a good student.. yes, i am... i did my homework although occationally forgetting some, but i always manage to finish it before handing in! I go to school by bus so it arrives super early that i'm usually the first to reach the class and on the lights when i was in the morning session.. so i have plenty of time to complete my "unfinish" business... even if i forgot to do my chinese caligraphy, i could easily find ink and brushes conveniently in one of my classmate's drawers... hehe... as long as i wash it and put it back... he's ok with it.. he's used to it anyway... he needs it too... then i'll have dictionaries in the drawer on another classmate which is a big help when it comes to those exercise that needs to description of words and stuff or even idioms.. that guy have all sorts of dictionaries under his table.. you name it, he got it.. huhu...
besides that, the best thing about our class is we have been in the same boat (class) for 6 years... so we are really united when it comes to conflicts.. we even help back each other up during punishments.. and some of us are still in contact... after 10 years.. (woah!! I'm old!!)
the bus rides are also the best moments, i always set my watch alarm to ring 5 minutes earlier than the school bell to remind me to pack up so that i can run to the bus and secure a seat when the bell rings.. as you know, boys and girls this age like to fight.. it's always a fight on who gets the most seats on the bus... but sometimes the boys will buy us, girls keropok lekor to enjoy during the ride home.. that's kinda nice of them.. but they still fight with you.. sigh~~ boys are already so complicated as such a young age...

anyway.. my primary school life are the happiest student days throughout my whole student life... Where is the pressure?? I did not really feel it.. so stop saying that Lick Hung is full of pressure.. It is not.. and, mind you... I've got 7As for my UPSR... so trust me.. no pressure...

Then, i moved on to secondary school just opposite where i stay.. it takes less than 5 minutes walk if there are no cars on the road separating my place and the school.. this a completely different life compared to my primary school, which i will do anything to get my primary school life back... it's not that i hate the school.. it's just.. i don't like it... don't know why... the people there are ok.. teachers are ok, some are very nice.. the students are fine, classmates get along quite well... i just don't know why.. maybe the lack of sense of belonging??
well... this is the time when i realised i have no interest in science an maths... although my marks have been quite high during primary school... i have suddenly lost interest in them when i reached form 1... weird.. i still don't know why... at least i was quite a decent student in school... i don't break rules.. unless you count bringing liquid paper to school... but do you know how many tubes of liquid paper i can buy with the price of one correction tape?? and how long can i use it?? do the math.. people can also "conteng" using correction tape la.. without liquid paper, there are still loads of things to use, like pens, for instance?? forbid us to bring pens then.. hahaha... obviously i would not be that stupid to waste my liquid paper to "conteng".. what's there to "conteng" anyway???
The best part, i could say during secondary school is the co curricular activities... i was quite an active member back then.. because the school is near so there is no transportation problems.. the same clob and society every year.. Taekwondo, chinese language society and ping pong... shows my loyalty huh?? Taekwondo is because I have been learning it since standard 1... so might as well continue... Chinese language society is because i really miss my primary school days... and ping pong.... erm.... this is just random... i'm not good in ping pong... er... i FAIL in ping pong.. why did i join in the first place?? i think its a random pick... since i'm not THAT into sports and badminton requires members to go to another place from to school to practise.. so i chose ping pong... and i till dont know why...

That sums up my secondary school life... nothing much about it... the most to talk about are my friends... but i guess you already know them.. they have been constantly appearing in my blog.. hui ping, sheh lee, rachel, cheryl, ain, ika, syahira, fathimah, cze theng, wei lin... etc etc... so i'll jump off to my next paragraph...

oh... then, it's my university life.. which is broken into 2 parts.. foundation and degree which is totally different... and i decide to continue them in my next post... so i could have more posts this month and also continue with my endless studies... huhu...

Signing off~~~

*stay tune for my next post... should not be long after judging on the consistent bugging of blogging moods... Toodles!

when I am suppose to be busy...

2010-05-07T14:08:00.003+08:00

I'm here... again... ditching my films studies and tv production 2 notes aside and typing for another post blog for the month... haha... like i said.. the mood of writing blogs will just appear during those very crucial peak periods.. when you really need to make use of every second you have to prepare for it... but the mood is like a bubble.. if you dont appreciate its appearance.. then when it pops.. it will be gone forever... and you will certainly regret the hell out of your life for not making full use of it when it's around.. at least, i do all the time...

speaking of appreciation.. film studies certainly reminds me of a very "unforgettable" subject i have taken last semester which will always be in my memories to haunt me.. it is called film appreciation, criticism and interpretation.. a long name increases the "scariness" of this subject... this sole subject is the verdict of I not getting a first class for my degree.. although i dont seem like i mind a lot about this classy matters.. but the fact is i do CARE... anyway.. a simple mistake could just bring you down from the top to the right bottom underneath the soil where people could step on you... a simple mistake deserves to be forgiven, don't you think?? maybe not for the second time.. but for someone who doesn't know... come on... oh, who cares now?? it's history..

but sometimes i do question the need of interpreting the inner, damn deep till nobody could see or understand meaning that is concealed so well only somebody who really have the utmost passion towards the film could really take the time to guess what message is it trying to convey... however.. sometimes i do wonder... does the director actually really thought of these things?? or it's just actually pure accident or meaningless than we main syok saja and go interpret like nobody's business?? I'm not saying that all are like that.. No no no... don't get me wrong.. this is just another way of me seeing it.. of course i do understand the need of interpreting the art of a film to appreciate.. but what if.. well.. i'm saying, what if there aren't any meaning?? why is it made in a particular way is just according to how the situation allows it to be?? There's no deep, sophisticated style of whatsoever message that is trying to be conveyed... just purely the way it is, there's no explanation or anything... the substance is already there when the director is filming and the director did not see a need for it to be removed or maybe they weren't allow/able to remove it... then here we are thinking the indirect message that it is suppose to convey.. something like that would be kinda funny, wouldn't it??

well.. this is just a joke, a sudden thought that i have will cracking my brain to interpret what a "flower pot" means in a random story... so please dont get offended and say that i am condemning the film appreciators, interpretors and critics... because i am not.. this is suppose to be a random thought to be treated like a joke.. thank you very much... ( sorry if you are offended but i really do not mean to..)

Ok now... time for facebook... haha... aren't i suppose to be studying?? i know, i am suppose to.. but let me collect my earnings from happy island, harvest my plants at country story, feed my workers at restaurant city, play with my pet at pet society first.. once i'm done with that.. i'll do the same using my sister's account collect her earnings, harvest, feed and other stuff... THEN only i'll start organising my notes and start studying... okie...

signing off~~ toodles

Mami and Me

2010-05-05T16:33:00.001+08:00

Alrightey!! I know that i am now suppose to be drowning myself into the facts and figures of communication technology.. but.. as usual.. my blogging or writing mood will usually be turned on during these very crucial peak periods... sigh.. besides.. i have been ditching the blogsphere for quite a while now.. it's now time to be back.. or else.. my blogger status might even be terminated... Nah.. just kidding, it wouldn't be that serious.. unless i terminate my own blog.. Nothing will happen to Panda's space unless i say so.. yeps..

Now back to the topic... as everybody in the world knows.. mother's day is right at the corner.. so i now have the sudden urge to be writing about me mami..

I have hardly mention about my mami in my blog.. maybe because this is MY blog and it is suppose to be about ME.. ok.. MY family is also a part of me.. whoosh, whatever.. Sorry for the distractions.. it has been a long time since i last sit down in front of the computer and type a blog post.. so just bear with my sudden freak-outs and nonsense..

oo... coming back to where i am suppose to start with.. my mami... the fact that i am most proud of.. she is a masters student wei!! fuyoh, bangga sial!! however... friends of my mom has been constantly saying that my mom has been sacrificing a lot for the family.. Actually they did not say "family"... they said FOR ME.. i didn't really understand at first until i stepped into my university days.. only i know that she was suppose to have a bright future ahead of her since masters are quite hard to come by during her days.. and she decided to settle down and raise me up.. ("you raise me up...so i can stand on mountains~~" hehe.. so touching.. snif snif.. ehem.. back to blogging) so that how she sacrificed for ME...

But, I did TOO sacrifice for her.. erm... hmmm.. uh... ok fine.. i didn't.. eh, wait.. does driving her or my bro or my sis around count?? because she is lazy to drive and i did sacrifice my TV and online time for that, you know.. oh well.. i did help out with household chores too!! wash the dishes occasionally, help clear up when i have the mood, bring the clothes out to dry, take the clothes back in, frantically running to take the clothes back in when my neighbour's maid start screaming "Hujan!! Hujan!!".. and yes, there is a difference between both, one requires effort and the other requires more agility.. hehe.. ah yes.. i sort the clothes too, fold the clothes.. buy clothes.. hehe.. that's not suppose to be in the list..

anyway.. the times when she started teaching me mathematics when i was like 3 years old was my worst nightmare.. just because she is good in maths and also a statistics major does not make me a born mathematical genius or whatsoever.. well.. i guess that is why i hate maths.. until NOW... But i can't deny the fact that it did helped me quite a lot.. imagine at the age of 3 or 4(i'm not sure which).. i already know that the mathematical signs (+ - x / i dont know their real names, so sorry.. told you my maths is bad) that is moved to the other side of the equal sign will be the opposite of its kind.. like a plus becomes a minus and vice versa.. i did not know this theory really exists until when i reach form 2.. i really thought it was a formula invented by my mami.. haha.. because i have never seen this formula throughout my primary days.. that sounds kinda cool.. hehe..

the best thing about my mami is she goes shopping with me and my sis.. and most importantly.. PAYS!! haha.. thats one of the reason why i love shopping with my mami.. and also we can buy clothes, bags or shoes that fits all 3 of us.. coz we are almost of the same size.. maybe just a slight difference.. but.. nevermind.. save money, save the environment.. thats a good thing.. so the exchange of clothes and other garments part is frequently happening in our house.. sometimes you'll find someone digging into the wardrobe that is not hers.. hahaha...

not forgetting.. my mami's cooking.. my bro has been constantly praising my mom as a "good cook" ever since he start eating solid food.. although he sometimes compare her with my 3rd aunt (saa koar) but she's a chef la.. can't really compare.. but he did say they are on similar standards.. anyway.. my mami cooks yummilicious food.. although now she keeps emphasizing on the less salt, less oil = healthier eating habit.. but still, i'll miss it when i don't get to eat them for more than 3 days..

hmm... that's all i guess.. i have to go back to my facts and figures or else i'll be in deep trouble tomorrow.. see ya soon!!

saje~~

2010-05-01T13:32:00.002+08:00

entahlah kenapa.. aku ni malas semacam je.. tahulah exam seterusnya hanya tinggal 1 hari lebih je tapi masihlah malas sangat nak buat ulang kaji.. baru habis je subject yang menyeksakan.. takde ke break yang lama sikit?? kesian la kitorang ni.. buat susah je nak ingat apa-apa kes, seksyen apa kat buku undang.. pas tu ade tak link link kat mana mana sekyen yang lain pula.. penat tau?? dahlah masa ulang kaji nak ingat tu penat.. masa periksa tu lagi menyeksakan!! banyak sangat perlu tulis.. masa tu 2 jam setengah je.. buat penat je tulis.. tangan patah pas tu tinggalkan kat meja.. haha..

aish.. cam ne ni?? dah sem akhir.. exam yang paling last dah.. pecuuuuut!!!

just~~

2010-04-11T18:42:00.004+08:00

I know it seems that i have not been updating my blog for like ages.. but honestly.. i have 2 incomplete posts stashed up in my drafts(this post is also one of them, so it makes 3 drafts).. because i havent really got the time to fill in the photos and stuff...

many many things has been going on currently... not forgetting the ever-haunting;y-annoying assignments.. just when i can i get over with them?? i just hate all these marks that will drastically affect your CGPA stuff... why does it matters so much?? who invented these kinda things anyway?? i know in order to "force" students to study.. marks and exams will be the only tool the make them sit down and revise what they have learnt in class.. honestly.. thats just so irrelevant.. if somebody wants to study.. he/she will get his/her butt onto the notes and books how it matters or not.. if he/she dont want to.. what's the point of forcing them thru marks?? its a waste of time and money and effort and a whole lot of other things.. besides.. marks does not proof a thing if you ask me.. i know a bunchie of people who are just great on what they do but screwed themselves hard time in exams and failed like a dozen times.. but just because of a bunch of numbers.. they are categorised in the "unqualified" group... which is a big bundle of nonsense.. its up to an individual on knowing his/her skills.. and how they wanna put effort in working on it (improving, that is)..

i'm saying this because me and a gazzilion of them out there are victims of the marks/qualifications come first society.. what they see first is how well you did in your exams and how high is your cgpa.. than to see if you really want to study.. some people just dont have the luck in exams and marks and stuff but they really have the heart to go thru notes and research on books and stuff comparing to some who are pure geniuses but dont know what are they working for.. it doesnt matter whether you are from the type who doesnt have any luck or the type who has but dont know the use of it..

anyway... i came by a very good quote from a friend...

"why do you have to judge someone base on their grades?isn't there more in their personality besides credit ratings and CGPA???!!! it doesn't mean that someone has distinction has more knowledge than the other..it just means they study the textbook damn long enuff to know every f**king thing "

And guess what.... I totally agree with this... it's brilliant!!

March with birthday busy-ness

2010-03-17T18:10:00.004+08:00

Well.. unfortunately for me.. my birthday will always "coincidently" meet with mid term tests, assignments due.. yadda yadda... stuff that will always take my mood away from celebrating my birthday... it use to be bundles of mid term tests... and however coincident it will be... the subject on my birthday will be Math... sigh~~ of all subjects.. you'll have to pick the subject i dislike the most.. it happened during form 2 and form 4(i think, or is it form 5.. either one).. worst for the latter.. it was add maths..

Then when i was in university.. It has to be some mid term test of whatever presentations or assignment due.. anything could happen just to not make my birthday a day for me to fully enjoy... i remember there was once it's the DJ live show thingy going on... Then it's International Advertising mid term... and now.. it's the communication law assignment due the day right after my birthday... Well.. anything else you would like to say besides luck or fate??

Anyway.. one thing is i skipped a class on my birthday..
well.. no.1 it's my birthday (this reason stands out right itself)
no.2 it's comm tech tutorials... (i guess you know what i mean..)
no.3 the class would usually last for less than 1 hour... (so....)

I have 3 solid reasons.. so off i go...

However... the 616 gang have planned a surprise party for me.. well.. it has been quite some time ever since surprise parties happen to me.. so to be frank.. I WAS SURPRISED...
no.1 because they surprised me the day before my birthday
no.2 i thought it was for someone else...
no.3 It's not my birthday YET..

but anyway.. really appreciate the effort...

so here are some photos... of the celebration...

My cake and me...

My present... Darry the elephant!!

616... Thanks a lot!!! Luv ya!

Welcome Slushie!!

2010-03-10T11:16:00.002+08:00

Here comes my early birthday present for myself... hehehe...

His name is suppose to be Slushes and he is a Ty jingle beanie... but i decided to call him Slushie.. it's cuter... hehe

I've got a good feeling about this birthday.. although it's gonna be lack of something that has always been there during the past... but anyway.. i'm over with it... hehe..

p/s: I actually plan to write more so that is why i kept this post as a draft.. but then i decided to post it since i need to fill up my blog with all those draft posts that i have been saving...

again about communication

2010-02-25T22:24:00.004+08:00

Ah yes.. before you forget about me.. i'm a bachelor of communications student so basically my subjects in school are about communication... intro to mass comm... comm theories.. comm law... comm technology... etc etc... so by right.. i'm suppose to be superb at communication??

right?? NO!!

i believe you have spotted my post 2 years ago about communication theories or something.. if not.. i think it'll pop back up in the links below this post.. anyway... it's not that important... because i'm not going to be talking about communication theories or whatsoever... i'm gonna share something about communication technology or better know as ke-munication technologee... Again... another communication subject lecturer who can't communicate... What's the problem with people nowadays?? he keeps saying that we are dreadful students who don't listen in class, have no respect for the lecturer and whatsoever... eh hello... "you blind ah??!!" i'm always trying my best to listen to your lectures ok?? eventhough it kills me softly from the inside..

then he comes up with this lousy dumb st*p*d idea of changing the attendance list every lecture so that we can't refer to our previous signature and therefore people can't sign for you because according to him.. once he found that your signature is different.. he'll straight away bar you from exams.. and dont even dream of him unbarring you... what the??!! do you have a problem?? everybody knows that you can write a word in the exact same style twice... how can you sign in the same style for 14 weeks?? oh ya.. i forgot.. this is a 4credit hour paper... so times 2... 28 times.. there's sure to be some difference there... i would like to see you barring me because of that.. if you do... you are not seeing the last of me... i'll haunt you forever man!! oh.. i forgot another thing... he said if your signature or initial... i was at first using the initial of the 1st letter of my name and a figure that sounds similar with my last name... then he told me to use another initial.. "you got problem ka??" do you know what is an initial?? if you want me to sign complicated, artistic, bombastic signature.. go ahead and say it.. change my initial?? why don;t you ask me to change my name?? and also... are you aware that global warming is getting worst?? so why are you still wasting paper by printing a new attendance list every lecture?? there's around 4 or 5 pieces per class.. let's make it 4 then.. to save your guilt... 4 times 28... you do the math.. cannot?? 112 pieces of paper going to waste.. thanks to him who have to go thru the hassle of checking each and every signature making sure nobody is inventing new signatures or somewhat so that he could add in the list of candidates to be barred.. excuse me.. we did not ask you to do that, ok?? there are better ways of making sure people don't sign for others during lectures.. use your brain and think, please...

i'm not done yet... to concentrate in his lecture is kinda hard coz it's really hard to avoid the annoying invisible questions marks swarming all over your head.. he reads directly from the slides... his further explanation are directly from the slides with a little rephrasing and synonyms.. (ah... that's how you quote stuff from materials... use synonyms and rephrase.. a lesson to be learnt) and then i realise than his notes are directly from the textbook... "eh uncle, you first day in utar ka?? tak tau budak utar 80% english not very good?? you use textbook english, siapa faham?? with your weird intonation some more.. very confusing" ok..

for instance..

a point from the notes "communication is a process of exchanging information using a common sign or symbol" (just an example, the fact might not be correct)

explanation "so communication is a process... of exchanging the information which means you exchange the information using a common sign or symbol"

apa ni??!! if that's the point you think i can't read myself??

then after lectures.. you ask whether we have any questions... saying that when you were in univeristy you will feel very sad if you dont have the chance to ask questions... in my case.. i'll feel very sad if i have questions coz that means i dont understand the lecture and i grade myself as "stupid" already... ok fine.. maybe for further understanding i might ask questions.. but in your class.. no thank you... i tried it once and never wanna try again.. i get even more confuse after asking.. you seem to twist your words everywhere around the world.. when ask a straight forward a or b question... you tell me the story of c and d which is completely irrelevant and none of my concern... so, why waste time?? and make myself even further from where i am initially from the subject...

and enjoys torturing us... you mentioned that you will not give tips for exam.. so?? big deal... "don't give la!!" i dont mind.. dont even care.. i can study on my own.. thank you very much.. but then you like to give out ridiculous hints like "don't be surprise.. i make make that as a question in the exam.." i heard than like a trillion times during my 6 weeks of lectures.. what do you expect us to react when we see the questions?? get the shock of our lives and suffer from a heart attack?? and maybe die on the spot in the exam hall?? and then your favourite phrase.. "i may put that as a question but no promises.." who do you think you are?? shayne ward?? if you dont wanna let us know.. don't say it at all.. it's really irritating... oh oh... another quote "don't expect me to have question so straight forward, there is no way i'm gonna ask like that.." so??!!

understood that the lecture is boring... i know it's really hard to make it interesting with all those facts and graphs.. but at least just teach like all other lecturers do... why keep giving students a hard it's their 3rd year already.. let them be.. you dont wanna give tips then dont... go on teaching and dont blurt out random useless hints which end up with a "no guarantee".. what's your point?? to show that you wanna hint us but at the same time we should be studying everything instead of depending on tips?? you so don't know what our generation are thinking.. so dont ask and show that you understand us as if you were in our shoes.. you are NOT! we are from different generations, FYI..

-Ah.. if you are wondering why did i choose such a striking colour.. i do have a reason though.. so you don't have to read if you don't want to.. just some personal rants-

put on and put off...

2010-02-08T17:14:00.003+08:00

Just a random photo i would like to share..
It's Hogwarts!!! don't know why.. i'm currently in a harry potter mood.. i re-read the whole 7 books... and not forgetting janet hayden.. but i lost my papers AGAIN... sigh... have been searching high and low already... but it's nowhere to be found...
sigh... type and save in the computer.. once the document corrupted... cry... write and pen down on papers.. once the papers are lost.. cry again... what's the best way to preserve writings??
Continues writing about Janet Hayden... this time i found the safest way.. well at least it is the safest for the time being... write and save it in my email... at least.. i think email database will be quite unlikely to be corrupted..

Week 4 has just began... workloads are starting to pile.. things are requiring serious attention.. what a way to start my pre-CNY mood...
2 proposals are due today... and several are due on week 7.. 3 weeks left... and i'm still here staring into empty space and empty documents... "don't know what to do" is the best phrase to be used during this semester..
Really in mood for CNY... But the heaps of assignments really puts off the fire... so what should i do???
no.1 Push assignments behind my mind and get on with the celebration and start jumping around anxiously after the celebration because the deadlines are inches away...
no.2 get started with assignments... do bit by bit even during CNY... (That's a put off!!)
no.3 Get everything done before CNY and enjoy the celebrations.. (This is IMPOSSIBLE...)
Whatever it is... I'll still have an assignment-filled CNY...

The "Should" or "No Should"??

2010-02-04T22:28:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i really question a lot of things.. Once upon a time... people tell me that extra-curricular activities was very very very important when it comes to applying scholarships during the tertiary education stage... Does it??

Ok, i'll admit that i am not active and involved in current university activities due to the time and transport thing.. but i was quite active during secondary school...

notice the past tense???

I really don't get it... If extra-curricular is THAT important.. how come i see people whom i know have not been actively involved in extra curricular activities gets scholarships like nobody's business??

So what is it actually?? Is it important or not??

If it is... then how come i see what i saw?? how is it fair??

I put in a lot of effort in those... but in the end... it seems useless... everybody are standing on the same box... active or not... so should i be spending my time on things that doesn't really help me in anything.. whilst the transportation i am using could be put to better use at other place??

and then how come questions about the active-ness comes up again??

I really don't get it...

from laws to ethics

2010-01-21T18:08:00.003+08:00

You can clearly count the days that i have not been updating because my last post was on the 1st day of the month.. It's the 21st now so i have abandoned my blog for 20 days... There's a few reason why i have not updating my blog like i did previously...
no.1 i'm lazy...
no.2 i dont think that it is necessary for me to update every single detail of my life already...
no.3 my life is so un-happening that i have nothing to fill my posts...
no.4 havent thought of it yet...

Started the first week of my very last semester as a degree student... the very last chance to get my cgpa back up for a change..

First subject... communication law.. LAW!!! my best guess is there will be a heck lot of lines to remember... and loads of reading to do...

Next... Communication Technology.. honestly.. the only thing i know about this subject is "communication technology"... that's the only the phrase the lecturer has keep repeating for a gazillion times!!

Film studies... dont know how will it turn out... hopefully it only share the "film" word and not the whole critical, analytical, skeptical, illogical, whatever-cal thing...

tomorrow will be my first taste of Media Ethics and Television Production II...

early conclusion.... I'm SO DEAD!!!!

New New 2010

2010-01-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

Just to say.. i think i should be posting something on the first day of the year.. as my first post of the year.. before i curl myself up in bed... and get ready to wake up the next morning with my mom cling clanking around telling us to clear up the dusts around the room... why wouldnt dusts go extinct?? i will not miss it though... it's always the hassle of clearing up before the New year.. Chinese new Year to be particular... and i hate that... too many stuff but too little to be disposed.. i'm the kind of person who likes to collect rubbish for a reason that nobody could understand.. oh well... i believe there's always some use for that certain object some day... and i desperately need a new bookshelf!!! after my dad throws me a box and told me to empty my previous bookshelf.. i'm now down to just 6 small shelves for all my textbooks, novels, storybooks, language books... and trust me, it's not a small number (and i'm not boasting)

whatever then... for this year.. i want to graduate 1st class... but i think it's kinda impossible after the wreckage i have done for a certain subject which will be totally trashing my hopes of maintaining my cgpa for first class.. sigh~~ dumbo!! oh.. i heard my convocation will be at Kampar, i think... so i guess my friends might not make it... sigh~~

after graduating... i'm actually throwing off my student card... my student life that i have been embracing ever since i was 2... almost 20 years... i'm now switching to a new phase.. the occupation section in forms that i have to fill will not be filled in as "student" anymore... woah.. kinda hard to get used to all of a sudden... but still i hope to get a decent job.. something that i like to do.. or at least, pays well... i can deal with either one... i knwo life is not perfect as you will never get what you want.. so i'm happy with half..

or maybe.. i can take another turn.. but it's not really in my plan... to pursue a masters degree.. i plan to do that after 2 years of working experience.. but i suddenly have the urge of going abroad and it's getting stronger when i face frustrations here.. which will never be lesser... i'm still planning to go to HK though... since i could not really stand going to a country that speaks English, as a lot of people have suggested US,UK and Aussie... then.. i dont wanna waste a year for language, so Japan and korea is out... Taiwan... maybe.. but i prefer HK... a lot of people dont like the lifestyle there but ifind it extremely comfortable for me.. fast-paced.. but i can handle i think... realistic.. i know that.. sorry to burst bubbles... so now i'm working on the search for scholarships.. hopefully... sigh.. without a first class.. things will be difficult... damn.. i should have signed up for another course.. i knew that i suck at design, criticisms and stuff which obviously have done dreadful things to my cgpa.. such as pulling them down from where they were suppose to be... dreadful~~

oh.. i'm done.. it's almost 1am already.. i should go off to my bed and tumble down and around before starting my new year with load of CLEARING UP to be done... sigh~~

Recap

2009-12-30T20:42:00.001+08:00

Again... you thought you have seen the last of me for this year.. haha.. here i am again!! Just in mood for another post before the New Year... this time it's gonna be a recap of the things that has happened during my semester.. which are not blogged about...

There will be photos too!!! not much.. but there will be... woo-hoo!! consecutively 2 posts with photos.. my blogging mood has finally come back, i think... bonus bonus~

Ok.. where should i start?? Let me recall... -tracing back *beep beep-

I guess i shall start with the steamboat at Titus' house..

Then it's the broadcast journalism assignment... cover events~~~ cover events~~

First event.. walkathon (we had to wake up at 4 something for this)

Vitagen..( this was fun.. the shopping part... haha.. it was held at sunway pyramid.. what do you expect??)

Lion's drawing contest plus tzu chi's recycling exhibition (Yikes!!! my fat arm!!!! i'll never ever let it look like that ever ever again!!!!)

Easy Phamax (the biggest event covered... kinda lost though.. dont know what to do.. who to catch and what to shoot...)

huhu.. i suddenly have the urge to quit broadcast and maybe do some major on journalism.. since.. i think i'm more comfortable writing than running around holding a camera.. of course.. scriptwriting or screenplay is still the first choice.. but i havent found a university that offers it for masters.. so for the time being.. i guess i'll stick to journalism since i think my degree has certain relevance to it though.. hopefully...

Then.. it's the graduation photo taking...

What else?? Sze Ern's quality relationship campaign... never been participating a campaign so whole-heartly... ok.. it's the bear i want to win... and also.. sze ern is my friend since my days in Sungei Way!! how many years that is?? 14 years!!!!!! i have no excuse to not support her then..

And of course... i taken the korean language level 2 class.. this is way much much much harder than level one... struggled quite a bit..

luckily i have bear with me...

Oh ya.. i'm not done with broadcast journalism yet... we still have to shoot the whole news programme... hehe.. we stayed in uni until around 9pm... i think that's the longest time i have spent in uni...

Jessie Chang went to Bali... and bought us this...

Oh.. just to share... the biggest k-room i have been to... it could fit 30 people, i think... but there's only 3 of us... i wonder why did they give us such a big room for??

This is just half of it... imagine how big it is..

ok... end of post... i dont think there'll be anymore surprises already... let's welcome the new year... i better get my new year post ready...

another post for this month..

2009-12-24T17:43:00.009+08:00

Hey Yo!! Just when you thought that i was going to end the year with just one post for this month... haha.. i'm here to surprise you... not only that i'm updating... it'll also be full of photos... hohoho... a merry christmas to you!!!

My blog has never been a picture oriented blog.. number one.. i'm not really interested in taking photos.. except for special occations.. that's exceptional... and especially those with my face in it... dont know why.. i just dont like seeing my face in photos... anyway... reason number two.. i'm lazy.. yes.. do you know that uploading and arranging those photos into a post takes like forever?? especially when you are not good at it... so to save time.. DONT upload.. reason number three.. it's not that i do not own a camera phone.. but my phone requires a cable in order to transfer the photos into my computer.. dont suggest me anything about bluetooth because my antiques at home dont have it.. so it's just my phone alone... and the best thing is.. i lost the cable!! so what for taking photos when i can just only view it in my phone?? hmmm...

ok... end of stuff that is dragging me away from my actual topic here... oh.. just one more... i'm officially done with the GD exams of Y3S2!!! yippe yay!!! finally... after those torturous days... i'm finally over with it...

now.. i'll start my initial idea for this post.. yesterday was the last day of our exam (yes, this belongs to the topic...) after this, it's our sem break... so the 616 gang organised a pre-christmas outing plus celebration to ikano-curve-cineleisure...

First stop... lunch... at Manhattan Fish Market... plus of course... the early birthday celebration for our dear lecturer... Mr Luqman...

he's officially the granduncle of the lai gang..

then... it's present hunting time... i was actually planning to get the chip and dale plushies.. they are jsut so cute!!! but judging the space left on my bed... i think again and thought maybe i should get something else... so i change my option to a japanese DVD that i have always wanted.. Galileo File (or something like that.. i forgot the actual name).. who knows.. when i dont wanna buy it.. it keeps showing up luring me to bring it home.. when i sincerely want to... it is nowhere to be seen.. sigh~~ that's life.. you always don't get what you want... and there are always regrets.. i kinda miss chip and dale now.. ish...

Oh ya... gotta give credit to the K-mon gang... i have been spreading the K-mon Christmas tradition here... hehe... the exchanging gifts part... Wee... and i miss you guys!!!

My sandwich at Ikea cafe...

Group photos!!

"C" is not what i wanna get for exams...

2009-12-13T15:11:00.003+08:00

I know i havent been on my regular updating mode.. i'm not sure why but at least.. i'm back up here to update on something...

it's the start of my exam tomorrow... first up is Creative Strategy for Advertising... good one.. by just looking at the name you'll know what is the main core element of this subject... "CREATIVITY".. you must be blind if you couldnt figure that out...

so i'm suppose to prepare a campaign for Extra chewing gum and some freaking anonymous-invented paper... tell me, why did i put myself in to this again??? well.. my campaign is typical for the chewing gum part.. and completely clueless about the damn paper... so screw it tomorrow...

then it's film appreciation, criticism and interpretation... another easy to find core element.... "CRITICAL".. ok fine... another thing which i could find any in me... when will you stop torturing me?? this is the subject that will leave you completely clueless.... like throwing a stone into the ocean.. you have no idea where is it going to end up... except maybe at the bottom of the sea.. on a sea bed or something... same goes here... my crappings will end up on mr. luqman's hand and will be at the mercy of his red pen... that's all i know for sure...

last but not least... broadcast journalism.. this subject wasnt so bad... but judging on my skills to write a good lead for the news script for TV and radio... i'm not so safe after all... but that's next week's thing... so i'll put that away temporarily... talk about it later...

i guess... my blog posts this year is far lesser than my posts for last year... i really wonder what kept me off my blog?? i still blame it on my aging process... wuahaha

to avoid making myself even more guilty for staying online so long and not start drafting my campaign for tomorrow... i'll be signing off here...

beep beep...

Just talking

2009-11-19T21:44:00.003+08:00

Yo.. i know i have not been around my blog for a very long time.. i'm back up here to clear away some dusts and spider webs hanging around here... i havent been blogging and i really dont have much to blog about currently... well.. some of my news report stuff are kinda interesting but i dont have time to share them up here... i havent got the photos anyway... those copied from facebook are not from the best quality.. anyway.. it's just excuses...

my short semester is coming to an end... just a blink of an eye yo... sigh~~ this has not been an overwhelming semester.. thing have not been going on smoothly.. or they'll either be ok on the surface, hiding a whole lot of challenges and problems underneath the very nicely coated top layer...

the subjects we have for this semester is seriously heavy... gosh.. 3 equally heavy subjects cram together in a short 7 weeks... imagine a ton on your shoulder... get the picture?? ok, so now multiply by 3... guess how it feels... you are squished onto the ground...

csa is just a disaster... ideas were given, presented approved but they dont go together... a campaign will need to have at least 3 ads in a media... so we have 3 ads plus an ambient which makes 4... and all the tutor did was to approve all of them.. BUT, the magic word pops out... "NOT CONSISTENT"... what the??!! i think we already have 5 different but incomplete campaigns already... everytime the tutor approves a few.. we'll have to think of others to match those that were approved... but we couldnt think of any.. so we change the idea.. then there he goes.. the same thing about the "CONSISTENCY"... why??!!! we have an average of 2 ads per campaign.. which makes them all incomplete... what a disaster!!!

then here comes broadcast journalism.. the assignment itself is kinda fun... covering events and news.. but when it comes to writing news stories... the nightmare arrives again... my articles are too "report" style.. similar like those "laporan" essay you do when you are in high school.. sigh~~~ and it's hard to change... i gave up writing and focus on my online news instead.. shooting went ok... just ok.. coz there were problems in the way and the fun part somehow balanced it up...

film appreciation, criticism and interpretation... sigh... sigh.. double huge big sigh~~ i'm no critic.. i hardly critic stuff... i dont see thinks critically.. i'm a very surface person... i go by the literal meanings... if you will have to ask me what is the meaning behind something... wooh... what the hell are you talking about??? besides.. i'm not observant enough... my eyes are slow... what to do?? i'll be staring at the movie for my assignment without blinking to interprete the shots... poor eyes....

i know it's kinda late to rant.. but i just couldnt help it... why must the government allow the ptptn loan to be converted to scholarship if the student is a first class honours?? why must this have to happen?!! i remember there was such thing a few years ago.. and i dont know why it was abolished dont know when... but all i know is when it's my year to apply.. there was no such thing.. ok fine.. so it'll just have to happen right i before i graduate.. what luck i have..

i am not a lucky person.. i know that.. i never have the luck for things, lucky draws and stuff.. i'm ok with that.. but this is too much... how can i be so unlucky??

i need luck.. i need creativity... i need money... i need more time... i need i whole load of things... where can i find them????

worn out...

2009-10-27T18:46:00.003+08:00

wah~~~ just a sudden urge to ride my bicycle.. so i decided to take my dust-coated "mountain bike" out for a ride... also, i need to post a letter to oolong tea.. so i might as well go to the post box near my house and drop my letter...

so i move out my bicycle... the tyres werent full of air so i took out the foot pump... but somehow dont know why the tyre is still kinda "flat"... after a few rounds of trying i gave up and took the other pump which requires the car engine as a power source... i think the problem is with the foot pump and not the bicycle tyre... after all my tyres are full of air... i hop on and off i go to post my letter..

in the beginning of the journey is still ok... until i met a slope towards the post box.. not 1 but 2 slopes... huhu... after i dont know how many years of leaving behind my riding skills.. it certainly is kinda scary being unable to control the speed of the bicycle.. it's funny that i didnt notice the slope before... coz i used to drive thru that road... so slope or no slope didnt really make any difference to me...

ok.. letter into the postbox... now here comes the nightmare... going down the slope is scary... imagine going up... it's freaking EXHAUSTING!!!!! gosh... 2 slopes man!!! this is no joke.. after i reach the end of the slope i felt that my legs arent mine anymore.. however there's still quite a distance from my house.. but luckily the road is flat... *puff puff~~

after i reach home... my arms and legs dont feel like mine anymore... dont know why my arms feel like that too... weird~~ do they share the same nerve system???

i know i have not been exercising AT ALL... i guess... this is a sign of me getting worn out...

hands and legs are falling off...
signing off~~~

back to uni

2009-10-22T18:49:00.003+08:00

Hello everybody... after tomorrow it'll be a week of uni already... being back in school after around 5 months being on holidays and internship, i'm not used to all those schooling life all of a sudden... those early mornings... lectures and tutorials... piling assignments... never ending discussions... sigh... but it's my last year already... so i guess.. i'll just have to bear with it for another 7 months... then off to my graduation trip!! wooo~~~

I have been checking.. my posts for this year have been gradually decreasing... wonder why.. too busy or too lazy?? or maybe i just have nothing to write about..

Uni have been ok these few days.. as usual.. I will not feel the pressure of assignments until the middle of the semester.. currently, it's still the beginning and introduction stuff... so i guess i should be getting used to the stuff about uni and get my engine started and get going.. i have a creative brief to submit next week and nothing is done yet... i wonder will i be able to get it done by tomorrow...

ok.. i'm going off now..
sigining off~~~

p/s: are my post getting shorter and shorter... hmmmm....

SC

2009-10-15T14:05:00.004+08:00

Sigh... uni is starting next week.. back to the early mornings and limited parking space.. then the dont-know-what-to-eat-for-lunch issues... the rushing on assignment 2 days before the deadline... cramming notes (actually wanting to just burn or melt and swallow them) half an hour before an exam... and many other issues... well, that's uni life... cherish while i still have it, as a lot of people say... i will...

times flies so fast... as i keep delaying stuff that i planned to do during my break..
D.I.Y birthday card (70% done... almost)
a video (for whom-it-may-concern)
Story (TFKC, reaching the climax.. almost done,i think..)

these few days i again found something i have not been doing for a very long time.. i have been picking up a lot of things that has been forgotten during this year... this time, it's kimo clubs and SC!!!

SC stands for Sam Club... 王少偉（王紹偉）俱樂部... i was once an active member here but when he started shifting off from show biz to his Uncle Sam's bakery cafe and hardly appeared on TV, i started to shift.. not that i dont like him anymore.. just a shift of interest.. however, artiste or businessman.. i'll still be supporting him.. hehe...

so these few days, i manage to sign back into his forum and start posting threads... just to go back and be an active member for a few days... kinda miss those days.. miss leeling, and valer..

sure hope to see him again in Malaysia... or maybe just have an Uncle Sam right here.. hehe... i wish though...

signing off~~~

Happy Birthday to Panda's Space!!

2009-10-04T20:30:00.003+08:00

Yooohooo!!! it's Panda's Space's birthday!!! 3 years old.. well.. i have been managing this blog for 3 years already.. how time flies...

i started Panda's Space during the beginning of my university years and now i'm reaching the end... sigh... it means i'm getting older... you just can't run off from the hints that tells you that you are getting older...

owh... i didnt mention... i went back to my ex-company to collect my claims... and meet up with my ex-colleagues.. how i miss them!!!! really... although it's just less than 1 month but i miss them already... i miss teresa and her sarcasm with coco who is so blur to understand her point and the point will end up fighting but each going different ends... until one side gives up talking... i miss nick and corine, the new interns who resembles so much of the old me when i first step into the company as an intern... very "semangat-ed" to do everything and keeps asking a lot of questions... at least i dont think i ask a lot of questions because everybody seems so busy back then... i dont think there's anytime to stop and think of answers or questions... anyway, the office is still the same old... nothing has change much from the pass few days with me hopping around in the office...

and before visiting my ex-colleagues... i went for a k-session with hui ping.. that marks my.. erm... 4th k-session of the month(september)... 1st was with my collegues.. ex-colleagues now... plus san and chris who were ex-employees of the company... then it's with half of 616, egg, lsf and jessie.... the 3rd is with my family.. momma, bro and sis.... and the 4th is with hui ping... well.. i'm really satisfied.. i wont complain about not going for k-sessions for the whole semester... hehe...

ok for now...
signing off~~~

here i am...

2009-10-01T00:45:00.006+08:00

Back from genting 2 days ago...

bought 2 pair of shoes....

dedi paid... hehehehe...

enjoyed the trip...

didn't know that dedi is so willing to go shopping with me and even pay!!!

hehe, so although i'm just with my dedi, i still did enjoy the trip...

the casino ain't as exciting as i thought it would be...

just a big room with table games... the typical round or hemisphere table with green velvet on top.. plus loads of slot machines... it's something like an arcade, just that it has an age limit and is strictly for grown ups...

i sure miss mami's cooking after eating in genting for 2 days... sigh~~ the only safe thing is to opt for fast food... but then most of them are free so i'm not complaining much... dedi just have the power to get free coupons for meals...

and then, i have a room all to myself!!!! wahahaha... i can sleep on 2 beds... stay in the bathroom for as long as i want(what for??)... keep the lights on during bedtime... watch tv and never have to worry that the volume may be to loud for other people in the room... hehehe...

i just realised that i did not take photos of my new shoes yet... anyway.. i may upload them here later... maybe later or tomorrow will do... if anybody's interested...

stay tune...
signing off~~~

filling in

2009-09-26T16:20:00.002+08:00

currently not really in the mood to blog... about my shooting post part 2... sorry but you'll have wait... coz i dont know why but i just dont have the mood to continue... anyway.. uploading photos need a lot of time and i need to rearrange... lazy~~

i'm posting here because there has been quite some time since i last blogged... filling up some words around so that it will not look dead..

bilibala bilibala... i'm still on my semester break... really dreading to go back to uni next month.. holidays are still quite up and kicking... anyway, i dont mind staying at home the whole day... besides... hari raya week has been kinda fun... shopping plus k-sessions... huhu...

just to summarise... after a round of searching for wardrobe reference for my ex-company　(sigh... past tense..) i just can't help looking at clothes other than those required by the company... however, those required by the company are also very tempting.... but the price some how pauses your temptations... too high to afford... my allowance ain't high... that's what i always say to myself when the urge to put the clothes on the counter and start pulling out my purse to pay is too strong to resist...

however, there are also some tempations... such as when you go out with friends and decided to try on some garments... they'll be convincing you to buy... buy... buy... hehehe... anyway, that's just an excuse to buy... of course, the price is affordable though...

therefore, i have spent almost half of my last allowance on clothes... wuuu... i guess the main reason you earn money is to spend... however, this is the time where i spent so much in such short period.. hehe... i'll earn those back when i graduate... there are still a lot more waiting for me... i took some photos.. well, they are actually for the company's wardrobe reference... but i pick those that i like... so i guess... i'll put them up later or in another blog where not so many people is reading.....

stay tune~~
signing off~~

Internship.. Byez~~

2009-09-16T00:19:00.005+08:00

Well... it is official now... I'm done with my internship in XuanWorks... i'm certainly gonna miss this place... the best thing is the even had a farewell lunch for me and xiaochin as it was our last day.. hehehe... i heard there usually wont be farewell for interns but... oh well... we extended... so i guess we are not just "interns" anymore.. hehe... became part of the company...

well... my days in Xuanworks are certainly full of various emotions... ups and downs... but in the end... i can say that i really did enjoy my days there... although sometimes there are frustrations.. but then... i still did learn quite a lot... and i guess that's what internship is all about...

i will really miss them... a lot lot!!!!

The director and producer... Bryan and Miki

Client services... teresa... wuwuwuwu... will miss her sarcasm the most!!!

assistant producer.... man yong (coco)... will miss her blur-ness... snifs

assistant producer.. jolene (2nd on the right) and conty girl, xiaochin (right)... ok.. although me and xiaochin are in the same university.. same course... same lecture class... but we seldom have the chance to talk ok... we have our own gang in school.. we hardly mix... miss you, xiaochin...

ex assistant producer... san... she have been thru with us during most of our internship days... irreplaceable...

ex employee... chris... will miss her jokes...

and not fogetting the new interns... corine...

and nick... will miss you guys... stay safe in xuanworks...

if you guys need anything from me... besides money... dont hesitate to call me.. i'll see what i can do...

My last shooting at XW (part1 - the set up)

2009-09-13T15:29:00.009+08:00

I have been involved in 5 shootings (2TVC & 2 infomercials & 1 infomercial+TVC) during my internship in XuanWorks... all of them has been fun... so now its time to share them here... i'll go backwards starting off with my most recent shoot... that was on last saturday-sunday... overnight shoot from 12pm (05/09) til 3am (06/09)...

The set

The "resting" area..

The Product.. (i'm not sure whether i can reveal or not, so i guess this is it)

The director (the product is clearer now... haha)

The assistant director

The assistant producers

The producer

The art department (plus our new intern, Nick in the 2nd photo)

The DOP (director of photography)

The camera crew

The conty Girl

The best candidate to test lighting and angles, our another new intern, corine

The client services executive..

The clients

The talents...

And... the wardrobe person, photographer of behind the scenes, written a few lines of the script and production assistant.... yours truly....

This is the setting up part... that's all for now...
stay tune for more....

~signing off...

final report... check!!!

2009-09-04T20:22:00.003+08:00

ooo... i finally hand in my final report for my industrial attachment(IA) or better known as industrial training and also internship...

i know i said that i'll finish everything latest by wednesday and get my appendices and reference stuff signed and verified by thursday... but i just dont know why... a common human behavior that tends to stretch till the last minute... i officially finish my report yesterday in the office... of course.. i got a little help from the new intern, Nick... hehehe... he help me crap along for my conclusion... i was so stuck there i stared at the title for almost 3 hours...

anyway.. it's kinda sad to realise that my days in xuanworks is coming to an end... 10 more days to go... hmm... i wonder will i miss my days there???

anyway.. i have an overnight shooting tomorrow... from saturday to sunday... stay at the location for 2 days... i have never ever experienced an overnight shooting before... this sound kinda exciting... and our crew ill have to race with time since the talent will only spare that much of time for our shooting... and we have an infomercial and 2 TVCs to shoot tomorrow...
a challenge... oooo....

besides... i'm kinda looking forward as a part of 616 has plans already for the holiday... hehehe... its gonna happen right after i leave the company... huhu.. what a great way for a break... happy~~~

what else should i be saying??? hmmm... besides my weight issues... it has gone down on monday.. but went up again today... it must be the cheese... sigh~~~ what to do???
and i'm so lazy to exercise... i have been doing sit ups and push ups in the morning before going to work... i think that will help reduce a little weight... aish... when will it be a forty something instead of a 50???

the end is just the beginning

2009-08-29T14:11:00.003+08:00

oo... here i am again...

i think most of my course mates are currently celebrating the end of their internship... after 14 weeks of intern life... it is time to get back to studies... but first things first.... we have a final report to complete... sigh... i feel so lazy to start on that...

anyway... just to let you know.. my intern life has not end yet... nono... mine will be ending next month... 15th to be accurate... well, i'm actually extending my internship with my current company... unbelievable??? quite... i thought so too...

i was kinda shocked when they asked me whether i would like to extend my internship... because i am kinda hard headed at times and i tend to answer back when questioned.. hehehe... my bad.. so i thought they wouldnt wanna have such a hard headed "employee" in the company... but anyway, i really appreciate them asking me... well, my hard head is good at banging walls tho... hahaha... anyway, they ask offer me to stay for a week... i said ok... then it became 1 month with an additional amount on to my allowance.. kinda tempting... but its kinda long... although i said i like the work.. but still i need a little break... hehe... my dad is bringing me somewhere by the way during the end of september.. so i guess i couldnt stay so long after all...
then i asked whether is it ok for me to stay for half a month... well, they are ok about that and everyone's happy...

however, i didnt get to ask for the pay though... i sure hope it wont be too little... i am still glad about them asking me to extend... because i was actually planning to since there might be a drama shooting on september, however due to some unforeseen circumstances, the drama shooting is somehow delayed... oh well, i didnt think of extending after that... but i am ok with extending if they want me to... it really does boost my self esteem to think that they are asking coz they need me... hehehehe... although i'm not sure of the actual reason but thinking that way makes me happier... well if they didnt ask i shall not go around asking for it since there might be a hint that they do not need my help after all... so better dont cari pasal... or else its kinda embarassing... hehe...

hehe... so i'll still be back to work next week... and not forgetting a final report to write...
i will still be busy...

signing off~~~

Bakuteh

2009-08-19T22:41:00.003+08:00

Hi there... i know it has been a very very long time... i hardly abandon my blog for so long... dont know what's happening to me... maybe its just work... about my company... sometimes i hate it so much that i might just kill someone off.... and sometimes i kinda enjoy what i do... which just makes my day... well... i have been doing pretty much lately... contacting talents, checking their availability... arranging time for casting... handle castings... edit casting videos... well.. i finally know what i like to do... i like to mingle around with talents... wuahahaha.... i now have loads of people's phone number in my notebook... well.. i'm just shallow... hehe... just ignore...

quit talking about work... last saturday i woke up early morning... why??? coz i'm off for bakuteh breakfast outing with chen yee and ke yang....

chen yee and ke yang... ke yang is the driver and chen yee is on the left... that's his cap you are looking at...

off we go to klang for bakuteh.... sorry.. i have no photos during the first stop... busy eating... it was nice!!! really nice... too bad i didnt take any photos... busy eating...
noticed that i said "first stop"??? coz ke-yang suddenly came up with the idea of going for a second round... hahaha....

so since me and chen yee couldnt find any reason to protest... we went off for a 2nd round...

Our 2nd round... smaller portions.. but then i still prefer the first one.. i hope we can go again... hehehe...

After that, ke-yang came up with this crazy idea about going to taman pertaninan malaysia... we were like "what??!!" the sun was glaring madly that day... nobody is in mood to go walk and see stuff that have to do with "pertanian"...

however... ke-yang was the driver.. so all we can do is follow the driver.. so when the driver says go to taman pertanian malaysia... means WE ARE going to taman pertanian malaysia...

on the way in...

parking lot... this was taken when ke-yang was asking the boy who sells parking tickets, "mana ada parking a??"... i guess, drivers just stick their eyes in front, dont they???

walking to the ticket counter... it turns out that ke-yang was organising a youth camp for his church... thats what brings him here... he came here to ask for details... phew~~~

as we were walking to the office... chen yee on the left and ke-yang on the right... sorry.. you'll just have to look at their backs... their fronts are too shy for the camera... hehe...

dua orang sesat studying the map of the place... ke-yang actually suggested that we go in and have a look... as in buy tickets and go in... i was like... "you gotta be kidding!!!" luckily chen yee strongly disagrees with the idea... hehehe... way to go taiwan zai!! ke-yang calls him that coz he claims that he's getting more and more taiwanese after going to taiwan to further his studies...

what's the place again??? repeat after me...

Taman Pertanian Malaysia...

anyway... at the end of the day.. i was glad to be able to meet up with chen yee and ke-yang... we were primary school mates... and we havents seen each other since we graduated from primary school... hohoho... this outing just randomly happened on a face book post... where we randomly suggested and its ON... hehe... thanks to facebook!!!

then later that day... i went to full house, nzx with huiping, rae and shehlee... i was too full due to the 2 rounds of bakuteh... i didnt eat anything... instead, huiping belanja-ed me a drink... hehehehe... gamsahamnida huiping!!!

and that reminds me... huiping.. ur pronunciation i found already... but then its not with me down and i'm lazy to move... i'll leave you an msn offline msg tomorrow.... sorry for the delay... i forgot!!

picking it back up...

2009-08-01T16:12:00.003+08:00

well well well...
10 weeks have passed...
and i survived gracefully...

plus, i manage to "see through" a lot of things which eventually makes my life a lot more happier than it previously were....

although i have almost absolutely nothing to do in the office during the whole july... but i managed to pick up a few things that i have dropped off long time ago...

i start reading fanfics again!!! and i never realised that i actually miss them so much... after my account was somehow "terminated" by winglin because i left for more than.... 2-3 years, i think... anyway... i wasnt really keen on creating a new account... because i now have a blog specially created for my fics... although the readership will be much much lower than my winglin days... but i somehow could do without having much readers... i'm ok with that...

then i have been reading back the fics that i have written years (i'm not telling how many years tho... i feel old..) ago... and guess what.... it brings back memories... and reminds me of how i think when i was writing them... hehe... oh god... the aging process just gets me...

anyway... i think i might just as well pick up my fic-mood again... since i suddenly have the urge to continue the fanfic that i have abandon years ago...

well... my internship days are coming to an end... and i know that i have said that i want it to end and stuff... did i say anything like that?? maybe when i was so frustrated being banned, ignored and stuff... but then... come to think of it... i feel kinda sad that its ending already... hahahaah... weird me...

i guess... the thing that comforts me about going back to uni is that i'm still a student... and i'm not that old yet... hahahahah.....

birthday party...

2009-07-31T21:25:00.000+08:00

Last saturday... syahira's birthday celebration..
since i'm working from monday to friday, from 10am to 7pm... there's no time for me to grab anything for her as her birthday present...
so on saturday before going to her house for the party, rachel, cheryl and i hopped to pyramid to see what we can get...

then hold on till night time and head off to her party...

let's see....

the foods

the birthday girl...

The decos

the cake

The gang...

The face when the yummy food all ran out... including the cake...

and... the cat.... uchi

testing testing~~ 123

2009-07-28T16:48:00.001+08:00

I honestly did not plan to post anything up on my blog today... but just i have to try out the email posting function... so here goes a blog post of random blabs...

its the 10th week of my internship... and i really think that time sure flies pass... i now have 1 more month to go till i am thru with my internship with my current company...

for now i start to think... whether am i suitable to be in this field or not.. oh well.. i should be i guess.. since i'm accepting and adapting to the real world of working where everybody will only care for themselves and the money... to be realistic and a lil pessimistic tho... you can also find real friends in your workplace.. people can be nicer than they look... but just get ready to face certain cruel facts... dont shunt yourself in your own world and thinks that the world is perfect just exactly like how you pictured it... that's the ostrich's way of doing things.. not human's...

anyway... i suddenly have this feeling of not wanting to go back and study... well.. i guess i'm tired of assignments, mid terms, finals, and the most important factor that influences the most..... MARKS... and not forgetting... CGPA.... i somehow prefer working than studying... i feel that studying is in fact more stressful than working...

ok.. i might have said this too soon... but currently, that's how i think...

maybe when i officially start working... i'll miss my internship days... as an intern.. you have this "get out of jail free" card which is equivalent to a "make mistakes but will be forgiven" card.. as an intern... everybody knows that an intern knows nothing more than the textbook has... so internship is a time for them to learn... and when people learn... they make mistakes.. but then... it's a normal thing for interns to make mistakes... so as an intern... there will not be much responsbility bared on my shoulders... so its more relaxing and fun... gosh... i said "fun"!!

i certainly dont have the mood to carry on with my studies already... i guess i have 1 month and a half's time to work it out... meanwhile... for that 1 and a half month's time... what should i do???

well... i'm just wondering whether my company would want me to extend my internship.... if they are still willing to pay... obviously i dont mind.. hehehe...

then i plan to catch up with my korean language and do some self study for my japanese... sigh.. languages... you cant just leave them hanging... they'll go away if you ignore them too long...

my dad is also suggesting other places for me to go to as an intern... wuahahaha... he'll have to work with his contacts tho..

what else??? i really wanna go overseas... just dont know why.. but i really feel like leaving here for a short period to just breathe some different air in different places... anywhere will do... hk, china, taiwan, japan, korea or even s'pore.... and yes.. i'm very asian... i stick to my continent... because other places are too expensive anyway...

i'm on my last year of studies already... how i hope i can further in other countries... although i said i am tired of studying... but maybe doing it in a different country may help... heheheh... me and my excuses...

ok for now.. i think its long enough....

for those who are expecting pictures... i'm sorry coz i'm not sure whether should i attach them or just use the img tag... i'll try that another time then...

signing off...

It's here!!!

2009-07-26T21:52:00.002+08:00

This is fast... order placed on last wednesday and thursday... payment settled on saturday...

order dispatched on monday...
and received on wednesday!!!!!!
my biggest order on ebay...
14 books..

ok... it looks 15 here... well.. apparently one of the books was a little ruined by the rain... so they replace with another book... but then.. they sent the book that was ruined too... i havent really open and check how ruin it is.. so i hope it isnt too bad...
well.. at least i can read it...

recap: shout awards

2009-07-26T14:30:00.005+08:00

ok people...
for those who always say that my blog has too much words here are some post with photos..
although its not many..
but at least some non-text stuff to boost some imagination...
what am i talking about???

oh.. nevermind...
a brief recap about last week's shout awards...
ghost won the freshest tv show...

to bad cheryl and naz didnt win the best on screen chemistry award... what a waste... they lost to upin and ipin!!!! wuahahaha...

then field trip USA for freshest tv show (non drama)

not forgetting KAMI for best breakthrough movie...

well.. the rest... just google yourself... coz i dont remember the categories...

about last friday...
i didnt get to go home on time due to some "mis-communication" that always happens in my company...
i only get to take off at around 8.15pm...
by the time i reach home... the awards has started!!
sheesh...
luckily i didnt really miss a lot from the live telecast of the awards on 8tv...

woes...

2009-07-15T18:57:00.002+08:00

I can’t believe I can’t go to the ShoutAwards… and I actually have the opportunity to gain hold of free tickets to the event…. Sigh…. I guess…. I’ll just watch it from home then… I wonder will there be live telecast on tv???? For those who are interested.. it’s on Friday, this coming Friday (17/7) starting from 8.30pm… which obviously shows that I can’t make it because I’m working on Friday until 7pm… so in order for me to get to bukit jalil from damansara perdana… even though if there’s no jam… although it’s somewhat impossible… i may also not make it in time… so let’s just dump all those other MINOR problems like me don’t have a single clue of how to go to bukit jalil stadium from damansara perdana or even my house…. And I may not get any parking space…

I’m cheering for Naz and Cheryl for best chemistry in Ghost!!!! I hope they win… I did vote!! And several others too… I vote Ghost for best programme (drama), field trip USA for best tv programme (non-drama)… what else?? Kami for best film… I’m not really sure of the names for the categories.. but they are somewhat like that…

Hmm… it’s not the end of the week yet… but let’s talk about internship just to fill up the post… this is certainly the most frustrating week I have ever had… and I know I still have 2 more days to jump into conclusions but I can conclude… the previous days were like hell so the frustration level is to the maximum comparing to any other weeks… firstly…. People starts forgetting what they said previously and couldn’t make up their minds… in the end insulting me and my knowledge of the language…. Damn… anyway… the incident keeps repeating itself so no point repeating them here… the conclusion is you present A.. people think A is not good… they suggest B… then you do and present B… then they say B is not good and ask why didn’t you do A??? then they just give you this i-am-not-happy-but-i-am-not-gonna-scold-you-coz-I’m-nice look…. And then tells you to do C, a combination of A+B… fine.. I’ll give you C… then they ask you why aren’t you following??? And now they want a little of D.. which people claimed they had mentioned it earlier… which I don’t recall anything… along with my 3 fellow colleagues… anyway.. so now they want E, which is C+D….

Sigh~~~~

And one more thing… I seriously think that Malaysia has too many oppositions… coz I’m currently researching about corruption… and whenever I type corruption… it is not facts that come out but a lot of opinions and critics… which is something I don’t need… I only want the actual case and facts… but the opinions and stuff are interesting tho… which distracts me from researching on facts instead I start reading all those critics and stuff…

However… people will not accept that there are things that are not available on the internet… people claims that I have not done enough research… well.. I dare not say I have done enough but I tried every way I could to search for those info and I failed.. so do you mind telling me where to go instead of “you go and search… sure got one.. search further…”

What is “search further”??? I have already reach the end of the results… is that far enough???

A lot of minor things cannot be found on the internet, mind you… and the ones that I have done research on are those I have presented earlier… which you have rejected… my dear lovely version A…

The rest… I now can only rely on my imagination to create your Bs, Cs, Ds and Es….

missed raymond...

2009-07-11T23:04:00.004+08:00

Hi... another week of my internship has passed... this is a week that i have practically nothing to write about... because now i understand the feeling of having absolutely nothing to do... oh gosh... every morning i step into the office... it's facebook from 10-7.... well... it was still ok for the first few days... then i realise that it wasnt fun at all having nothing to do....

so now i hope we have things to do next week... which i think we will have as i have seen the schedule that we'll be starting preproduction work.... ok... so since there's nothing to talk about work... i guess we'll talk about other stuff...

i missed raymond lam at kepong metro prima yesterday... oh shucks...

reason no.1 i dont know where kepong metro prima is....
reason no.2 it starts at 8pm and i finish work at 7pm... by the timei get there.... it'll be full of people.. not to mention the jam while getting there... they say it is hard to secure places... even if you are an FF member... and i'm NOT...
reason no.3 i'm kinda lazy to go after a day's work... although as i said previously i was quite free in the office... but still.. it's quite tiring just staying in the office... ok... keekee is gonna kill me if she sees this...

anyway... he's gonna be in johor, ipoh and penang.... and the FF gang is following him across half of malaysia... and that's what i call loyal fans... hahahaha.... i'll be supporting you guys mentally!!! my heart will be with you!!!

and then... i had this very spontaneous get-together with cheryl and the gang... haha.... nice to see cheryl back here... nothing has change.... well.. the problem with going out in a big group is everybody have different interests and they stop at different things... well... let's just say that we'll tend to lose a few members everytime somebody turn away to look at something and turn around back to join the gang.... it happens a few times today... almost everytime... well... it's EVERYTIME!!!!

i must really control on my spending.... ok... i dont earn a lot during my internship... so i'm still depending on my family when it comes to petrol and parking ticket.... which may also differ after we move to connaught... well i try to save on my meals by bringing home cook/prepared food to the office... oh gosh... the problem is... i really enjoy spending... but i'll always regret after doing so... weird huh??? that's it for being kiamsiap... oh... i forgot to introduce my 3Ks in life... please welcome... Kiasu... Kiamsiap.... and Kepo... these are my 3Ks in life...

sigh~~~ when can i spend happily without regretting after that???

oh well... i tend to be very grateful when weekend arrives... not that i am not grateful before this... but now... i'm even more grateful... just like how i used to be when i was in high school... how i love fridays.. not only because of the chinese class... but also the coming of weekends... i always feel dreaded to go to school... just like how i feel dreaded to go to work... of course... i think going to work is a bit better than going to school because at least i'm doing what i like to do... so it does cheer up my monday blues... and the part where you can wake up anytime you want....
and i'm kinda lucky considering that fact that i dont work during weekends....

ok... end of post...

signing off~~~~

XOXO (detailed explanation)

2009-07-08T13:36:00.000+08:00

The reason this is repost is due to some people who don’t understand the point of the point and starts giving anonymous rude comments about the points that doesn’t even exists in the post… besides… I think that fella is banned from hk now coz he criticize hk so much until one of my friends said that he should just stay in an egg and grow there because hk is just a small portion of the real world…

Ok… if you totally understand my previous post (XOXO) regarding this.. I think there’s no need for you to continue reading but you still can just for the fun of it.. because at first… XOXO was just my perception about certain things and I am not talking about anybody in particular… but now this is directed to the anonymous in person… however I doubt that fella will be reading this post after leaving such shallow opinions…

Ok… let’s start….

well... everybody has a right to voice out when they see something they dont agree with... but i shall also say... they also the right not to... so just see how it goes... if they decided not to say anything... may they can still bear with it... and they also have their ways of avoiding it to affect themselves... so why make a fool???? and ruin things that are in a good condition???

–here it means that people have the right to open their mouths or not… so any third party is not suppose or allowed to force anybody to voice out… and sometimes when people don’t mention maybe it means that people don’t think the matter is important enough to express… and maybe people just don’t want to ruin things that are going on nicely all the while…. So people are just trying to be nice… which force them not to be??? –

i shall also say that... talking behind people's back is not a good thing... but sometimes... there might be a reason behind that... although it may not be strong enough to support but then... sometimes its really better that way... i have experience... that people cannot really handle critisms although they claim they could... in the end... friendships... gone... everything... vanished.... so why pretend as though you could when in the reality you couldnt???? and as a result... break things that arent suppose to be broken???

–oooo… here comes the very “misunderstood” part… I shall highlight it.. talking behind people's back is not a good thing… so that’s what I said… however… there might be reasons behind it.. maybe they don’t wanna spoil the relationship they have with the person… because criticizing in front of that person may hurt his/her feelings… and they will turn defensive.. and fight back… things in the end turn out ugly and not the way anybody has expected… -

i stand my views as if i dont like people doing that to me.. i will not do that to others in the first place... like i hate being framed... so at least i will not be framing people for what they have not done.... but however... i never said that i hate people talking about things behind my back... honestly i'm ok with that... ok... maybe i'll be a little uncomfortable... but come on.... who likes to be the topic of gossips??? i'm still ok with it... because the mouth belongs to others... i cant do anything about it... although... due to my very "kepo"-ness... i am always curious about what they have to say about me... well... if i get to know it...

–ok… here’s another “misunderstood” part… I said “if i dont like people doing that to me.. i will not do that to others in the first place...” so I said that… I can still accept people talking behind my back because I do that too… well.. I cant expect people to respect me if I don’t respect people on the first place.. so I’m fine with people talking behind my back… good or bad… and I don’t see it as backstabbing because they are telling the truth about what they don’t like about me… and those are not my secrets… so since it’s the truth… how can you say its backstabbing??? Backstabbing means betrayal.. misuse of trust… like I trust them with a secret and they go off telling people.. that, to me is backstab… but of course I cant expect everybody… all of my friends to like me 100%... so they are allowed to say and even discuss my flaws with others… when they decided its time for me to know and change… I’ll get to know eventually… if not… they either think it’s just a small matter… or they think I’m hopeless to change… -

hmm... ok let's make it this way... if its a negative thing... and that person doesnt like it... ok.. i'll try my best not to do that in front of him/her.. but that doesnt mean that i could change overnight and completely stop to be a different person.... maybe others could accept so i could express the way i am to the people who can accept... no harm done....

– maybe my command of English is that bad until people don’t understand what I write… maybe I should consider English lessons or something… here I said that if somebody doesn’t like me doing something… hmm.. this is vague… let me give an example… A doesn’t like me cursing… I’ll avoid cursing in front of her… but maybe in front of B who doesn’t mind me cursing.. I’ll still curse… because I cant just stop straight away… maybe some people can… but I need some time… I’m a bit slow sometimes… so bear with me..-

its hard to change something that has been comfortably set in you... maybe you could avoid.. but its still in you... like how i dont like malaysian cantonese.... i avoid using the term that were only used in malaysia... but my hong kong friends still say i speak in a very malaysian way... what to do??? its with me all the time.... sometimes they'll say... "hey... you now speak less like a malaysian already... welcome to hong kong!!!".... i'll be like "really??!!! oh gosh!!! i didnt realise!! yippee!!"

–this is just an example that I used to explain the above point.. just to say that I actually can change without realizing… and I’m so sorry to mention hk here… coz it made hk a shooting target… I apologise to each and every hong kong citizen who have come by this blog for unintentionally making it a shooting target for criticisms… and making them feel offended… I’m so sorry…-

same theory... different situations... applicable anytime.... anywhere...

–does this need explanation?? Coz I don’t know how to explain it… I’m just making an assumptions that usually people don’t change overnight but they will change without even realizing it… sorry if its wrong… just my own assumption-

however... i believe people talks about other people behind their backs all the time... good or bad.. it's just a part of mingling with other friends... nobody, i believe... nobody don't talk about the people they know behind their backs... of course unless they are dumb.... cant talk isnt a crime after all... being talked about isnt really as bad as some people think it is... in another way... i think maybe because i'm remembered for something... people know me for something... good or bad... hmmm... that's another thing then.... i'm working in the entertainment industry and we need these "gossips" to survive... no gossips... nothing... there's no word of mouth... then... please take out your wallet and pay for the promotion.. thank you very much....

– well… here I assume that everybody talks… even like when you discuss about stars (I mean singers, actors stars… not star light star bright… no wishes will be granted… thank you very much) I’m sure you couldn’t be talking about brad pitt or tom cruise in front of their faces right??? So that is kinda consider talking behind their backs… but actually when they talk about brad pitt or tom cruise… they are actually spreading their name around… that is why they are so well known… they might be talking about their life-partner change… or they can also be talking about how good looking they are and how good is their acting… this is call word-of-mouth promotion.. which is free of charge… and that’s a really typical thing that is happening in the entertainment industry… people criticize because they don’t know or understand… well.. if these are people who are also working in the industry themselves… I feel very sorry for their naïve-ness…. No.. their density….-

Thank you for your time!!!

delayed post again... outing on 20/6

2009-07-05T16:19:00.005+08:00

sorry for another delayed post... hehehe...

20 june...

today is the day after my "best internship day" ever.. which i get to meet up with ain and gang... ain is back from the US for holidays... and yippee... she's not infected by the AH1N1... that means we can hang out!!!

we set off to sunway pyramid.... then meet up with jia shan and cze theng... well... all 3 of us realise one thing... we havent been speaking BM for like how many years was it???? picking it back up is a little "cake water" in my terms... and the normal terms is .... AWKWARD!!! a lot of words are forgotten... and sometimes you get stuck in the middle of a sentence dono how to continue because of this one word that is missing from your brain... and in the end... english comes back into the conversation....

here we are....

when we were having lunch in Teppanyaki.... and ika is actually wearing baju kurung... fuyoh!!! formal gile.... ade function ke???

then we shot off to the arcade....

first... the car racing thing... which is almost a "must-do" in arcades....

then syahira and ika have a go on the house of the dead.... the lost at the stage where there's this huge round belly guy... or thing.... gross... reminds me that i'm getting fat again... sigh~~~

then we walk around pyramid aimlessly.... talking and laughing along... and ika have this very funny hobby... when she sees an escalator... she'll have to get on it.. even when nobody is planning to join her....

so she has to come back down... herself....

and she does it again... but this time... we accompany her... "kesian je~~"

we wanted to take a group photo... but we trust no stranger to handle the camera... so this is what we did...

we took turns holding the camera... so there will be one of us disappearing from each photo... haha.... this is the very last photo we took right before my camera battery decided to go to rest...

Of course.... the other 6 photos were taken using ain's iphone... so there are several NG (no-good) photos... during the process....

first and foremost... jia shan decided to capture her feet first before capturing us.... and she also decided to do it the artistic way... which is to blur the whole thing... and that's her feet you are looking at... by the way...

after looking at her feet... she decided to give people a different perspective of taking photos... which is upside down.... well... it's really.... hmmm.... artistic of her....

here's another artist... who wants to portray the feel of us as drunkards.... it's really successful by the way!!! way to go, cze theng!!!!

that's all folks...

signing off~~~

XOXO

2009-07-04T11:42:00.004+08:00

As i said... i have rants to get on with... at first i thought that it might just spoil my mood... but second thought... timing isnt really an issue... so i decided to pick this lovely morning... to release some of my stuff... which maybe some people are very curious about... wahahahah... (*winks)

first things first... i would like to say... everybody is not perfect... everybody have their flaws and weaknesses... but its up to them whether to improve or change or not... and its up to you whether you could accept it or not... sometimes a flaw may not seem such a big problem to person A but it's a great big deal to person B... so who's problem is it??? the person with the flaw or person B??? in my opinion it has to be person B... because it is not a big deal to other people... so you either learn to accept... or just totally ignore... i understand it is hard to accept something you dont agree with... but i dont think its necessary to make such a fuss about it.. since some people could stand the way it is... well... in some situations... if everybody couldnt stand the flaw... or a majority couldnt... then the person should do something with the flaw... because its disturbing almost everybody around the person... but if there's just a minority... maybe it's the flaw that makes out who you are... makes you unique.. makes you special... what's the fuss???

well... everybody has a right to voice out when they see something they dont agree with... but i shall also say... they also the right not to... so just see how it goes... if they decided not to say anything... may they can still bear with it... and they also have their ways of avoiding it to affect themselves... so why make a fool???? and ruin things that are in a good condition???

i shall also say that... talking behind people's back is not a good thing... but sometimes... there might be a reason behind that... although it may not be strong enough to support but then... sometimes its really better that way... i have experience... that people cannot really handle critisms although they claim they could... in the end... friendships... gone... everything... vanished.... so why pretend as though you could when in the reality you couldnt???? and as a result... break things that arent suppose to be broken???

i stand my views as if i dont like people doing that to me.. i will not do that to others in the first place... like i hate being framed... so at least i will not be framing people for what they have not done.... but however... i never said that i hate people talking about things behind my back... honestly i'm ok with that... ok... maybe i'll be a little uncomfortable... but come on.... who likes to be the topic of gossips??? i'm still ok with it... because the mouth belongs to others... i cant do anything about it... although... due to my very "kepo"-ness... i am always curious about what they have to say about me... well... if i get to know it...

hmm... ok let's make it this way... if its a negative thing... and that person doesnt like it... ok.. i'll try my best not to do that in front of him/her.. but that doesnt mean that i could change overnight and completely stop to be a different person.... maybe others could accept so i could express the way i am to the people who can accept... no harm done....

its hard to change something that has been comfortably set in you... maybe you could avoid.. but its still in you... like how i dont like malaysian cantonese.... i avoid using the term that were only used in malaysia... but my hong kong friends still say i speak in a very malaysian way... what to do??? its with me all the time.... sometimes they'll say... "hey... you now speak less like a malaysian already... welcome to hong kong!!!".... i'll be like "really??!!! oh gosh!!! i didnt realise!! yippee!!"

same theory... different situations... applicable anytime.... anywhere...

however... i believe people talks about other people behind their backs all the time... good or bad.. it's just a part of mingling with other friends... nobody, i believe... nobody don't talk about the people they know behind their backs... of course unless they are dumb.... cant talk isnt a crime after all... being talked about isnt really as bad as some people think it is... in another way... i think maybe because i'm remembered for something... people know me for something... good or bad... hmmm... that's another thing then.... i'm working in the entertainment industry and we need these "gossips" to survive... no gossips... nothing... there's no word of mouth... then... please take out your wallet and pay for the promotion.. thank you very much....

Internship lessons to be learnt

2009-07-03T16:02:00.003+08:00

Honestly... how long have i been staring in front of this page???? sheesh... that is what happen when you have the mood to blog but nothing to blog about...

however... i'm still thinking of things to blog... so while i think... i'll just crap along the way... bear with me....
weekends are near!! woohoo.... another week of internship has ended!!!
it was a very empty week... because the pending jobs are all done... no preproduction stuff to rush... no shootings to go... now left are things like VO recordings and other post-production stuff...

this week's bi-weekly report is gonna be really really short... i hope miss june will be happy... after rejecting my reports because they exceeded 3 pages... oh gosh!! what's wrong with having a lot of things to do??? at least i DO have things to do... ok fine... if you wanna tell me doing slides and getting refreshments for clients are things that nobody wants to know... then tell me... what do THEY want to know so that i can DECORATE my report to be exactly the way you want... happy???

well.... i'm very busy when it comes to near-production days... coz now i'm practically in charge of calling the talents... checking their availability and stuff... wuahahhaah... luckily my knowledge about local artiste are still quite up to date... so when people ask me like... "how did she came in the industry??"... "where did she work previously??" and things like that.. i can actually answer... "She's from star search 2003.".... "she used to be a news reader in 8tv." and other stuff... which i doubt others can answer... wahahaha.... i still love malaysia, do i????

after working i just realise how naive i am... its a real world, buddy!!! what do you expect??? people will be taking care of me???? giving me full attention as though i'm a baby???letting me know whatever they are thinking about and everything???? hmmm... i'm just so wrong.... the fragile heart will have to strengthen up beacuse if not... i'm so sorry... you are in the wrong field...

this is a field full of gossips... well... i love gossips... as much as i love "gossip girl"... i dont mind gossiping... because honestly... if you are what you are.... it doesnt affect much....
however... how much as i love to gossip... i'll be doing it as ethical as possible... well i do get the point that gossiping is not something ethical... but i will not add anything more negative to it.... i skip personal stuff... and never dig into them if people are unwilling to share... i keep my eyes as straight as possible... i only say things that i have seen it happen... when people share their experience... it grows... but i'll not make it my own....

all these thing has split me into different characteristics... which in my point of view is necessary in this field...

-you'll have to work even though you dont want to/dont like or just not interested...-
(personal quote)

what have i split into????

an accountant - who keeps track of my expenditure.. making sure nothing goes off my budget... since i'm not really earning yet... this is crucial... because now i know and understand how hard it is to earn.... try to spend the minimum...

a panda - yup... i still have my panda eyes... and yep... i'm still lazy... and no... i dont eat bamboo shoots... but i shoot!!! hahahahah.... (dont get the wrong idea) and to add to that.... i'm getting FATTER!!!!!

a chameleon - i change colors according to situations... my true colors arent shown that often anymore... i find that adapting my perspective and perceptions towards certain situations are actually better than just blindly applying what i believe.... (which sometimes i think is quite foolish, no offence... just for my situation)

a lawyer - as i tend to defend myself whenever things turn out the way they are not suppose to and i couldnt help it, or i have nothing to do with it... just gracefully blur the target of who is responsible... to save yourself...

silverstar - ya... that's my old id.... a star... in silver... why???? because i try to shine on my own but i still need the guidance of light... but then... if you glare hard at me... i reflect even harder on you...

a sudden-health-freak-but-tak-jadi - due to my terrifying weight gain... i decided to be more attentive to my diet and exercise whenever i can (or should i say when i have the mood).. well... it's not working really well but there are results... small but still there are....

hmm... what else??? cant really think of anything now...
i tag the person who has been pestering me to write this post... whahaha... (no lah... didnt really pester... hmm.. how do you say that?? erm... encourage???)

i suddenly miss a lot of things.... sigh~~~~

signing off~~~

weird..

2009-06-29T18:05:00.000+08:00

After 2 months of internship.. i realised a lot of things... like the world is not as innocent as how you think.. people will not stop and wait for you just because you couldnt catch up.. and not forgetting... the naive thinking of certain people that drives you crazy... i thought i was naive enough.. but who knows there were more... well... living in your own world doesnt help chase away the truth that you avoid facing (loosely translated, J-man, 2009).

besides that.. i enjoy being an intern... despite well.. the "adults" tend to leave you out in certain stuff... then asking you for help but not telling what or how should you help out... however.. interns have this "get out of jail free" card.. which equals to "make mistakes but will be forgiven" card... where you can no longer enjoy if you are a permanent...

people around says they miss school and wish to end this internship soon and get on with school stuff... assignments.. mid terms.. marks... finals... assessments!!! noooo way!!! that's specifically NOT what i miss about school... the only thing maybe is my friends and the fact that i can go home on time unless u have my own activities... besides that... i sure hope i can just escape from assignments... exams... and particularly marks...

a friend of mine who works part time and studies at the same time also thinks that she is more comfortable working than studying.. so i guess i'm not that weird after all.. and she's a student with a cgpa of 3.7 and above.. even she is tired of studying.. then why shouldnt i be?? my cgpa is below 3.5, by the way...

ever since the start of this year.. i suddenly feel that i'm tired of studying... but its already my 3rd and last year.. so i might as well brush up and get going... finish up my last year....

aza aza...

another week ended

2009-06-27T16:35:00.003+08:00

Today... it marks another week of my internship...

how time flies~~~ i'll be getting my allowance again next week!!! hehe... i AM realistic... money is one of the factors... anyway... i'm not getting very much anyway.. so stop criticising... and anyhow.. it's still better than nothing...

yesterday's shooting was fun... honestly.. i enjoyed it more than the previous 3 shootings... hmmm... why is it??? this time.. i'm still doing my usual thing... which is taking pictures for conty.... however... the art department people are also doing the same thing... so i guess.. it's kinda "extra"... well.. besides that i have nothing much to do... because this time, i'm in charge of wardrobe!!! can you believe that??? me... a person who is not at all good in clothes... in charge of wardrobe... wahahaha... but i enjoyed it... because i feel very involved in the project... and the best part is... i get to mingle with the talents!!! fuahahahaha.... which is something i really enjoy.... hahaha...

what else??? nothing much to report about internship besides shooting and some random stuff going on because i think they might be kinda boring... so... let's see... i havent blog about my outing with several long-time-no-see friends.... i'll do that later because that will require photo uploading... which if what i'm kinda reluctant to do...

hmmm.... i have some pretty sad stuff and rantings to do... but i'll not continue here... it might ruin the mood of this post... hehe...

stay tune!!!

signing off!!!

bio-essence (7/6)

2009-06-21T20:11:00.004+08:00

i realised i have not been blogging about a very cool event that i have been to last last week... so now... i'm here to post a blog about it before i forget....

7th June...

so what do we have today????

Doesnt ring the bell???

Dont worry i have clearer ones...

See the picture now???

guess which side i'm on???

hahahaha....

Then here he come... can you see him??? hmm.. i think this is when i was pushed towards the side by other even "crazier" fans....

haha... lucky i managed to stand back up and caught this...

hahaha... i was lucky...

then its a bunch of interviews... and stuff... i think they might bore you coz if you are not a raymond or linda fan... you wouldnt wanna know...

pictures do say a thousand words dont they???? i need not say much here.... a dozen of pictures will just do the trick.... (oopppss... miscalculation... there are only 10 here...)

signing off~~~

TGIF

2009-06-19T21:59:00.003+08:00

i have marked today as the happiest day of my internship days... i think they will not be any other days that could be better than today....

first thing first... i get to go to astro to see a radio infomercial recording for mixFM... haha.. what an opportunity... and they are only bringing one intern over... xiaochin doesnt have the transport.. and kevin seems reluctant... so i guess its me then... we are suppose to take turns anyway... so i have used up my chance... awww... what a waste... but i have definitely made an entrance there... *embarassing...

the recording was pretty fast... i went back to the office at around 12pm... people who know damansara perdana will understand the misery of searching for a parking place during this time of the day... it's a disaster... BUT!!! i manage to find one... proper parking space without "joining the divider" or whatsoever... after 2 rounds... during my third round around taht place!!! i'm so lucky!!!! actually there was a car waiting for it already... but i somehow appeared behind it so i just wait for it to go in and spread my envy-ness of what good luck that fellow have to get such a nice place during this is of the day...

wuahhahaha... who knows??? the car suddenly left its "waiting spot"... so i assume there wasnt a place after all but when i got closer... the reverse lights of one of the cars lit up.... wooohooo!!!!! i've found a place!!!! although there a little distance from the office but at least... i got a proper place!!! so after parking my car and paying the parking ticket... i walk back to the office...

then mrs boss say we are all going to tenji for lunch... what's the occassion???? i dont know... no idea... saja.... so after settling down... off we go to tenji for lunch buffet!!!! japanese lunch buffet man!!!!

after that... we went back to the office... and get to go bcak on time... 7pm sharp!!!

the very best thing is... it FRIDAY today... so i'll get my weekends... and i'll be meeting up with ain and gang tomorrow... oh gosh!!! this day just couldnt get any better....

TGIF!!!

blabbing.... -points-

2009-06-13T22:22:00.004+08:00

oh gosh... the "create post" page has been open for.... the whole day... i guess... everytime i on the computer... i'll certainly check my blog... then try to post a new blog post or something... i have been trying to write something since in the afternoon... but nothing special comes in mind...

so i guess.. its time for my random blabs again....

hmm... so what should i write about??? weekends are my rest-days... which i usually will try not to step out of my house unless its necessary.... i prefer staying in... with the internet, facebook, blogs and other online mini games... or maybe just a book will do... i'm still on my way with sophie kinsella's "remember me".... i decide to take it slow.. there's no rush when it comes to reading... although i can read fast but sometimes i think is better to look at every word than to just browse thru the sentence and take things for granted.... i still have loads of books waiting for me... especially my Dan Brown series... which i'm on the way of giving up due to the hard-to-understand content... i'm still the shallow reader who prefers reading light and simple stories...

basically... things are still going on pretty ok for me... just that i have done a few things that i never ever thought i would be doing... which took a hell lot of courage from me before i started doing it... it's a chance that i want to take... i have been delaying it for a long time now... and i think i will regret it if i still want to "preserve" my dignity and hold it back.... sometimes things are meant to happen... and when you try to stop it for the wrong reasons.... you'll just feel uncomfortable inside... and the feeling will last until you found a way to fix it....
so i sure hope that it will turn out the way i want it to be... but if it doesnt... oh well... at least i tried... i should not have stopped that in the first place... so its my fault and i'm not blaming anybody for it... i'm ready to get whatever i deserve... good or bad... (i still hope its good)

working days are pretty tiring...
and when you have to digest some things that is completely pointless... it really exhausts you... besides... everything must have a reason behind it... if you cant give me the reason... so it makes it pointless... a waste of time... effort... and life....
i tried to understand your expectations... but it seems that i'm not in the same level as you since i dont get any of your points... yes.. i admit that i'm maybe not as good as you... so what else can i do?? maybe you just dont get the point yet.... until everybody starts leaving... leaving you with nobody but yourself... is that when you are going to understand the problem??? will it be too late then??? i can honestly say that i dont agree with your ways... and i dont understand what you actually want... sometimes... it just irritates me when you dont speak the language... and just get on with what you think is appropriate.... i find that very disturbing....
anyway... i hope you do see the problem... and change before its too late...

signing off~~~

---intern update---

2009-06-12T21:42:00.002+08:00

there goes the 3rd week of my internship...

this week i got to deal with the talents when they show up at the office for wardrobe fitting... and i also got to call them up to confirm their availability for the proposed shooting date... they all sound very kind and nice... not as demanding as i imagined... bombarding me with all sorts of questions that i dont know how to answer and gets pissed off when i cannot answer them.. instead they just laugh and say... "okay, you get back to me when you get to know about that... thanks..."
phew~~~

the hardest part when it comes to calling talents is when you are rejecting them... since after proposing to clients.. they will only be choosing 1 when you have already called a dozen to check their availability and promised to call back and confirm... whatever that is... whether accept or reject... this week.. i have to reject around 10 (i think) VO talents that i have called previously to confirm their availability... i really dont have the heart to do that.. so i got kevin to do it for me... hehehehe.... thanks yo!! its really sad when such a nice voice is rejected... they all sound really nice.. and must be very disappointed when they receive rejection... sigh~~~~

hmmm.... i'll have to get used to that... because there are more to reject in the future... i really hope that the clients could shortlist them early and just accept which i managed to get hold first... instead of calling... confirming... then rejecting.. which is a waste of time, hope and effort....

i'm starting to enjoy dealing with talents now... and i'm getting used to calls... since i dont have to rest for like 10 minutes after every call...

besides that.... i just have to say.... VOs... they earn a lot!!!!!!

Just to let you know...

2009-06-08T20:42:00.002+08:00

i get to go back early today... so i have time for blogs... weeheee....

just to let you know that last saturday... and last last sunday... i went to the popular warehouse sales in summit... books were up to 90% discount!!!! weeee....

suddenly... i have the "book mood".... which is to purchase books!!!! the first time i went... i did not really buy a lot of books... maybe just one....

Yala... i still wanna improve my korean... still learning... so i thought of buying a basic sentence book... since i have been learning a lot of words previously.... hopefully it will come in handy... this book 70% off... from rm42.80 it became rm.... ok i need some time for maths here.... around rm12.90... wooohooo... not bad huh??? i was planning to get the japanese one... but i have the text books from level 1 til 4... so i guess... although its cheap... i dont really have to spend on it....

then i got some cds... i can say... the cd is.... woohooo... makes me regret buying me previous ones... coz they were like around 90%!!!! gosh!!!! anyway... bought 1 only....

then some stationary..... heheheheh...

the following week... i went to the same warehouse sale with huiping... this time... i want to buy more books!!!!

these are what i have bought.... hehehehe.. and they cost me less than rm50.... i took out rm50 from the atm.... and i still have around rm10 to spare.... good isnt it???

i just love books... i couldnt stop... i was actually tempted to buy more.... but my conscience disallow me... told me not to waste money.. although its cheap... but i should not use them up so easily... ok.... i listen to my conscience.... but at least i got a whole lot..... i'm still happy...

reading culture man!!!!!

internship week 2

2009-06-06T10:18:00.002+08:00

another week has pass...
12 more to go....

this week is a very busy week as well... because there are 2 shootings... there should be 3 but another 1 was delayed till next week... oh well... 2 is ENOUGH to handle....

tuesday morning... call time 0615... fuwah!!! luckily dedi agreed to send me to work... hehe.. off to kota damansara... landed on a very huge house... very nice... the design is kinda similar to those vacation resorts... got photos... but i dont think i'm allowed to reveal them here... in case there are any copyright stuff... so i guess i'll show them when the ad is aired.... meanwhile... just say that the shooting goes on quite smoothly... everything in place... i'm assigned to take photos behind the scenes... but manatahu... just the first scene the battery life has dropped down to 20mins.... owh shucks!!!! we still have to whole day to go!!!! and i only have 20 mins???? besides the camera also functions as a conty when photos are taken previously can be refered regarding the detail of arrangement and stuff... (what am i talking about??? i dont know...) so what else can i do???? conserve battery... only take photos of those which I THINK is important... sigh~~~

then at 5pm we shift location... of to sungai buloh we go.... in a kampung house... which is damn hot because the electricity were all used for the shooting equipments... so the fan was off... understand la... kampung house... how much electricity they have???? the owner of the house is very kind... he keeps offering to help when i was clearing up... we get to wrap up earlier than the estimated time... which was a YIPPEEEE!!!!! darn tired... didnt feel like eating dinner... just wanna go back...

on thursday... call time is still 0615... this time the location..... templer hills!!!! a show unit in templer hills to be exact... again... no photos... cooz i dont wanna be sued for anything... the show unit was very nice... but due to its wide windows... it became very hot when the sun is shining to its maximum.... anyway... it'll still fun... i'm still taking photos... but this time doesnt make any difference as the last time... my battery ran out just before i realised... aish... change the camera la!!!! again... we wrapped up before the estimated time... YIPPEEEE!!!!! but we stayed there the whole day.... the talents were great... the little boy was extremely cute... but still... darn tired... had a few bites for dinner.... and balik...

yesterday.... made a few calls to check the availability of VO talents... just then i realised than i'm god damn lucky to not be placed in a telecommunications company... i totally freak out when it comes to phone calls... my voice shivers... my hand grips hard on t he receiver as though its gonna fall off... and i need 10-15 minutes rest in between every phone call... gosh this is tiring..... i'll try to avoid phone calls....

woke up early this morning to send my bi-weekly report.... off to lunch....

signing off~~~~

what about internship

2009-05-30T22:39:00.004+08:00

right... i should update something about my internship before the end of this month...

so what have i been doing throughout my whole week of internship in xuanworks...
first of all... its a very small company... with not more than 10 employees... so everybody is close and the bond between employees are very tight and hard to break... haha.. i guess... assuming...
i've got a table... although it's not really mine... but at least i get to sit with a computer in front of me...

we have 3 shootings scheduled next week so damn.. it's busy... i never get to go home on time... however no complains because i think its kinda worth it... at least i'm not like hanging around doing nothing... wasting my time...

what have i learnt???
i learnt how to change the color of clothes... which is very very useful when it comes to searching clothes for wardrobe... you'll never find the exact color you need... so what do you do??? change the color in photoshop... but do it after searching high and low on the internet because it's like cheating.... do it when you dont have a choice...

i recalled my very basic editing skills when i was editing the casting videos of talents.... it's kinda fun seeing them act and stuff... until i come to a pair of identical twins... oh my god... its so hard to differentiate and join their videos together because its hard to tell who is who... the best thing is their mom decided to dress them exactly the same during casting... oh great... just as if their face wasnt hard enough to differentiate... and now you have to dress them identically too????
i also saw a 10 year old girl who is as tall as me... gosh!!!! she is just 10!!!! i think she bump into the ceiling when she's 18...

what else??? oh ya... the wonders of a photostating machine... and also the scanner... we were required to photocopy like hundreds and thousands of stuff for the final pre-production presentation.... using up like 2 packets of paper... woohooo...

searching for maps... shooting locations... i now even can DRAW!!! i actually volunteered to draw the map to our location... wahahaha... i never ever imagined me volunteering to DRAW.... even straight lines...

besides... i have prepared storyboards... tranlated scripts... talking about translating.... i have to translate chemistery stuff as well... so thanks to the online dictionary... i can even confirm the names for stuff like bearberry essence... xxxxline.... xxxxic.... do you actually expect me to know or remember those terms???

then there are the powerpoint slides.... inserting pictures... cropping... adjusting.... converting....

brainstorm for ideas for a campaign... on the radio!!!! i have never been familiar to radio commercials... coz usually in assignments we'll usually opt out the 30sec radio commercial and focus on prints ads and tvc instead... so the lack of experience really matters a lot... i'm still blank... sigh~~~~

hmmm.... i guess that's all as far as i can remember....

next week will be a very very busy week as we have 3 shootings all scheduled next week.... wonder what will i become after this???? hopefully i can lose a few kgs.... that will be great.... but till now i dont think that's gonna happen coz i keep eating in the office.... hahahaha... it might just turn out the other way round as i will be gaining a few more kgs... Noooooooooo....

that's practically almost all of my first week of internship....

oh ya... my bi-weekly report... i almost forgot about that....

signing off~~~

updating~~~

2009-05-20T22:38:00.003+08:00

i guess i SHOULD be updating my blog more often since i'm currently on my semester break... and i practically have nothing to do.... however... it is because i have nothing to do... that is why i cant find anything to update here... see the connection??? between no updates and free time???

i didnt get to go to jessie's birthday party.. as due to UNFORESEEN circumstances... which is totally unplanned.. who the hell knew that i would actually ****** ok its not for you to know... those who know just keep it to yourself... ask me personally if you really want to know because i dont intend to tell it here... just dont feel like it...

what else??? oh yes... had my second round of k-session yesterday... come on... the rm5++ promotion is really too hard to resist.... this time me and hui ping went to 1U... a place which i'll be frequently passing-by when i start my internship next week... wahahaha.... sigh~~~

oh ya... there's something quite "bermanfaat" that i have done during these few days... i have been revising my japanese and korean... wahahaha!!!! so that's something to be proud of... after days of loitering at home... i finally did something beneficial....
but i have just read through... i'll do more tomorrow... like practise my writing and stuff... all my grammer... aza aza ganbatte kudasai!!!

now that i have realised... i'm just days to my third year... which also marks the final year of my degree.. oh gawd!!! time sure flies~~ like a speeding bullet... a flash of lightning... in one more year.... i'm graduating, man!!!! for tuhan's sake!!!! i really can't believe it... it seems like forever since i step into my schooling life and now i'm almost graduating already.... 1 more year to go.... so now what??? will i be able to get a job after i graduated??? the most important thing is will i be able to feed myself??? or i'll still have to depend on my family???? No... better not.... so i sincerely hope that i'll be able to get a job... with a satisfying pay.... i can start work right after i graduate.. or maybe right after my last paper of my finals... i dont mind that... boy, i sound desperate... but i'm serious... by the way... i'll grab any opportunity available... hehehehe....

i'm starting my internship next monday... as i have said for like a gazillion times already... hopefully its ok... i know there are some of my coursemates who have already started their internship since last week!!! oh boy.... nervous~~~ thinking of it just adds the nervous-ness in me... gosh!!! i never ever imagined that i'll be working in an advertising production house... never in my mind since i have started my degree ever thought that i'll be working with stuff regarding to advertisements.... i myself never thought i will step over to the advertising line, although i'm minoring advertising... but i'm just not an advertising person... cant draw... lack of creativity and flexibility... fail man!!!! so just hopefully this will turn out ok.... really do hope...

what else??? hmmm... oh yeah!!!! i said i'll update my fanfic blog!!!! oh gawd.. i forgot all about that... poor janet... i'll read up where i have stop and try to gain some ideas and pour them into the blog... aish....

well... there should be more posts starting next week... since i might have quite a lot to share regarding my internship... so stay tune...

signing off~~~

post-exam...

2009-05-15T15:51:00.001+08:00

i'm back!!! to update about me post exam life.... 5 days after my exam... what did i do???? should i mention about monday's paper??? nah!!! it's a disaster... i believe many will agree... so let's forget about it and get on with my 2 exam-free days...

tuesday .... started with the video i've promised.... then... off for the long-awaited k-session with huiping... wuhahahaha.... neway promotion.... rm5++ for lunch and happy hour... we sang from 2pm til 7pm... sang all the songs we wanted to sing and a whole lot of long-time-no-sing songs... enjoyed big time.... haven't really sang that long since... the first time i went to neway... which was like... hmm..... 2 or 3 years ago????

anyway.... after enjoying... went back home ate my dinner and started editing the video i shot on sunday.... woo-hoo... talking about pure kan cheong-ness... once i put in the cd... i realise this is not a format that i am familiar with... tried to play it with media player... cannot.... real player... cannot... quick time player.... cannot... i even tried power dvd player.... also cannot... oh no.... big trouble man!!! how am i going to edit if i cant even play it???? ok lo... luckily i still managed to get somebody to help me convert the clips... or else it may seem that i could not get the job done as promised... hehehe... phew~~~

wednesday... i round over to my future workplace... damansara perdana... to see the traffic flow and whether are there parking space available.... there are parking space... just that i'll have to walk quite a distance from there to my future workplace... and i'll have to pay too.... yikes... parking space... since i enrolled into uni this problem has never got off my mind... even now... when i'm not going to uni... i still have to worry about whether are there parking space available in that area... i guess this is a compulsory problem to worry about for drivers....

thursday... half of the lai family is back from kampar... my life continues with pet society and restaurant city... and of course... a little household chores...

today.... accompanied hui ping to some bird nest talk... it's some kind of investment programme... so obviously they got the wrong target.... how could students like me, afford rm30k plus of investment plan???? you do the math... i'm still depending on my parents... and i'm not earning much from my internship.... wahahaha

tomorrow... jessie birthday party...

wee-heee..

signing off~~~

what do you feel when exam is nearing???

2009-05-09T15:33:00.001+08:00

As i go around peeking at other people's blog... i found something very interesting from one my high school mate's blog.... which very much describes my feelings during exam... although mine is almost over... but like i once said before... sharing is caring....

those in purple... are my own opinions... the rest are all taken from my friend's blog...

What do you feel when exam is nearing?

Stress:

No need for that. Remember, the more you stress, the weaker you become and you get all tensed up. This leads to lack of sleep (just to force yourself to finish up all the notes), brain congestion (too stressed of counting the time you have left for studies & in the end rushing through everything), forgetting your meals (one good excuse ---- No appetite) and in the end --> Allostatic load and KO
my stress level usually risen when i see the question paper and realise that i have no idea how am i going to answer... this will really stress me out... other than that... it's still ok... the stress is usually an aftermath... when i think i didnt do well for the exam... that's when the stress factor comes in...

Depression:

"Oh my god..I'm dead..I'm dead!!! I haven't study this, that, here, there, everything!!!"
"Shit..Why can't I remember anything?!!"
"Darn..Why people can remember such details which I don't even have a clue what that's all about?!"
"Time is running out . . . I'm dead for sure . . ."

And before you realise, you are already DEAD before the exams. Rather than spending your time sulking, STUDY and give in your best efforts!
again... my depression level risen after exams, normally.... when i realise that i couldnt answer a single question properly... then i'll damn depressed... but this feeling usually will not last long... as after every paper i have done... it's a step closer to my holidays... so usually the feeling will be gone until i get back my results... ehehe

Insomnia:

Yeah it's normal, it happens all the time. People trying to stay up all night before the exams, trying as hard as they might to squeeze all the information into any possible sulcus or gyrus in the brain. Yes you can stuff them in, but will they stay there when your brain is screaming in agony for some sleep?

NO. So, why not use the time for some good rest instead?
oh no... i dont burn the midnight oil for exams... assignments, yes... but not for exams... i make sure i have enough sleep before exams... eventhough i'm not done memorising the notes and facts... i'll still go to sleep first and maybe snatch a few minutes before the exams starts to cram those into my brain...

Start asking people around for answers:

Haha..This is an interesting one. Before the exams, you are playing and fooling around in class when your friend is desperately trying to concentrate while you're laughing and joking and playing around behind them. Now you want their precious notes? That depends how KIND the person you're asking from then.
wahahaha... this will not happen to me.... unless i was absent during a particular lecture or tutorial.... i dont go around asking for other people's notes.... maybe i'll just ask people to print the notes that were received via email since my printer isnt very stable... wahaha... other than that... i never ask people for their notes...
well... i dont have to... i listen and pay attention during class... i write down what is necessary for me to know.... so that's enough for me.... since everybody is attending the same class... it is ridiculus for me to not know something that the lecturer or tutor has taught but others do... RIDICULUS!!!

Studying last minute:

You are asking for it. Time management is everything. You spent the time available for rest & relax, now you pay double/triple/quadruple for making up the time lost. Plan, plan and PLAN your studies right. It's what that decides whether you get to sleep, relax and study well for long term. You shouldn't be STUDYING before exams, it should be REVISION. (Remember your brain needs input a few times before registering in your brain! Well, unless you're a genius born with superb memory. Too bad I'm not.)
ah-ha... that's what i do everytime... i know i'm not suppose to be studying last minute... but lazy-ness is born in me... so i guess it sometimes serves me right when i dont remember important points... sigh~~

Stay happy in exams and good luck~

*the author of this post is a medic student... so several theories about human body acceptance level should be accurate... so dont doubt....

pre-merdeka.... sigh....

2009-05-08T11:16:00.003+08:00

i still have one more subject to go before i could declare "merdeka" for myself... while i think a majority of utar students are already officially in the mist of "merdeka" mood... sigh... why is it always like that??? my exams always takes longer than anybody else.... ever since spm... it's always i have to start earlier and end later than everybody... maybe its just some kinda trick that will make me study and do my revisions longer than anybody else... but to tell the truth... it is really hard to concentrate and study when you know that others are already enjoying themselves with their holiday plans....
how can you not be influence by the carefree and merry mood????

so that is what happening to me currently... i only have like around 1 day to study my completely untouched international advertising subject.... because half day is gone already for today... and tomorrow's wesak day... so another half day gone case.... so that sums up to be 1 day... to start studying from scratch...

what about my sunday??? have fogotten my sunday??? hehehe... i'm taking a break on sunday.... i'm off to help keekee and friends for their video.... so another half day gone... and then it's mother's day.... the next half is gone also... how to study???
and keekee... i am more than happy to help you out.... because i'm lazy to study... and this is the best excuse... so dont feel bad or anything... if you do.... just treat me a huge lunch on that day... wahahahaha... i'm just kidding.... dont take it seriously...

what will i be doing after my exams???? well... that's for you to know... and for me to find out... i'll update on that later... after i know what am i going to do for the 2 weeks.... besides getting myself ready physically and mentally for my intern....

oh... maybe i'll post blogs about some stuff that has already happened but has not been written out yet.... let's see if i got the mood or not... maybe i'll pop up with a post of two about my shooting week and stuff.... hehehe....

what else??? oh... its time for lunch and after that... i seriously need to get on with my mpgest and stuff... i dont wanna fail my very last paper... and it is one of the hardest paper of all 6 subjects... but come to think of it.... all 6 subjects are hard this semester.... how can they do this to us... it should be balanced.... aish.....

signing off..... -whish-