The last day of my student card

Today marks the last active day of my university student card... so that officially means, after today i am no longer a student.. Although there are several "sequels" to my previous blog posts but I'll continue them later..

This post is mainly to mark the end of my student card... which means i no longer qualify to enjoy the benefits as a student.. student discounts, student promotions, student price and stuff... so from now on, i'll have to depend on my working salary instead of student allowance... judging on the amount i'm earning now.. i should keep my eyes off ebay and shoppings malls.. especially now, as i am still saving for my taiwan trip.. living off without weekly allowance feels weird as i have to feed myself and use my own savings since i have not received my first paycheque yet..

I don't know why i have this crazy thought to continue at the company i'm now working in after my taiwan trip.. that is, IF i did not manage to get another job i might switch to be a permanent.. How crazy is that?? after seeing people coming and leaving like the river flow.. How did i end up with such thought?? Really...

My working days has started a week already... so far so good.. Not much frustrations yet.. hopefully there won't be for the whole month... as i am still considered as a temporary.. i am allowed to leave anytime.. hehe....

good-bye student card... embracing my working life... the expiration of the student equals to the evaporation of assignments, exams, cgpa, and marks... until now, for me... it still sounds like a good thing... yippee for now...

A little something from my current life

Well... Since i am in the mood to post something here.. i will might as well update something about my current life.. which is surrounded and cornered by exams.. foooh... Speaking about exams.. this very last final exam of my degree life is the most torturous ever!! Not only the pressure to my very best to achieve as much gpa as i can to pull up my already pathetic cgpa.. but the mood to get everything done and dealt with, really takes away my mood to study... just think that i could ditch all these once and for all and get on with life makes me excited until i lost the touch with my notes and text books..

the other subjects have passed and are history.. so i'll just talk about the paper i just had this morning and the next paper on thursday... It's film studies paper today.. for this paper, i am not only suppose to know the history and movements of film... i'll have to watch movies too... Not the typical ones.. a significant soviet montage film, the Battleship Potemkin, it's a silent movie.. it's black and white.. and.... the best thing is... it's in Russian!! Then a combination of film noir and science fiction film, Blade Runner... it's an 80s sci-fi film.. and a dash of film noir which is a direct opposite of the typical sci-fi... so i'll have to analyse... well.. it has Harrison Ford in it.. so it's not too bad... but i only watch half of it... at least i watched.. coz i did not touch Battleship Potemkin... i have the feeling that i'll go blank even after watching the film.. so i should not waste time.. better make use of it and search for information online... and a good thing i did... coz what i found is exactly what is required of the question... wahahahahahaha... it's so unusual for me to have luck in spotting questions.. it is usually those i studied hard and memorise will not come out as questions... hmm.. lucky me.. thank god!!

Oh ya.. i am suppose to watch a Malaysian film... but i forgot about it.. so i totally skipped that question.. i did attempt to do that question because it just need arguements instead of theories.. but those need time to build up.. and for the malaysian movie, i could take movies that i have watched.. Kami, the movie, Spinning Gasing, Sepet, Talentime, Impak Maksima, Rain Dogs, Gol dan Gincu... hmm.. i did not realise that i have watched quite a number of local movies.. hahaha... but i also need time to think back and refresh the storyline... however time is what i'm lacking during exam.. so i ditched it..

anyway... i hope my answers are acceptable to get higher marks... hope hope hope.... i really need luck for this...

then on thursday, it will be my last paper... Television Production 2... sigh... a clueless paper.. the whole subject is basically us pouring our whole effort into the final year project which is under this subject, the multi-camera production of a live show... other that tips, dos and don'ts in the studio for the shooting, i could not really remember what else what taught in class... how am i suppose to sit for the exam??!! the best thing is, the guidelines given by the lecturers are so vague that i could just might as well burn the notes and swallow.. hoping i could remember everything in the notes that is so unfamiliar to me... hope hope hope, again...

ok... dinnertime...

SIgning off~~
Toodles

Me, myself as a student

It's me again... to invade my own blogsphere.. another sudden mood... so another random post... Here goes...

After next week, i could unofficially shed off my student identity card and start a whole new life... why "unofficially"?? the official date falls during the convocation, right?? the day i throw off my student id once and for all... well.. i have been a student for almost my whole life.. and i can't believe that there's one day i will have to say goodbye to it... Maybe because i'm used to ticking the box on the occupation category that states student... Now, i'll have to tick something else.. or maybe UNEMPLOYED!! if i don't manage to get a job secures after my finals... yikes!!

I started to put on school uniforms when i was 2... and that's when i start kindergarten.. in case you are wondering why did i start so early... i remember mentioning that my mom was the headmistress of a kindergarten when i was born till i was around 3 or 4 years old.. so i was basically born in a kindergarten.. when i was 2 my mom put me in my very own school uniform and "kicks" me off to class, where i start learning to read, write and count...
since i started at 2.. my kindergarten days was unusually looooong... there was a time when my cousin ask, why are you forever in the kindergarten stage?? What can i do?? i'm not at age yet to enter primary school.. so of course i'm in kindie... what a question to ask.. i should have answered that during that time... aish... As a kindie student, i was quite talkative.. often being punish for talking in class... hehe.. i was quite good at reading.. judging my process on the "Peter and Jane" series... i was usually ahead of others.. '.' v

after 4 years of kindergarten in 4 different kindergartens... hahaha... my record... i finally reach the age to step into primary school.. my first primary school was in Penang... where i spent 4 - 5 months there... then i moved back to Subang and went to Sungei Way.. it was a "transit" while waiting for Lick Hung to accept me... I was there for around 2 - 3 months.. i remember how i hate the prefects there... i dont know why.. they dont let you open your mouth or stand up for god's sake.. What The??!! At least those in Lick Hung were slightly better...
then i was transferred to Lick hung and settled there throughout my primary years... people always say the pressure in Lick hung is unbearable.. but it's really weird that i don't feel anything... The homeworks are ok, additional classes in the afternoon are kinda fun because our initial classroom is occupied by the afternoon session so we get to use the science lab or the "kemahiran hidup" lab... which is very different from typical classrooms... how boring could it be when you can look at saws, hammers and other tools or test tubes, thermometers and other apparatus in class... they are kinda interesting, if you ask me.. a shift from the text... hehehe...
I was quite a good student.. yes, i am... i did my homework although occationally forgetting some, but i always manage to finish it before handing in! I go to school by bus so it arrives super early that i'm usually the first to reach the class and on the lights when i was in the morning session.. so i have plenty of time to complete my "unfinish" business... even if i forgot to do my chinese caligraphy, i could easily find ink and brushes conveniently in one of my classmate's drawers... hehe... as long as i wash it and put it back... he's ok with it.. he's used to it anyway... he needs it too... then i'll have dictionaries in the drawer on another classmate which is a big help when it comes to those exercise that needs to description of words and stuff or even idioms.. that guy have all sorts of dictionaries under his table.. you name it, he got it.. huhu...
besides that, the best thing about our class is we have been in the same boat (class) for 6 years... so we are really united when it comes to conflicts.. we even help back each other up during punishments.. and some of us are still in contact... after 10 years.. (woah!! I'm old!!)
the bus rides are also the best moments, i always set my watch alarm to ring 5 minutes earlier than the school bell to remind me to pack up so that i can run to the bus and secure a seat when the bell rings.. as you know, boys and girls this age like to fight.. it's always a fight on who gets the most seats on the bus... but sometimes the boys will buy us, girls keropok lekor to enjoy during the ride home.. that's kinda nice of them.. but they still fight with you.. sigh~~ boys are already so complicated as such a young age...

anyway.. my primary school life are the happiest student days throughout my whole student life... Where is the pressure?? I did not really feel it.. so stop saying that Lick Hung is full of pressure.. It is not.. and, mind you... I've got 7As for my UPSR... so trust me.. no pressure...

Then, i moved on to secondary school just opposite where i stay.. it takes less than 5 minutes walk if there are no cars on the road separating my place and the school.. this a completely different life compared to my primary school, which i will do anything to get my primary school life back... it's not that i hate the school.. it's just.. i don't like it... don't know why... the people there are ok.. teachers are ok, some are very nice.. the students are fine, classmates get along quite well... i just don't know why.. maybe the lack of sense of belonging??
well... this is the time when i realised i have no interest in science an maths... although my marks have been quite high during primary school... i have suddenly lost interest in them when i reached form 1... weird.. i still don't know why... at least i was quite a decent student in school... i don't break rules.. unless you count bringing liquid paper to school... but do you know how many tubes of liquid paper i can buy with the price of one correction tape?? and how long can i use it?? do the math.. people can also "conteng" using correction tape la.. without liquid paper, there are still loads of things to use, like pens, for instance?? forbid us to bring pens then.. hahaha... obviously i would not be that stupid to waste my liquid paper to "conteng".. what's there to "conteng" anyway???
The best part, i could say during secondary school is the co curricular activities... i was quite an active member back then.. because the school is near so there is no transportation problems.. the same clob and society every year.. Taekwondo, chinese language society and ping pong... shows my loyalty huh?? Taekwondo is because I have been learning it since standard 1... so might as well continue... Chinese language society is because i really miss my primary school days... and ping pong.... erm.... this is just random... i'm not good in ping pong... er... i FAIL in ping pong.. why did i join in the first place?? i think its a random pick... since i'm not THAT into sports and badminton requires members to go to another place from to school to practise.. so i chose ping pong... and i till dont know why...

That sums up my secondary school life... nothing much about it... the most to talk about are my friends... but i guess you already know them.. they have been constantly appearing in my blog.. hui ping, sheh lee, rachel, cheryl, ain, ika, syahira, fathimah, cze theng, wei lin... etc etc... so i'll jump off to my next paragraph...

oh... then, it's my university life.. which is broken into 2 parts.. foundation and degree which is totally different... and i decide to continue them in my next post... so i could have more posts this month and also continue with my endless studies... huhu...

Signing off~~~

*stay tune for my next post... should not be long after judging on the consistent bugging of blogging moods... Toodles!

when I am supposed to be busy...

I'm here... again... ditching my films studies and tv production 2 notes aside and typing for another post blog for the month... haha... like i said.. the mood of writing blogs will just appear during those very crucial peak periods.. when you really need to make use of every second you have to prepare for it... but the mood is like a bubble.. if you dont appreciate its appearance.. then when it pops.. it will be gone forever... and you will certainly regret the hell out of your life for not making full use of it when it's around.. at least, i do all the time...

speaking of appreciation.. film studies certainly reminds me of a very "unforgettable" subject i have taken last semester which will always be in my memories to haunt me.. it is called film appreciation, criticism and interpretation.. a long name increases the "scariness" of this subject... this sole subject is the verdict of I not getting a first class for my degree.. although i dont seem like i mind a lot about this classy matters.. but the fact is i do CARE... anyway.. a simple mistake could just bring you down from the top to the right bottom underneath the soil where people could step on you... a simple mistake deserves to be forgiven, don't you think?? maybe not for the second time.. but for someone who doesn't know... come on... oh, who cares now?? it's history..

but sometimes i do question the need of interpreting the inner, damn deep till nobody could see or understand meaning that is concealed so well only somebody who really have the utmost passion towards the film could really take the time to guess what message is it trying to convey... however.. sometimes i do wonder... does the director actually really thought of these things?? or it's just actually pure accident or meaningless than we main syok saja and go interpret like nobody's business?? I'm not saying that all are like that.. No no no... don't get me wrong.. this is just another way of me seeing it.. of course i do understand the need of interpreting the art of a film to appreciate.. but what if.. well.. i'm saying, what if there aren't any meaning?? why is it made in a particular way is just according to how the situation allows it to be?? There's no deep, sophisticated style of whatsoever message that is trying to be conveyed... just purely the way it is, there's no explanation or anything... the substance is already there when the director is filming and the director did not see a need for it to be removed or maybe they weren't allow/able to remove it... then here we are thinking the indirect message that it is suppose to convey.. something like that would be kinda funny, wouldn't it??

well.. this is just a joke, a sudden thought that i have will cracking my brain to interpret what a "flower pot" means in a random story... so please dont get offended and say that i am condemning the film appreciators, interpretors and critics... because i am not.. this is suppose to be a random thought to be treated like a joke.. thank you very much... ( sorry if you are offended but i really do not mean to..)

Ok now... time for facebook... haha... aren't i suppose to be studying?? i know, i am suppose to.. but let me collect my earnings from happy island, harvest my plants at country story, feed my workers at restaurant city, play with my pet at pet society first.. once i'm done with that.. i'll do the same using my sister's account collect her earnings, harvest, feed and other stuff... THEN only i'll start organising my notes and start studying... okie...

signing off~~ toodles

Mami and Me

Alrightey!! I know that i am now suppose to be drowning myself into the facts and figures of communication technology.. but.. as usual.. my blogging or writing mood will usually be turned on during these very crucial peak periods... sigh.. besides.. i have been ditching the blogsphere for quite a while now.. it's now time to be back.. or else.. my blogger status might even be terminated... Nah.. just kidding, it wouldn't be that serious.. unless i terminate my own blog.. Nothing will happen to Panda's space unless i say so.. yeps..

Now back to the topic... as everybody in the world knows.. mother's day is right at the corner.. so i now have the sudden urge to be writing about me mami..

I have hardly mention about my mami in my blog.. maybe because this is MY blog and it is suppose to be about ME.. ok.. MY family is also a part of me.. whoosh, whatever.. Sorry for the distractions.. it has been a long time since i last sit down in front of the computer and type a blog post.. so just bear with my sudden freak-outs and nonsense..

oo... coming back to where i am suppose to start with.. my mami... the fact that i am most proud of.. she is a masters student wei!! fuyoh, bangga sial!! however... friends of my mom has been constantly saying that my mom has been sacrificing a lot for the family.. Actually they did not say "family"... they said FOR ME.. i didn't really understand at first until i stepped into my university days.. only i know that she was suppose to have a bright future ahead of her since masters are quite hard to come by during her days.. and she decided to settle down and raise me up.. ("you raise me up...so i can stand on mountains~~" hehe.. so touching.. snif snif.. ehem.. back to blogging) so that how she sacrificed for ME...

But, I did TOO sacrifice for her.. erm... hmmm.. uh... ok fine.. i didn't.. eh, wait.. does driving her or my bro or my sis around count?? because she is lazy to drive and i did sacrifice my TV and online time for that, you know.. oh well.. i did help out with household chores too!! wash the dishes occasionally, help clear up when i have the mood, bring the clothes out to dry, take the clothes back in, frantically running to take the clothes back in when my neighbour's maid start screaming "Hujan!! Hujan!!".. and yes, there is a difference between both, one requires effort and the other requires more agility.. hehe.. ah yes.. i sort the clothes too, fold the clothes.. buy clothes.. hehe.. that's not suppose to be in the list..

anyway.. the times when she started teaching me mathematics when i was like 3 years old was my worst nightmare.. just because she is good in maths and also a statistics major does not make me a born mathematical genius or whatsoever.. well.. i guess that is why i hate maths.. until NOW... But i can't deny the fact that it did helped me quite a lot.. imagine at the age of 3 or 4(i'm not sure which).. i already know that the mathematical signs (+ - x /  i dont know their real names, so sorry.. told you my maths is bad) that is moved to the other side of the equal sign will be the opposite of its kind.. like a plus becomes a minus and vice versa.. i did not know this theory really exists until when i reach form 2.. i really thought it was a formula invented by my mami.. haha.. because i have never seen this formula throughout my primary days.. that sounds kinda cool.. hehe..

the best thing about my mami is she goes shopping with me and my sis.. and most importantly.. PAYS!! haha.. thats one of the reason why i love shopping with my mami.. and also we can buy clothes, bags or shoes that fits all 3 of us.. coz we are almost of the same size.. maybe just a slight difference.. but.. nevermind.. save money, save the environment.. thats a good thing.. so the exchange of clothes and other garments part is frequently happening in our house.. sometimes you'll find someone digging into the wardrobe that is not hers.. hahaha...

not forgetting.. my mami's cooking.. my bro has been constantly praising my mom as a "good cook" ever since he start eating solid food.. although he sometimes compare her with my 3rd aunt (saa koar) but she's a chef la.. can't really compare.. but he did say they are on similar standards.. anyway.. my mami cooks yummilicious food.. although now she keeps emphasizing on the less salt, less oil = healthier eating habit.. but still, i'll miss it when i don't get to eat them for more than 3 days..

hmm... that's all i guess.. i have to go back to my facts and figures or else i'll be in deep trouble tomorrow.. see ya soon!!

saje~~

entahlah kenapa.. aku ni malas semacam je.. tahulah exam seterusnya hanya tinggal 1 hari lebih je tapi masihlah malas sangat nak buat ulang kaji.. baru habis je subject yang menyeksakan.. takde ke break yang lama sikit?? kesian la kitorang ni.. buat susah je nak ingat apa-apa kes, seksyen apa kat buku undang.. pas tu ade tak link link kat mana mana sekyen yang lain pula.. penat tau?? dahlah masa ulang kaji nak ingat tu penat.. masa periksa tu lagi menyeksakan!! banyak sangat perlu tulis.. masa tu 2 jam setengah je.. buat penat je tulis.. tangan patah pas tu tinggalkan kat meja.. haha..

aish.. cam ne ni?? dah sem akhir.. exam yang paling last dah.. pecuuuuut!!!