Age Pressure

Oh wow, congratulations! 2 posts in 2 weeks, I should definitely give myself some credit as I know just like old times, this might be my last blog of the year. Anyways, I came across a video about age pressure by Jenn Im, if you are interested, here's the video:

I have never heard of age pressure ever before but after watching this video, I couldn't help agree that maybe because of the society, we have like certain "targets" to achieve at a certain age and will kinda feel guilty or left out if we don't..

I have certainly set several typical targets for myself which I guess not many of them were fulfilled because I made them without knowing the reality how to get it fulfilled. It seems to me like, when the time comes, a solution will just miraculously fall down from the sky and everything will be alright. NOT! and to be frank, I kinda forgot what were the targets I have made for myself besides getting wheels and a roof.

Let's not talk about life before work because we know what we have to do at  those ages, age 12, pass UPSR, age 17 pass SPM, age 18 start college or university, age 20s graduate.. I used to have some what to achieve before i reach 30 list but i guess, i was too stressed out, i don't remember what are those anymore..

Anyway, as mentioned a the video, in some places, women are considered "expired" if they don't get married by 30. I guess because women have to give birth so maybe it's our internal organs that are expiring?? If that's not the reason, then this whole married by 30 thing is just bull.. Why is there an age limit to get married? Especially Asians, when you reach a certain age, having a significant one becomes the hot topic of the century.. You have lived more than 20 years working hard to be who you are but to other people, all that matters is whether do you have a significant one and when are you planning to settle down... I am not going to lie, regardless whether I have a significant other or not, I feel super irritated when people asked me when do i plan to settle down. To make things worse, whenever I say i have a lot of plans but settling down will not happen in the near future, i get responses like, "are you aware that you are getting older?", "what are you waiting for?", "why aren't you planning on settling down, you are 30 already?"....... "SO?" unless you are worried about me having trouble conceiving when I get older, other than that, why do you even care?? I do have a lot of plans for my future..

Speaking of plans.. I may not be affected by the age pressure for relationships.... or maybe I am since i am writing this.. anyway, reaching a certain age does make you question your direction in life.. so I have to admit, i do face the age pressure when it comes to career. When I started working, i did vow to be an employee forever, since i'm not a risk taker nor do i have a brain for business so being an employee promises a fixed monthly salary and benefits that i might or might not get with my own "business".. But now, i reconsidered my decision.. Working isn't fun,, i can't say for everybody but it has lost its fun for me.. I am having second thoughts about what i vowed to be several years ago. What am i supposed to do now? Should I start a business?? but i don't know how.. I have been toying around with some plans and never actually executed any because of fear.. fear of failing.. people said to me, if i don't find what i'm doing fun, why am i still there? life is short, too short for people to just bear with it.. but what about life? my bills aren't gonna settle themselves, the roof i dream of aren't gonna build itself.. these need chips, and chips are what i get for getting up at 6.30am every weekday, thumb print myself in and out. And, you see it right, i am not a risk taker.. i can't just let go my supply of chips just because it's not fun anymore, i need a plan.. a plan to find the same amount or more chips elsewhere.. but i am still swimming blindly.. unsure if i'm heading the right direction or am i just wandering around the sea of chances not knowing what to grab hold of.. I see friends who started out from the same starting line has now seem to have done a few laps and are on track with what they are doing.. Oh well, that's the downside of social media, everyone seems to be so happy, so fulfilled, leading such meaningful lives while people who are watching or reading it feel like failures.. well, i have to admit this too, i am affected by social media.. which i will write another blog post someday about this.

Anyway.. at this age, there are so much that should have been done in the typical world that haven't been done and it stressed me out.. BUT, some people would say... you live your own life so you get to control what come first and what to do at which time of your life.. true though.. i am still trying to fit the bits and pieces together to hopefully form a whole for my future career whatever it may be.. at least that's what i think i should be doing at this point of time..

I hope that nobody gets affected by the age pressure like I am but if you are, no worries, you are not alone, you may leave a comment and we can share our stress and maybe help each other out..

Signing off for now
Toodles!

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I hate this part right here...
It has been a terrible week...
Nothing good happened...
Loads of misfortune...

just~~

I know it seems that i have not been updating my blog for like ages.. but honestly.. i have 2 incomplete posts stashed up in my drafts(this post is also one of them, so it makes 3 drafts).. because i havent really got the time to fill in the photos and stuff...

many many things has been going on currently... not forgetting the ever-haunting;y-annoying assignments.. just when i can i get over with them?? i just hate all these marks that will drastically affect your CGPA stuff... why does it matters so much?? who invented these kinda things anyway?? i know in order to "force" students to study.. marks and exams will be the only tool the make them sit down and revise what they have learnt in class.. honestly.. thats just so irrelevant.. if somebody wants to study.. he/she will get his/her butt onto the notes and books how it matters or not.. if he/she dont want to.. what's the point of forcing them thru marks?? its a waste of time and money and effort and a whole lot of other things.. besides.. marks does not proof a thing if you ask me.. i know a bunchie of people who are just great on what they do but screwed themselves hard time in exams and failed like a dozen times.. but just because of a bunch of numbers.. they are categorised in the "unqualified" group... which is a big bundle of nonsense.. its up to an individual on knowing his/her skills.. and how they wanna put effort in working on it (improving, that is)..

i'm saying this because me and a gazzilion of them out there are victims of the marks/qualifications come first society.. what they see first is how well you did in your exams and how high is your cgpa.. than to see if you really want to study.. some people just dont have the luck in exams and marks and stuff but they really have the heart to go thru notes and research on books and stuff comparing to some who are pure geniuses but dont know what are they working for.. it doesnt matter whether you are from the type who doesnt have any luck or the type who has but dont know the use of it..

anyway... i came by a very good quote from a friend...

"why do you have to judge someone base on their grades?isn't there more in their personality besides credit ratings and CGPA???!!! it doesn't mean that someone has distinction has more knowledge than the other..it just means they study the textbook damn long enuff to know every f**king thing "

And guess what.... I totally agree with this... it's brilliant!!

again about communication

Ah yes.. before you forget about me.. i'm a bachelor of communications student so basically my subjects in school are about communication... intro to mass comm... comm theories.. comm law... comm technology... etc etc... so by right.. i'm suppose to be superb at communication??

right?? NO!!

i believe you have spotted my post 2 years ago about communication theories or something.. if not.. i think it'll pop back up in the links below this post.. anyway... it's not that important... because i'm not going to be talking about communication theories or whatsoever... i'm gonna share something about communication technology or better know as ke-munication technologee... Again... another communication subject lecturer who can't communicate... What's the problem with people nowadays?? he keeps saying that we are dreadful students who don't listen in class, have no respect for the lecturer and whatsoever... eh hello... "you blind ah??!!" i'm always trying my best to listen to your lectures ok?? eventhough it kills me softly from the inside..

then he comes up with this lousy dumb st*p*d idea of changing the attendance list every lecture so that we can't refer to our previous signature and therefore people can't sign for you because according to him.. once he found that your signature is different.. he'll straight away bar you from exams.. and dont even dream of him unbarring you... what the??!! do you have a problem?? everybody knows that you can write a word in the exact same style twice... how can you sign in the same style for 14 weeks?? oh ya.. i forgot.. this is a 4credit hour paper... so times 2... 28 times.. there's sure to be some difference there... i would like to see you barring me because of that.. if you do... you are not seeing the last of me... i'll haunt you forever man!! oh.. i forgot another thing... he said if your signature or initial... i was at first using the initial of the 1st letter of my name and a figure that sounds similar with my last name... then he told me to use another initial.. "you got problem ka??" do you know what is an initial?? if you want me to sign complicated, artistic, bombastic signature.. go ahead and say it.. change my initial?? why don;t you ask me to change my name?? and also... are you aware that global warming is getting worst?? so why are you still wasting paper by printing a new attendance list every lecture?? there's around 4 or 5 pieces per class.. let's make it 4 then.. to save your guilt... 4 times 28... you do the math.. cannot?? 112 pieces of paper going to waste.. thanks to him who have to go thru the hassle of checking each and every signature making sure nobody is inventing new signatures or somewhat so that he could add in the list of candidates to be barred.. excuse me.. we did not ask you to do that, ok?? there are better ways of making sure people don't sign for others during lectures.. use your brain and think, please...

i'm not done yet... to concentrate in his lecture is kinda hard coz it's really hard to avoid the annoying invisible questions marks swarming all over your head.. he reads directly from the slides... his further explanation are directly from the slides with a little rephrasing and synonyms.. (ah... that's how you quote stuff from materials... use synonyms and rephrase.. a lesson to be learnt) and then i realise than his notes are directly from the textbook... "eh uncle, you first day in utar ka?? tak tau budak utar 80% english not very good?? you use textbook english, siapa faham?? with your weird intonation some more.. very confusing" ok..

for instance..

a point from the notes "communication is a process of exchanging information using a common sign or symbol" (just an example, the fact might not be correct)

explanation "so communication is a process... of exchanging the information which means you exchange the information using a common sign or symbol"

apa ni??!! if that's the point you think i can't read myself??

then after lectures.. you ask whether we have any questions... saying that when you were in univeristy you will feel very sad if you dont have the chance to ask questions... in my case.. i'll feel very sad if i have questions coz that means i dont understand the lecture and i grade myself as "stupid" already... ok fine.. maybe for further understanding i might ask questions.. but in your class.. no thank you... i tried it once and never wanna try again.. i get even more confuse after asking.. you seem to twist your words everywhere around the world.. when ask a straight forward a or b question... you tell me the story of c and d which is completely irrelevant and none of my concern... so, why waste time?? and make myself even further from where i am initially from the subject...

and enjoys torturing us... you mentioned that you will not give tips for exam.. so?? big deal... "don't give la!!" i dont mind.. dont even care.. i can study on my own.. thank you very much.. but then you like to give out ridiculous hints like "don't be surprise.. i make make that as a question in the exam.." i heard than like a trillion times during my 6 weeks of lectures.. what do you expect us to react when we see the questions?? get the shock of our lives and suffer from a heart attack?? and maybe die on the spot in the exam hall?? and then your favourite phrase.. "i may put that as a question but no promises.." who do you think you are?? shayne ward?? if you dont wanna let us know.. don't say it at all.. it's really irritating... oh oh... another quote "don't expect me to have question so straight forward, there is no way i'm gonna ask like that.." so??!!

understood that the lecture is boring... i know it's really hard to make it interesting with all those facts and graphs.. but at least just teach like all other lecturers do... why keep giving students a hard it's their 3rd year already.. let them be.. you dont wanna give tips then dont... go on teaching and dont blurt out random useless hints which end up with a "no guarantee".. what's your point?? to show that you wanna hint us but at the same time we should be studying everything instead of depending on tips?? you so don't know what our generation are thinking.. so dont ask and show that you understand us as if you were in our shoes.. you are NOT! we are from different generations, FYI..

-Ah.. if you are wondering why did i choose such a striking colour.. i do have a reason though.. so you don't have to read if you don't want to.. just some personal rants-

The "Should" or "No Should"??

Sometimes i really question a lot of things.. Once upon a time... people tell me that extra-curricular activities was very very very important when it comes to applying scholarships during the tertiary education stage... Does it??

Ok, i'll admit that i am not active and involved in current university activities due to the time and transport thing.. but i was quite active during secondary school...

notice the past tense???

I really don't get it... If extra-curricular is THAT important.. how come i see people whom i know have not been actively involved in extra curricular activities gets scholarships like nobody's business??

So what is it actually?? Is it important or not??

If it is... then how come i see what i saw?? how is it fair??

I put in a lot of effort in those... but in the end... it seems useless... everybody are standing on the same box... active or not... so should i be spending my time on things that doesn't really help me in anything.. whilst the transportation i am using could be put to better use at other place??

and then how come questions about the active-ness comes up again??

I really don't get it...

woes...

I can’t believe I can’t go to the ShoutAwards… and I actually have the opportunity to gain hold of free tickets to the event…. Sigh…. I guess…. I’ll just watch it from home then… I wonder will there be live telecast on tv???? For those who are interested.. it’s on Friday, this coming Friday (17/7) starting from 8.30pm… which obviously shows that I can’t make it because I’m working on Friday until 7pm… so in order for me to get to bukit jalil from damansara perdana… even though if there’s no jam… although it’s somewhat impossible… i may also not make it in time… so let’s just dump all those other MINOR problems like me don’t have a single clue of how to go to bukit jalil stadium from damansara perdana or even my house…. And I may not get any parking space…

I’m cheering for Naz and Cheryl for best chemistry in Ghost!!!! I hope they win… I did vote!! And several others too… I vote Ghost for best programme (drama), field trip USA for best tv programme (non-drama)… what else?? Kami for best film… I’m not really sure of the names for the categories.. but they are somewhat like that…

Hmm… it’s not the end of the week yet… but let’s talk about internship just to fill up the post… this is certainly the most frustrating week I have ever had… and I know I still have 2 more days to jump into conclusions but I can conclude… the previous days were like hell so the frustration level is to the maximum comparing to any other weeks… firstly…. People starts forgetting what they said previously and couldn’t make up their minds… in the end insulting me and my knowledge of the language…. Damn… anyway… the incident keeps repeating itself so no point repeating them here… the conclusion is you present A.. people think A is not good… they suggest B… then you do and present B… then they say B is not good and ask why didn’t you do A??? then they just give you this i-am-not-happy-but-i-am-not-gonna-scold-you-coz-I’m-nice look…. And then tells you to do C, a combination of A+B… fine.. I’ll give you C… then they ask you why aren’t you following??? And now they want a little of D.. which people claimed they had mentioned it earlier… which I don’t recall anything… along with my 3 fellow colleagues… anyway.. so now they want E, which is C+D….

Sigh~~~~

And one more thing… I seriously think that Malaysia has too many oppositions… coz I’m currently researching about corruption… and whenever I type corruption… it is not facts that come out but a lot of opinions and critics… which is something I don’t need… I only want the actual case and facts… but the opinions and stuff are interesting tho… which distracts me from researching on facts instead I start reading all those critics and stuff…

However… people will not accept that there are things that are not available on the internet… people claims that I have not done enough research… well.. I dare not say I have done enough but I tried every way I could to search for those info and I failed.. so do you mind telling me where to go instead of “you go and search… sure got one.. search further…”

What is “search further”??? I have already reach the end of the results… is that far enough???

A lot of minor things cannot be found on the internet, mind you… and the ones that I have done research on are those I have presented earlier… which you have rejected… my dear lovely version A…

The rest… I now can only rely on my imagination to create your Bs, Cs, Ds and Es….

earth hour day!!

its 28th of march... earth hour day!!!


off the lights at 8.30pm sharp.... and get it back on at 9.30pm... sharp... its all about being punctual... wahahah... just kidding..

anyway... we past up our filler stuff today.... wahahaha... i think i had the very very very best shooting experiences this semester.... tv filler was fun and short film was great... who could have ask for more??? although i admit... i care a hel lot about my grades and marks... but still... i still have to thank those who are worth it... takkan la so stingy.... wahahaa...

kevin got his harry potter today!! haha... you are lucky... it came in this morning...

well... i know it is earth hour day... everything is supposed to be peaceful and blissful.... but i just have to express this...

some people just think they are so "educated" that they could just insult anybody that does not please them... so what if you are educated??? does that mean you could go round and say others are not educated when they dont follow your rules??? because of you people... the country is a mess... because when they follow your way... you say they don't have principles... when they dont... you complain.. what's the point???!!! doesnt your so-called "education" thought you to be tolerant and learn to be lead??? ok.. so you love to lead... so go on... lead the pack!!! you go your own way and nobody is happy or satisfied about that... then you complain again... you never compromise... what has your so-call "education" taught you anyway??? what is the use of going to havard, oxford, stamford, princeton, cambridge when you cant even be a better person??? ok.. so i'm not "that" educated"... i admit that... but at least i know who is worth to say "thank you", "please" or "sorry" to... i still have my brains to think... although they are not as big or as "filled" as yours.... damnit...

Long time no "sick"...

I was so "semangat-ed" to try and make vanila ice-cream yesterday.. due to the very very extremely hot weather on monday... i worked out the ingredients and even took out the mould for the ice-cream sticks....

who knows.... on monday night, my head was so heavy i slumped myself onto my bed and sleep til morning... the next day... its still heavy and grogy... ok now... how am i gonna make ice-cream like this... the most important thing is how am i gonna eat??? will anybody allow a feverish patient eat ice-cream??? even homemade ones...

ok then... so i gave up the idea... and delay it till next week... if i have the mood...

and then... i start working on my target audience analysis... open the "sial report" and start summarising the points... while doing this... my head might just as well burst out of frustration... its not the points that are creating problems... its the mind map box... i just cant resize it... i dont know why... i have done this kinda charts before... and as far as i remember... the boxes could be resized to the author's own preference... but it turns out that i'll have to adjust the whole chart in order to adjust the size... very good... fine... i'll just tolerate... since i dont have the energy to figure out the solution...

talking about being sick... it has been quite some time since i last had a fever... i already almost forgot the feeling of having fever... wahahaha... that is why... i tend to take things for granted... as i stayed healthy all these while... even during the hectic-exhausting short film shooting days... besides of feeling bloated after having a heavy meal after going thru a whole day of hunger... i did not even coughed... ya... so i was arrogant... and thinks that my body is like the "toughest of them all"... serve me right.... so now... its here to get me...

after being light-headed for the whole day... at least i still managed to finish my part for the media planning assignment... hehehe...
next up... international advertising report... woo-hoo... my SWOT and MPGEST!!!!
-due this friday

and my very favourite... proposal for screenplay and scriptwriting... i have been starting on this since last week and enjoying very bit of it.... even when the tutor/lecturer point out that i have to do a few more extra work... i did not even grumble or complain... instead... i happily accepted that and continue writing.... although i'm not finish with it yet... but i'm very confident that i'll be able to finish it before the deadline... wahahaha....

coming back up to blog does mean that i'm feeling better... no more head-doesnt-weigh-its-actual-weight... no more pain-in-the-bones.... and no more sudden feel of heat or cold...

signing off... ciaoz...


SWOT... MPGEST...

BIG PROBLEMS

we handed in our multimedia broadcasting sketchbook on last friday... and guess what... the tutor somehow "stormed" in today and say that there were a hell lot of problems in ALL our sketchbook.... woah!!! i was like "die lo... have to re-do..."

he even said that if he say what's wrong with our sketchbook in the beginning of the class.. he might get bad mood.... what the??!!! is it that serious??? my second thought was... what did we do wrong now??? i wrote the wrong thing for the contents and stuff??? aish... was so worried... until he called us group by group to tell us what's "wrong" with our sketchbook...



First things first.... we should use a clear transparent cover... because we cant find any clear transparent one... we opt for a near transparent cover with circles glittering when you turn them around... ok.... MISTAKE NUMBER 1...

MISTAKE NUMBER 2..... i forgot to remove the damn price tag from the damn black cover!!!! oh s**t la!!! he just have to use the red marker pen and circle the price tag.... and wrote "WHY IS THE PRICE TAG HERE???!!!" What the ****!!! wasted the whole piece of hardcover... 2 pieces actually.... he did the same for the back cover too.... WHAT THE ****!!! you think students now a lot of money is it???? although it's like rm0.80 per piece... but 2 makes rm1.60... and now i have to buy another two... which makes it rm3.20... eh hello.... i didnt buy the board for you to "conteng" ok???!!! if you wanna "conteng" just try the walls in utar... big big white white... nice nice... conteng all you want and see who cares..... now the whole board no use already... cant be used anyway... unless you would like to have it and "frame" up the "conteng-an" of my tutor.....


MISTAKE NUMBER 3.... our content did not start from the top part of the page... due to some unforeseen alignment problems... ah... this one also cannot... aish!!!! just some minor alignment problems.... what's the big deal??? at least its the same for every page... there's a consistency there... so what's the fuss????!! ish ish ish....


MISTAKE NUMBER 4..... in some of our title page... our titles werent "tepat-tepat" in the middle of the page... "oh... ini pun kena!!!" coz maybe i ter-press the spacebar too many times so its not right in the middle... but its still ok for me... aish.... big fuss!!!


MISTAKE NUMBER 5..... our storyboard page have extra boxes there.... so???!!! we drew the boxes first before filling it... how in the world are we suppose to know how many boxes we need??? so of course logically we draw extra.... just because we did not get rid of the extra boxes... you'll have to purposely circle them with red ink... so now we have to re-draw the whole thing.... what the ****!!!!


those are the BIG PROBLEMS about our sketchbook... aish... i thought the problems will be like... your content is wrong.... you left out something or you should color them or something.... so it turns out to be some minor-to-us-but-major-and-crucial-to-the-tutor problems....

so we'll have to retype.... reprint... rebind... repurchase the stuff that the tutor has "suka-suka conteng".... ish ish ish.... so much for saving due to finacial crisis.... with a tutor like this.... how to cut cost????!!!

at first wants us to use caligraphy pens to draw the sketches... ok fine la... i buy caligraphy pen(not cheap wei!!!! rm5 le!!!)... now waste all our papers... covers... hardcover boards... printer ink.... money for printing and binding.... time for redo-ing... can we claim from utar????


that is why i hate design subjects.... its always a waste of money... unnecessary expenditure... what the!!!!

argh..... waiting is torturing....

It's currently 9.30.... zero replies... but the number in my inbox did increased!!! ya... 2 new mails....

wooooo -drumrolls-





facebook notifications!!!!!


waaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please don't do this to me... and yes... i confess that i secretly hope that those who applied the same place as me does not have a CGPA higher than me....
yes... i also hope that the person applying also does not have better qualifications than me...


eh-hello... this is the real world here!!! competition!!!! you'll have to fight for things!!! and when you can't fight with your hands... the least you could use is to fight with your qualifications.... but the only thing i'm losing out here is my employment history.... which is a HUGE... i mean HUGE factor when it comes to applying for a job, intern or whatever.... my employment history is a total joke if i were to insert them in... so i just eliminated the whole column....


so what now??? i'm still waiting... oh well.. i'm posting my 3rd application later... via snail mail... i really hope the snail will be able to arrive its destination in the least 3-4 days or i'm toast!!!! come on come on.. you can do it mr. snail!!!!!

I'll be checking my mail everytime when i got the chance... i'll on my phone 24/7.... pick up calls even during 3am....

come on now... where is my luck when i need it???!!!!

I NEED REPLIES!!!!!

Waiting desperately..... -the desperate student-

Oh Gosh!!! what am i doing???? i'm up already on a saturday morning... and for your information.. it's 7am!!!! waaaa!!!! the best thing is.... my class starts at 12pm....

why am i up so early??? no idea... maybe it's just something that has been bugging me for the whole week.... INTERNSHIP!!!!

woah!!! i have never been so "semangat-ed" until my sleeping hours are affected.... this must be something really important... ya... if it's so important... why am i like doing loads of stuff last minute... sent an application to a production house via email.... NOTE: 1 production house...

Yalah-tu.... ok... just sent another off... ok.. so now i have 2 applications sent... and ZERO replies.... argh!!!! this is really killing me!!!!

Ok.... I have not post my application to NTV7 yet... apasal???!!! because their email's inbox are constantly full!!! if i wanna send i should do it via post (aka snail mail)... with the name snail mail there... it's obvious that my application will reach there soon *tuhan-knows-when...

and i am required to submit my offer letter by like next week!!!!! i was actually planning to do 1 application at a time... but time doesnt allow me... (and which dumbo will actually believe that they will be accepted at once???) so ok... i sent 2 and 1 more will be post later today.... wah.... how come the deadline is so tight???!!! i thought this thing should be like given around 1-2 months of time to apply and stuff.... apasal??!!!!! this is UTAR.... planning is always.... better not talk about it.... in case somebody from UTAR is actually reading this (except the students, of course!!! they will most probably agree with me anyway...)

hoo-laaa.... why no reply yet????!!! people don't go to work that early ke???? but it's a saturday.... half day.... so that means there should be people working de-ma.... even if you don't want me just at least give me a reply with a big fat "NO".. of course... that's not encouraged... just that waiting for something is really torturing... especially when you are really really desperate!!!!

it's 8.30am.... should start working liao gua???? no replies yet.... the number of my inbox has not moved ever since....

still waiting~~~~

after finals

hey... i have been neglecting my blog for a couple of days now... i think i should be filling it up a little bit coz there will not be any posts for the next.... erm... 1,2,3.... until next tuesday that is... you do the math...

ok... what should i talk about??? oh ya... my first... last and only final.. the very dreaded multimedia design and applications... well... our lecturer is great... our tutor is nice... and... well... it's just the subject itself.... really dont understand the purpose of it.... anyway... i have screwed the paper... the assignment.... the report.... the mid term... well... screw the whole subject!!!! so i guess... there's no way i'm getting my 4.0 this semester... i might as well dream on....

again.... i really wanna say is... to those people who just love to double park.... i dont mind you double parking... you are the one taking the risk of getting summons... which is also the same as wasting unecessary money... but anyway... please do have the courtesy to leave your number at a visible place on your dashboard.... just a small piece of paper will do... as long as your number is clear enough... you dont have to say sorry or anything... just make sure you have your damn number on your dashboard... and making sure that the driver you are blocking can freaking see the damn number.....

you see... what happen was... after my paper... i went off to get my car getting ready to go home... but i saw a car double park in front of my car... i assume that this fella's paper should end the same time as me and should be leaving soon, so i went to get my student bill... chat with uni mates to drag my time.... until everybody is going home already... so i guess the car should have left ages ago and i'll just head on home too...

but... NO!!!! the car is still there... ok... fine... so i... as usual... peak around the dashboard to see if there are any number to call.... "your car is blocking my car" thing... but who knows.... not a single freaking digit was anywhere to be seen... what now???!!! how am i suppose to go home?? so i called for help... chenghui suggest me to honk along to see if anybody is aware that their car is blocking... i honk a few times... no response.... 5 minutes later... a girl came catwalking down the road and she was holding a car key... well the car was a myvi and i have loads of friends driving myvis so i recognise the remote... the clicked it and the car's lights flashed!!! yay!!! i can finally go home... i looked at the girl... she did not even look at me... well... i'm no saint... so when you have cause me unconvinience... i do expect something as simple as an apologetic look... but she did not respond... and the worst thing is... she sat in the car for 2 freaking damn minutes before she drove away.... gosh!!!! i should have "accidently" knock her car or something as a sign that i want her to move!!!

this is frustrating man!!! so to all double park-ers out there... please leave your phone number on your dashboard.. and make sure it is readable.... also keep your phone with you 24/7.... answer all calls...

frustrated short semester...

i just dont know why but i really have a very negative feeling about short semesters... everything seems to go wrong for me during this time of study.... foundation went chaos.... i could accept that as a coincidence... but degree too???? i dont think so...

i know short sems are suppose to be a more relaxed time of study... but no... not for me... everything is squished up into 7 weeks instead of 14... assignments are in a rush... everything... is a hassle!! when there is doubt you'll have to wait till the next week for consultation.. because most of the lecturers are part time... even if they aren't, you only get to see them once or twice a week... which you will have to delay your work until the next week which is also a week closer to your deadline....

all my assignments gone haywire during this semester... nothing just seems to go right... not even a single thing.... dont mention public speaking because it didnt go as plan either... my impromptu was utter nonsense... as i dont have enough time to work out the points... my persuasive was worst as i was damn nervous of being late and the FIRST one... my demonstrative was a huge disaster!!! as our topic wasnt demonstrative enough and we were under the time limit.... these are the minor cases of the semester...

let's hear about the serious ones...

multimedia design and applications... why do they always have to have web page design subjects in short semesters??? why do they have to have it in our course anyway???? i so hate webpage design now... i think i would now rather work in a bank than to work with web page design... i change my mind about giving it a chance when i'm desperate... no chance given... eventhough i have to beg in the streets... no web page design!!! if you see me charging into the webpage design field in the future... i'm not the person you've known anymore... so dont greet me or anything... i might be suffering from amnesia due to a huge great big accident... i might not even remember you... so please bear with me...

my assignment was a total wreckage!! if my demonstrative speech was a disaster... this assignment is a whole "doomsday"!!! at first... ok the only part that went right... is i got to choose the title that i want... that's all... then everything starts to go wrong... i'm in charge of flash.. and i cant do anything right with it!!! ok the page by page thingy is ok... but when it comes to linking... i'm really near to killing myself... i thought of just failing the whole assignment... but i cant bring my group members down with me... the whole assignment is a total failure all because of me... and ever since... nothing has gone right with this assignment... even the posting doesnt work for me... fine... i'm so thru with webpage..

i'm getting lazier and lazier...

i shall sum up what has happened since monday....

monday... shabu shabu with the whole bc3 to celebrate birthdays of the november babies... kevin(itulah class repku...), ziyun and eevee...

nothing much to say... i certainly enjoyed the food...

tak taulah apasal ngan eggy....

and its the first time ever that the whole bc3 is all present....

cheers!!!

tuesday... there was a huge gap within classes as my first class ends at 10am and the next starts at 3pm.. therefore... went to joanne's place to get some of our assignments done...
however... the button linking thing is so very very freaking complicated.... i dont know how to get it to work.... even till now.... ish ish ish....


wednesday.... spent half of my day trying to get the stupid buttons to work... but none of them go the way i wanted.... emailed the lecturer and tutor... double the request... resisting the urge of punching the monitor.... then head off to korean class....
hee... saya boleh jadi guru kecil le..... although i cant really survive in korea but i still have the guts to go teach others... wakakakaka.....

today... sheh lee's birthday... we are going to pyramid to celebrate...
i have not been spending much since the semester started... and now... within 1 week i'm already spending more than my allowance... woosh!!!
ka-ching!!

Going nuts~~~

i'm seriously going freaking nuts when it comes to flash..... all because i have nothing else to do but to just slightly change the colour of the words in my intro flash and now.... the whole gone haywire!!!!!

at first i decided to follow the tutor's advice and make it dissolve instead of flashing.... so i followed exactly the way she demonstrated and redo the one i have done.... ok... so after reviewing the flash thing again today... i thought that that dissolve part is not obvious enough as the end color was not dark enough to show the dissolve-ation... so what did i do???? i click the end frame of every text that has the dissolve thingy and reduce the alpha more than the actual... guess what???? when i replay the whole thing.... no dissolving view!!!! but instead... i just somehow stayed there in the freaking grey colour which i've got after lowering the alpha.... S***!!!! and after realising what i have done... i quickly undo the whole thing and redo... but it turns out that i cant do it anymore!!!!! when i click the text... the properties box was suppose to show a color droplist which i can change it to alpha and then adjust it... but now... it became a text box!!!!!! i dont know what i did i do to get this freaking thing there.... and no matter how i click or where i click... the text box will just appear at the properties part... with font size, font type and stuff.... ish ish ish... geramnya!!!!! that's not the thing... because i was so worried that my adobe flash will hang like every 5 minutes after i complete a step... i save everytime i done something... so now i cant turn back to the original!!!!!!!!!!!! S*** S*** S***!!!!!!

so i guess i'll have to redo the whole thing now!!! or someone... anybody can tell me how could i get the graphis thingy which there is a for-you-to-change-the-image-into-button drop list... instead of the freaking text box... i dont wanna change my fonts and stuff now!!!!

HELP!!!!

i'm finally back!!!!

guess how long have i been wandering away from my blog???? and it's not my fault!!! it's my connection... then my pc.... everything has not been going so well after all... and it always happens during my short semester....



some may think that i should not put the blame on my luck again... but how could it be a coincidence if i only went through 2 short semesters in my uni lfe and i always have to face computer and connection problems during that time???? there's no explanation towards that arent they???



if you wanna confirm... i'm quite sure that i have post something about my connection during my last short semester... which is around february or march last year.... i was required to create a website and also make it available online... and my connection just have to play along and i cant upload anything.... anybody with website-creating background will know that in order to make a website available online.... you'll have to upload all your whatsoever pictures, images, graphics (i know they are all the same thing... but just let me fill more words into my post as i have not been posting for so long...), videos and stuff online to get them work on the website... so how am i going to make it available online if i cant upload???? in the end... kah yee and i used the uni's internet lab to upload everything.... and boy, that took us a while....

and now... also another short semester... also another website-creating assignment... and also another make-the-website-available-online request is on..... so now... what will happen to my very very vitally important technology????

internet-connection: ah-ha!! maybe i should flicker the dsl light a little bit and just freak her out.... push off the internet connection for a few days... it's just the first
week of study... nothing much needed from me....

thank you very much.... i'm really freaked out ok..... i cant go online... i cant do research... i cant search for details and info... i cant blog... i cant facebook.... i cant reply the mails the japanese kids sent to me... ish!!!! then today... finally... my dad call up telekom to get them to fix the phone line... ya.. the phone line is causing problems... maybe i should change the character of the dialogue above... maybe not.... it's seems ok though....

next....

pc: ah now... this girl have been torturing me non-stop when mr internet connection was on vacation.... on and off... on and off... just to see if the stupid explorer is loading or not.... so now i think i'll just "mogok" and let her know who's the boss!!!! the next time is the last time she gets me turn on.... (ok, this sounds weird)

why la???!!!!! now my pc is toasted!!!! cannot on it at all!!!!!! argh!!!!!!! so what shall i do now??? i know my laptop will always come in handy but the problem is... i prefer doing things using the pc... because the laptop screen can really kill my eyesight... everything seems so bright eventhough i adjust the brightness to the lowest of all....

so now... do you agree that i always have bad luck with our very handy-dandy online technology during short semesters... i still have one more to go... i wonder what else will happen to my computer... laptop... connection... whatsoever......

hi hoe...

wahaha... it's almost 12 am... why am i still here facing the computer instead of hugging my pillow and dreaming on??? it's because my dreaded timetable doesnt require me to wake up early the next morning in order to get parking space... in conjunction with that.... i dont have to sleep that early either...

the first class starts at 3pm, man!!!! why should i wake up at 6am???? nothing else to do???!!!

but now i'm not sure actually what time shoul di leave the house.... because i'm not really familar with the road condition during this time of the day... usually i'll most probably be on the other side of the road happily driving my way back home.... now... i'll be dragging my dreaded soul to uni and also to search for parking space... i hate afternoon classes!!!! or this is more towards evening already??!!!! am i going to a night school???!!! gosh!!!

so now... i'm still figuring out what time should i leave the house... for your info... this post has been saved overnight because i dont think it's long enough to be posted... hahahaha.... so it's around 11.20am now.... i'm typing while playing with d-ken... my pet in pet society... trying to win some more paw points in order to get a bigger house for my d-ken... it's kinda small in my opinion... as d-ken loves to buy stuff (it's more like the OWNER is the ONE who LOVES to buy stuff...)... there's not enough space to put all his stuff around the house... maybe some of you should try playing with pet society... it's really cute!!!

or maybe you can also try guess the sketch... also in facebook... that is why i love facebook... they always have a lot of cool games.... it's something like win, lose or draw... if you are from my generation, you should know this gameshow.... i forgot the host's name... but you SHOULD know la... unless you dont watch tv at the age of 2-5... then you are forgiven... heee... its really fun... and you get to DRAW~~~ not that i like drawing but it can be kinda fun when everybody is about hte same standard... hahahahah....

i'm still clueless about what time should i be leaving for uni.... boy, i hate that timetable!!!!!

shooting progress -part3- finally, the end

Finally!!! today is officially our last day of shooting.... all shots must be completed since we have to return all our equipments tomorrow....



Last day at NZX!!! thanks to our MV shooting... i finally get to come to this place when all the shops are open....



woke up at 6 again.... can you believe that???!!!! waking up at 6 during a SUNDAY!!!!! set off to Bear's house to pick up crew members.... our shooting time at Full House starts from 9am - 11am... so we'll have to get everything ready by then so that we'll not waste time...



shooting went on exceptionally smooth today.... the Full House crew were very nice and helpful... the best we met so far....



after shooting... it was around 11 something... we wanted to straight away have lunch at Full House... but they are not open until 12pm... so we hung around and waited... until suddenly... someone started yelling that PJ has lost his car keys!!!! wow!!! must have dropped it somewhere... so everyone started searching... i searched my car but it's nowhere to be seen.... until me and eggy went to check on PJ's car to see if he left it in the car.... we saw his lock thingy was extraordinarily high up... i tried opening the door and it just open!!!! yalah!!! PJ didnt lock his car... pandai!!!! then we looked around the interior of his car... and found it on the back seat... how smart can you be???!!!! i am though!!! hahaha....



after the hastle of car-keys searching.... we headed off to big apple for doughnuts... i'm not really a fan of sweet stuff... but i couldnt resist when i saw "say cheese"!!!! it's cheese with white choc... both are my favourite!!! so i bought a piece anyway....



we waited till 12pm and headed back to Full House for lunch.... the decoration there is really beautiful!!!! nice and unique!!! and the food is good too!!! *double thumbs up



after lunch.... all of us head back... on the way... i got a call from bear asking whether is PJ's house key is in my car.... what the hell is his house key doing in my car???!!! i mean he wasn't in my car today.... he said he might had dropped it there yesterday... since they were riding my car back to section17... and he did not went back home yesterday... instead he stayed at boey's place... so it might be in my car after all.... ok fine... i'll go check..... the result........ it's not in my car!!!



i reached home at 3.30!!!! and officially announced the end of our mv production week!!! hurray!!!

editing is coming up next.... but it'll not be as hectic as shooting... since we get to stay in the air-conditioned editing room.... and not sun-glaring, bones shivering locations......





photos will be post up soon.... stay tune!!!

shooting progress -part2-

i'm finally back!!!!! from selayang!!!! after 2 days of shooting!!!!! yippeeee!!!!

let's just start with friday morning when we were gonna shoot at ken iii apartment's swimming pool.... had a great big issue with the guard... about shooting at the swimming pool.... even though we've got our permission letter this time!!!!!! anyway... the guard gave us time until 9am to shoot..... well... that's the best he can do, i guess.. because this few shots require our talent to be in the pool... so a camera have to be situated on the pool for a closer perspective.... and the job of handling the camera on the water goes to me and eggy... because both of us were wearing shorts!!! oh!! how smart!!! the water was freezing cold... until my legs were shivering in the water... but my condition was very ok if compared to our talent, PJ's condition..... his legs were all redish due to the cold water.... kesian him..... he have to stay in there longer than we do because he's the main character..... like usual.... we went far off the time limit given.... the guard keep ushering us to leave or just stop shooting..... but the crew went on until 9.30... then, the guard strictly forbid us to shoot anymore..... yala... that's something usual about our crew... we are never on time.....

then we went back to uni cuz PJ's class starts at 10am.... but we have no class until 1.30... so we hung around at bear's place.... took a short nap and head back to uni.... attend comm theory and multimedia tools for advertising lectures.... handed in our comm theory report.... hopefully it's ok...

today's class ended early.... at around 4.30... so again... we hung around pieggie's house to wait for our talents (PJ and Boey) to meet up with us.... then... talents arrived but realised that they have forgotten to bring one of their shooting costumes..... ah yes.... so we split into 2 groups again... eggy and gang went off first to selayang while we headed to kelana jaya to get the talent's costumes.... after that... I pass the stering wheel to PJ since its around 6 something already... and i bet you my pendrives that there'll be a massive jam at LDP!!!! since i'm not very used to driving my mom's audi... and PJ seems eager to drive... so why not.....

the jam was terrible!!!! especially when its the opening ceremony of the olympics... not that it's occuring here.... i guess everybody is rushing home to watch.... however.... we missed it!!!!! luckily... mommy recorded it on tape for me... i know what you are thinking..... yes, i still use video tapes and for your information... i really like them!!!!

it was 9 something already when we reach selayang.... after setting up and stuff... its already almost 10.... poor boey.... she have no choice but to continue shooting until 12 something.... we called it off until then and everyone went to sleep.... because we have to get everything ready for shooting by 7am the next morning.... not wasting anymore time.... we hurried off to sleep.... 4 of us...festiny, joanne, eggy and me slept in fetiny's room while others (5 of them) slept in the other room.... festiny and joanne tooks the bed while me and eggy took the floor.... everyone was tired so nothing much to complain.... until the next morning... we heard like a dozen of alarms ringing.... one by one... until 4 of us couldnt take it anymore and woke up at 6.45.... got everything ready... and waited for the others to join in.... but there were no respond from the next room until festiny and joanne went in and wake them up at 7.30am.... yala tu... biasalah....

then started at around 8 something... while festiny and eggy went off to fetch agnes from the ktm station and buy breakfast on the way.... shooting... shooting.... shooting..... then splitted into 2 gangs again.... with eggy heading to jalan kuching for our next location..... until then... there was a sudden change of plan when we have to completely omit monday's shots at jalan17/5... due to unforeseen circumstances.... so we spontaneously found a spot near festiny's place to replace those shots....

shooting at jalan kuching went on quite ok.... then we head back to the location to replace monday's shots.... then again.... we have to re-shoot a fews shots that were done on thursday... due to unforeseen circumstances again!!!! luckily... these shots odes not require the talents.. so i'm in charge of sending them back to petaling while poor eggy have to stay back....

tomorrow is our last day of shooting!!!! yeah!!!! NXZ's Full House restaurant!!! it's a really nice place....

p/s: huiping ajak-ed me for yuncha tomorrow but i cant go!!!!!! i still have shooting!!!! snifs!!!

will upload all the pictures later!!!! stay tune!!!!

updates on shooting progress

currently have completed 2 days of shooting:

monday: jalan 17/5 field, NZX commercial centre *check

wednesday: taman jaya park(opposite amcorp mall) *Check



both are outdoor scenes.... currently shooting an indoor scene which consist of the singing part... i'm not involved.... why??? because.... i dont wanna skip class... hehehe... sorry... anyway... it should be going on smoothly in selayang now.... all the best wey!!! but i did not waste my day today... i edited the comm theory report and found out that we left out the conclusion which includes the answer towards the assignment question... all we have is theories and arguments.... yikes!!! then went for class.... ms u-know is lecturing on agenda-setting today.... then mr zachary is releasing a partial of the final exam's tips.... wheeee....



it was raining heavily in Petaling, i bet it still is now.... luckily we shot our outdoor scenes yesterday.... phew.... speaking about yesterday.... we were suppose to be shooting in taman jaya park.... when we reach there for set up, it started drizzling... wooo... however it wasnt heavy and it stopped about 10 minutes after we reached there.... first hurdle... down... then when we were setting up... some random park-ranger came hooting at us and asked for a permission letter... oh shoot... we did not prepare one for this location... and the park ranger will not allow us to shoot unless he sees the letter.... fine!!! we called eggy and gang to turn back and prepare the letter.... luckily i had a template saved in my pendrive.... but miss foo had to turn back to pc just to sign our damn permission letter... and that's so nice of her.... Thanks yo!!!! we owe you a lot man( i mean woman)!!!! hurdle 2... down.... then.. due to the strong wind... the sun ray was moving all around the place.... we have to delay shots just to wait for the sun ray to be back at the previous position in order to not mess up with continuity.... anyway... the sun ray was quite cooperative because it will always come back to its previous position after its "stroll" around the park..... hurdle 3.... down..... what else??? well... i guess that's the few major hurdles.... i'll just skip those minor "frictions" during shooting... ask me personally if you wanna know...

well then... i'll flashback monday's part.... first... we drove off to jalan17/5 for our first location shooting at around 4 pm because we'll have to wait for our talent to finish their classes.... while waiting we took our intro shot.... which took us appoximately of 2 hours to set up.... ish.... then the first batch took off in eggy's car to the location for set up... leaving me and talents, not forgetting our make-up artist... fuiyoh!!! as the second batch because we have to get the talent's make-up done first....

done~~ reach location 1.... the sun was glaring furiously at us!!!! we were burning hot.... PJ(our talent's initial... and no!!! it does not stand for Petaling Jaya....) was sweating like a running hose pipe.... shots were taken.... all was ok... but the whole thing went on till 7pm!!!!! and it's getting darker and darker....

we finally left the place at 7.30 and headed to NZX for our next location.... reached there around 8... had dinner at stationOne... then started setting up for shooting.... "frictions" again... about car keys and stuff.... will not mention here... ask me personally if you wanna know.... the whole thing went on and on and on and on.... the thing is... we only have 3 DAMN SHOTS!!!!! and we were damn lucky it did not rain!!!! or else... we are done!!! the whole thing will be delayed until the next morning, i guess.... cuz we left NZX at 12am!!!! the initial idea was suppose to be a raining shot to enhance the dramatic "whatever"..... but lucky the sky was kind... and did not let the goddamn rain loose... or else it will be harder for us to get everything done.....

i know people are now eagering for photos during shooting...
i'll post them up after i'm done with all my shooting posts.....
kinda lazy to upload them now....