birthday party...

Last saturday... syahira's birthday celebration..
since i'm working from monday to friday, from 10am to 7pm... there's no time for me to grab anything for her as her birthday present...
so on saturday before going to her house for the party, rachel, cheryl and i hopped to pyramid to see what we can get...

then hold on till night time and head off to her party...

let's see....

the foods

the birthday girl...

The decos

the cake

The gang...

The face when the yummy food all ran out... including the cake...

and... the cat.... uchi

testing testing~~ 123

I honestly did not plan to post anything up on my blog today... but just i have to try out the email posting function... so here goes a blog post of random blabs...

its the 10th week of my internship... and i really think that time sure flies pass... i now have 1 more month to go till i am thru with my internship with my current company...

for now i start to think... whether am i suitable to be in this field or not.. oh well.. i should be i guess.. since i'm accepting and adapting to the real world of working where everybody will only care for themselves and the money... to be realistic and a lil pessimistic tho... you can also find real friends in your workplace.. people can be nicer than they look... but just get ready to face certain cruel facts... dont shunt yourself in your own world and thinks that the world is perfect just exactly like how you pictured it... that's the ostrich's way of doing things.. not human's...

anyway... i suddenly have this feeling of not wanting to go back and study... well.. i guess i'm tired of assignments, mid terms, finals, and the most important factor that influences the most..... MARKS... and not forgetting... CGPA.... i somehow prefer working than studying... i feel that studying is in fact more stressful than working...

ok.. i might have said this too soon... but currently, that's how i think... 

maybe when i officially start working... i'll miss my internship days... as an intern.. you have this "get out of jail free" card which is equivalent to a "make mistakes but will be forgiven" card.. as an intern... everybody knows that an intern knows nothing more than the textbook has... so internship is a time for them to learn... and when people learn... they make mistakes.. but then... it's a normal thing for interns to make mistakes... so as an intern... there will not be much responsbility bared on my shoulders... so its more relaxing and fun... gosh... i said "fun"!!

i certainly dont have the mood to carry on with my studies already... i guess i have 1 month and a half's time to work it out... meanwhile... for that 1 and a half month's time... what should i do???

well... i'm just wondering whether my company would want me to extend my internship.... if they are still willing to pay... obviously i dont mind.. hehehe...

then i plan to catch up with my korean language and do some self study for my japanese... sigh.. languages... you cant just leave them hanging... they'll go away if you ignore them too long...

my dad is also suggesting other places for me to go to as an intern... wuahahaha... he'll have to work with his contacts tho.. 

what else??? i really wanna go overseas... just dont know why.. but i really feel like leaving here for a short period to just breathe some different air in different places... anywhere will do... hk, china, taiwan, japan, korea or even s'pore.... and yes.. i'm very asian... i stick to my continent... because other places are too expensive anyway...

i'm on my last year of studies already... how i hope i can further in other countries... although i said i am tired of studying... but maybe doing it in a different country may help... heheheh... me and my excuses...

ok for now.. i think its long enough.... 

for those who are expecting pictures... i'm sorry coz i'm not sure whether should i attach them or just use the img tag... i'll try that another time then...

signing off...

It's here!!!

This is fast... order placed on last wednesday and thursday... payment settled on saturday...

order dispatched on monday...
and received on wednesday!!!!!!
my biggest order on ebay...
14 books..




ok... it looks 15 here... well.. apparently one of the books was a little ruined by the rain... so they replace with another book... but then.. they sent the book that was ruined too... i havent really open and check how ruin it is.. so i hope it isnt too bad...
well.. at least i can read it...

recap: shout awards

ok people...
for those who always say that my blog has too much words here are some post with photos..
although its not many..
but at least some non-text stuff to boost some imagination...
what am i talking about???

oh.. nevermind...
a brief recap about last week's shout awards...
ghost won the freshest tv show...




to bad cheryl and naz didnt win the best on screen chemistry award... what a waste... they lost to upin and ipin!!!! wuahahaha...



then field trip USA for freshest tv show (non drama)




not forgetting KAMI for best breakthrough movie...





well.. the rest... just google yourself... coz i dont remember the categories...

about last friday...
i didnt get to go home on time due to some "mis-communication" that always happens in my company...
i only get to take off at around 8.15pm...
by the time i reach home... the awards has started!!
sheesh...
luckily i didnt really miss a lot from the live telecast of the awards on 8tv...

woes...

I can’t believe I can’t go to the ShoutAwards… and I actually have the opportunity to gain hold of free tickets to the event…. Sigh…. I guess…. I’ll just watch it from home then… I wonder will there be live telecast on tv???? For those who are interested.. it’s on Friday, this coming Friday (17/7) starting from 8.30pm… which obviously shows that I can’t make it because I’m working on Friday until 7pm… so in order for me to get to bukit jalil from damansara perdana… even though if there’s no jam… although it’s somewhat impossible… i may also not make it in time… so let’s just dump all those other MINOR problems like me don’t have a single clue of how to go to bukit jalil stadium from damansara perdana or even my house…. And I may not get any parking space…

I’m cheering for Naz and Cheryl for best chemistry in Ghost!!!! I hope they win… I did vote!! And several others too… I vote Ghost for best programme (drama), field trip USA for best tv programme (non-drama)… what else?? Kami for best film… I’m not really sure of the names for the categories.. but they are somewhat like that…

Hmm… it’s not the end of the week yet… but let’s talk about internship just to fill up the post… this is certainly the most frustrating week I have ever had… and I know I still have 2 more days to jump into conclusions but I can conclude… the previous days were like hell so the frustration level is to the maximum comparing to any other weeks… firstly…. People starts forgetting what they said previously and couldn’t make up their minds… in the end insulting me and my knowledge of the language…. Damn… anyway… the incident keeps repeating itself so no point repeating them here… the conclusion is you present A.. people think A is not good… they suggest B… then you do and present B… then they say B is not good and ask why didn’t you do A??? then they just give you this i-am-not-happy-but-i-am-not-gonna-scold-you-coz-I’m-nice look…. And then tells you to do C, a combination of A+B… fine.. I’ll give you C… then they ask you why aren’t you following??? And now they want a little of D.. which people claimed they had mentioned it earlier… which I don’t recall anything… along with my 3 fellow colleagues… anyway.. so now they want E, which is C+D….

Sigh~~~~

And one more thing… I seriously think that Malaysia has too many oppositions… coz I’m currently researching about corruption… and whenever I type corruption… it is not facts that come out but a lot of opinions and critics… which is something I don’t need… I only want the actual case and facts… but the opinions and stuff are interesting tho… which distracts me from researching on facts instead I start reading all those critics and stuff…

However… people will not accept that there are things that are not available on the internet… people claims that I have not done enough research… well.. I dare not say I have done enough but I tried every way I could to search for those info and I failed.. so do you mind telling me where to go instead of “you go and search… sure got one.. search further…”

What is “search further”??? I have already reach the end of the results… is that far enough???

A lot of minor things cannot be found on the internet, mind you… and the ones that I have done research on are those I have presented earlier… which you have rejected… my dear lovely version A…

The rest… I now can only rely on my imagination to create your Bs, Cs, Ds and Es….

missed raymond...

Hi... another week of my internship has passed... this is a week that i have practically nothing to write about... because now i understand the feeling of having absolutely nothing to do... oh gosh... every morning i step into the office... it's facebook from 10-7.... well... it was still ok for the first few days... then i realise that it wasnt fun at all having nothing to do....

so now i hope we have things to do next week... which i think we will have as i have seen the schedule that we'll be starting preproduction work.... ok... so since there's nothing to talk about work... i guess we'll talk about other stuff...



i missed raymond lam at kepong metro prima yesterday... oh shucks...



reason no.1 i dont know where kepong metro prima is....
reason no.2 it starts at 8pm and i finish work at 7pm... by the timei get there.... it'll be full of people.. not to mention the jam while getting there... they say it is hard to secure places... even if you are an FF member... and i'm NOT...
reason no.3 i'm kinda lazy to go after a day's work... although as i said previously i was quite free in the office... but still.. it's quite tiring just staying in the office... ok... keekee is gonna kill me if she sees this...




anyway... he's gonna be in johor, ipoh and penang.... and the FF gang is following him across half of malaysia... and that's what i call loyal fans... hahahaha.... i'll be supporting you guys mentally!!! my heart will be with you!!!

and then... i had this very spontaneous get-together with cheryl and the gang... haha.... nice to see cheryl back here... nothing has change.... well.. the problem with going out in a big group is everybody have different interests and they stop at different things... well... let's just say that we'll tend to lose a few members everytime somebody turn away to look at something and turn around back to join the gang.... it happens a few times today... almost everytime... well... it's EVERYTIME!!!!

i must really control on my spending.... ok... i dont earn a lot during my internship... so i'm still depending on my family when it comes to petrol and parking ticket.... which may also differ after we move to connaught... well i try to save on my meals by bringing home cook/prepared food to the office... oh gosh... the problem is... i really enjoy spending... but i'll always regret after doing so... weird huh??? that's it for being kiamsiap... oh... i forgot to introduce my 3Ks in life... please welcome... Kiasu... Kiamsiap.... and Kepo... these are my 3Ks in life...

sigh~~~ when can i spend happily without regretting after that???

oh well... i tend to be very grateful when weekend arrives... not that i am not grateful before this... but now... i'm even more grateful... just like how i used to be when i was in high school... how i love fridays.. not only because of the chinese class... but also the coming of weekends... i always feel dreaded to go to school... just like how i feel dreaded to go to work... of course... i think going to work is a bit better than going to school because at least i'm doing what i like to do... so it does cheer up my monday blues... and the part where you can wake up anytime you want....
and i'm kinda lucky considering that fact that i dont work during weekends....

ok... end of post...

signing off~~~~

XOXO (detailed explanation)

The reason this is repost is due to some people who don’t understand the point of the point and starts giving anonymous rude comments about the points that doesn’t even exists in the post… besides… I think that fella is banned from hk now coz he criticize hk so much until one of my friends said that he should just stay in an egg and grow there because hk is just a small portion of the real world…


Ok… if you totally understand my previous post (XOXO) regarding this.. I think there’s no need for you to continue reading but you still can just for the fun of it.. because at first… XOXO was just my perception about certain things and I am not talking about anybody in particular… but now this is directed to the anonymous in person… however I doubt that fella will be reading this post after leaving such shallow opinions…


Ok… let’s start….

As i said... i have rants to get on with... at first i thought that it might just spoil my mood... but second thought... timing isnt really an issue... so i decided to pick this lovely morning... to release some of my stuff... which maybe some people are very curious about... wahahahah... (*winks)

–ok… this paragraph doesn’t need explaining, does it??? Ok… in case some people still don’t understand.. I’ll just make it clear that I have made a clear point that this is just me letting out several negative stuff that I have within me… so those who are interested can go on reading… those who are not, then they should stop because it will ruin their lovely morning.. –



first things first... i would like to say... everybody is not perfect... everybody have their flaws and weaknesses... but its up to them whether to improve or change or not... and its up to you whether you could accept it or not... sometimes a flaw may not seem such a big problem to person A but it's a great big deal to person B... so who's problem is it??? the person with the flaw or person B??? in my opinion it has to be person B... because it is not a big deal to other people... so you either learn to accept... or just totally ignore... i understand it is hard to accept something you dont agree with... but i dont think its necessary to make such a fuss about it.. since some people could stand the way it is... well... in some situations... if everybody couldnt stand the flaw... or a majority couldnt... then the person should do something with the flaw... because its disturbing almost everybody around the person... but if there's just a minority... maybe it's the flaw that makes out who you are... makes you unique.. makes you special... what's the fuss???

–hmm…. Here I’m saying that sometimes when you couldn’t accept somebody’s flaw… you should not straight away go on and blame the person for not being perfect… as stated “everybody is not perfect… everybody have their flaws and weaknesses…” instead.. maybe you should ask yourself that is it your problem because you couldn’t tolerate with such small matter??? Ask around and see if its such a big deal.. if its not… then maybe you should do something yourself and not go around and blame others… sometimes a flaw will make someone unique… in case some people don’t understand this again… I’ll give an example… jay chou… he has been criticized a lot for not being able to pronounce his lyrics clearly… but then… look at how many fans he have… since the majority could accept… then it’s not such a big problem after all… and now… it has became his signature… however… he did put some effort on his pronunciation… but somehow people prefer him not doing that… haha.. –

well... everybody has a right to voice out when they see something they dont agree with... but i shall also say... they also the right not to... so just see how it goes... if they decided not to say anything... may they can still bear with it... and they also have their ways of avoiding it to affect themselves... so why make a fool???? and ruin things that are in a good condition???

–here it means that people have the right to open their mouths or not… so any third party is not suppose or allowed to force anybody to voice out… and sometimes when people don’t mention maybe it means that people don’t think the matter is important enough to express… and maybe people just don’t want to ruin things that are going on nicely all the while…. So people are just trying to be nice… which force them not to be??? –

i shall also say that... talking behind people's back is not a good thing... but sometimes... there might be a reason behind that... although it may not be strong enough to support but then... sometimes its really better that way... i have experience... that people cannot really handle critisms although they claim they could... in the end... friendships... gone... everything... vanished.... so why pretend as though you could when in the reality you couldnt???? and as a result... break things that arent suppose to be broken???

–oooo… here comes the very “misunderstood” part… I shall highlight it.. talking behind people's back is not a good thing… so that’s what I said… however… there might be reasons behind it.. maybe they don’t wanna spoil the relationship they have with the person… because criticizing in front of that person may hurt his/her feelings… and they will turn defensive.. and fight back… things in the end turn out ugly and not the way anybody has expected… -

i stand my views as if i dont like people doing that to me.. i will not do that to others in the first place... like i hate being framed... so at least i will not be framing people for what they have not done.... but however... i never said that i hate people talking about things behind my back... honestly i'm ok with that... ok... maybe i'll be a little uncomfortable... but come on.... who likes to be the topic of gossips??? i'm still ok with it... because the mouth belongs to others... i cant do anything about it... although... due to my very "kepo"-ness... i am always curious about what they have to say about me... well... if i get to know it...

–ok… here’s another “misunderstood” part… I said “if i dont like people doing that to me.. i will not do that to others in the first place...” so I said that… I can still accept people talking behind my back because I do that too… well.. I cant expect people to respect me if I don’t respect people on the first place.. so I’m fine with people talking behind my back… good or bad… and I don’t see it as backstabbing because they are telling the truth about what they don’t like about me… and those are not my secrets… so since it’s the truth… how can you say its backstabbing??? Backstabbing means betrayal.. misuse of trust… like I trust them with a secret and they go off telling people.. that, to me is backstab… but of course I cant expect everybody… all of my friends to like me 100%... so they are allowed to say and even discuss my flaws with others… when they decided its time for me to know and change… I’ll get to know eventually… if not… they either think it’s just a small matter… or they think I’m hopeless to change… -

hmm... ok let's make it this way... if its a negative thing... and that person doesnt like it... ok.. i'll try my best not to do that in front of him/her.. but that doesnt mean that i could change overnight and completely stop to be a different person.... maybe others could accept so i could express the way i am to the people who can accept... no harm done....

– maybe my command of English is that bad until people don’t understand what I write… maybe I should consider English lessons or something… here I said that if somebody doesn’t like me doing something… hmm.. this is vague… let me give an example… A doesn’t like me cursing… I’ll avoid cursing in front of her… but maybe in front of B who doesn’t mind me cursing.. I’ll still curse… because I cant just stop straight away… maybe some people can… but I need some time… I’m a bit slow sometimes… so bear with me..-

its hard to change something that has been comfortably set in you... maybe you could avoid.. but its still in you... like how i dont like malaysian cantonese.... i avoid using the term that were only used in malaysia... but my hong kong friends still say i speak in a very malaysian way... what to do??? its with me all the time.... sometimes they'll say... "hey... you now speak less like a malaysian already... welcome to hong kong!!!".... i'll be like "really??!!! oh gosh!!! i didnt realise!! yippee!!"

–this is just an example that I used to explain the above point.. just to say that I actually can change without realizing… and I’m so sorry to mention hk here… coz it made hk a shooting target… I apologise to each and every hong kong citizen who have come by this blog for unintentionally making it a shooting target for criticisms… and making them feel offended… I’m so sorry…-

same theory... different situations... applicable anytime.... anywhere...

–does this need explanation?? Coz I don’t know how to explain it… I’m just making an assumptions that usually people don’t change overnight but they will change without even realizing it… sorry if its wrong… just my own assumption-

however... i believe people talks about other people behind their backs all the time... good or bad.. it's just a part of mingling with other friends... nobody, i believe... nobody don't talk about the people they know behind their backs... of course unless they are dumb.... cant talk isnt a crime after all... being talked about isnt really as bad as some people think it is... in another way... i think maybe because i'm remembered for something... people know me for something... good or bad... hmmm... that's another thing then.... i'm working in the entertainment industry and we need these "gossips" to survive... no gossips... nothing... there's no word of mouth... then... please take out your wallet and pay for the promotion.. thank you very much....

– well… here I assume that everybody talks… even like when you discuss about stars (I mean singers, actors stars… not star light star bright… no wishes will be granted… thank you very much) I’m sure you couldn’t be talking about brad pitt or tom cruise in front of their faces right??? So that is kinda consider talking behind their backs… but actually when they talk about brad pitt or tom cruise… they are actually spreading their name around… that is why they are so well known… they might be talking about their life-partner change… or they can also be talking about how good looking they are and how good is their acting… this is call word-of-mouth promotion.. which is free of charge… and that’s a really typical thing that is happening in the entertainment industry… people criticize because they don’t know or understand… well.. if these are people who are also working in the industry themselves… I feel very sorry for their naïve-ness…. No.. their density….-

Thank you for your time!!!

delayed post again... outing on 20/6

sorry for another delayed post... hehehe...

20 june...

today is the day after my "best internship day" ever.. which i get to meet up with ain and gang... ain is back from the US for holidays... and yippee... she's not infected by the AH1N1... that means we can hang out!!!

we set off to sunway pyramid.... then meet up with jia shan and cze theng... well... all 3 of us realise one thing... we havent been speaking BM for like how many years was it???? picking it back up is a little "cake water" in my terms... and the normal terms is .... AWKWARD!!! a lot of words are forgotten... and sometimes you get stuck in the middle of a sentence dono how to continue because of this one word that is missing from your brain... and in the end... english comes back into the conversation....

here we are....







when we were having lunch in Teppanyaki.... and ika is actually wearing baju kurung... fuyoh!!! formal gile.... ade function ke???


then we shot off to the arcade....



first... the car racing thing... which is almost a "must-do" in arcades....




then syahira and ika have a go on the house of the dead.... the lost at the stage where there's this huge round belly guy... or thing.... gross... reminds me that i'm getting fat again... sigh~~~


then we walk around pyramid aimlessly.... talking and laughing along... and ika have this very funny hobby... when she sees an escalator... she'll have to get on it.. even when nobody is planning to join her....




so she has to come back down... herself....



and she does it again... but this time... we accompany her... "kesian je~~"

we wanted to take a group photo... but we trust no stranger to handle the camera... so this is what we did...



we took turns holding the camera... so there will be one of us disappearing from each photo... haha.... this is the very last photo we took right before my camera battery decided to go to rest...
















Of course.... the other 6 photos were taken using ain's iphone... so there are several NG (no-good) photos... during the process....


first and foremost... jia shan decided to capture her feet first before capturing us.... and she also decided to do it the artistic way... which is to blur the whole thing... and that's her feet you are looking at... by the way...




after looking at her feet... she decided to give people a different perspective of taking photos... which is upside down.... well... it's really.... hmmm.... artistic of her....




here's another artist... who wants to portray the feel of us as drunkards.... it's really successful by the way!!! way to go, cze theng!!!!


that's all folks...


signing off~~~

XOXO

As i said... i have rants to get on with... at first i thought that it might just spoil my mood... but second thought... timing isnt really an issue... so i decided to pick this lovely morning... to release some of my stuff... which maybe some people are very curious about... wahahahah... (*winks)

first things first... i would like to say... everybody is not perfect... everybody have their flaws and weaknesses... but its up to them whether to improve or change or not... and its up to you whether you could accept it or not... sometimes a flaw may not seem such a big problem to person A but it's a great big deal to person B... so who's problem is it??? the person with the flaw or person B??? in my opinion it has to be person B... because it is not a big deal to other people... so you either learn to accept... or just totally ignore... i understand it is hard to accept something you dont agree with... but i dont think its necessary to make such a fuss about it.. since some people could stand the way it is... well... in some situations... if everybody couldnt stand the flaw... or a majority couldnt... then the person should do something with the flaw... because its disturbing almost everybody around the person... but if there's just a minority... maybe it's the flaw that makes out who you are... makes you unique.. makes you special... what's the fuss???

well... everybody has a right to voice out when they see something they dont agree with... but i shall also say... they also the right not to... so just see how it goes... if they decided not to say anything... may they can still bear with it... and they also have their ways of avoiding it to affect themselves... so why make a fool???? and ruin things that are in a good condition???

i shall also say that... talking behind people's back is not a good thing... but sometimes... there might be a reason behind that... although it may not be strong enough to support but then... sometimes its really better that way... i have experience... that people cannot really handle critisms although they claim they could... in the end... friendships... gone... everything... vanished.... so why pretend as though you could when in the reality you couldnt???? and as a result... break things that arent suppose to be broken???


i stand my views as if i dont like people doing that to me.. i will not do that to others in the first place... like i hate being framed... so at least i will not be framing people for what they have not done.... but however... i never said that i hate people talking about things behind my back... honestly i'm ok with that... ok... maybe i'll be a little uncomfortable... but come on.... who likes to be the topic of gossips??? i'm still ok with it... because the mouth belongs to others... i cant do anything about it... although... due to my very "kepo"-ness... i am always curious about what they have to say about me... well... if i get to know it...

hmm... ok let's make it this way... if its a negative thing... and that person doesnt like it... ok.. i'll try my best not to do that in front of him/her.. but that doesnt mean that i could change overnight and completely stop to be a different person.... maybe others could accept so i could express the way i am to the people who can accept... no harm done....

its hard to change something that has been comfortably set in you... maybe you could avoid.. but its still in you... like how i dont like malaysian cantonese.... i avoid using the term that were only used in malaysia... but my hong kong friends still say i speak in a very malaysian way... what to do??? its with me all the time.... sometimes they'll say... "hey... you now speak less like a malaysian already... welcome to hong kong!!!".... i'll be like "really??!!! oh gosh!!! i didnt realise!! yippee!!"

same theory... different situations... applicable anytime.... anywhere...

however... i believe people talks about other people behind their backs all the time... good or bad.. it's just a part of mingling with other friends... nobody, i believe... nobody don't talk about the people they know behind their backs... of course unless they are dumb.... cant talk isnt a crime after all... being talked about isnt really as bad as some people think it is... in another way... i think maybe because i'm remembered for something... people know me for something... good or bad... hmmm... that's another thing then.... i'm working in the entertainment industry and we need these "gossips" to survive... no gossips... nothing... there's no word of mouth... then... please take out your wallet and pay for the promotion.. thank you very much....

Internship lessons to be learnt

Honestly... how long have i been staring in front of this page???? sheesh... that is what happen when you have the mood to blog but nothing to blog about...

however... i'm still thinking of things to blog... so while i think... i'll just crap along the way... bear with me....
weekends are near!! woohoo.... another week of internship has ended!!!
it was a very empty week... because the pending jobs are all done... no preproduction stuff to rush... no shootings to go... now left are things like VO recordings and other post-production stuff...

this week's bi-weekly report is gonna be really really short... i hope miss june will be happy... after rejecting my reports because they exceeded 3 pages... oh gosh!! what's wrong with having a lot of things to do??? at least i DO have things to do... ok fine... if you wanna tell me doing slides and getting refreshments for clients are things that nobody wants to know... then tell me... what do THEY want to know so that i can DECORATE my report to be exactly the way you want... happy???

well.... i'm very busy when it comes to near-production days... coz now i'm practically in charge of calling the talents... checking their availability and stuff... wuahahhaah... luckily my knowledge about local artiste are still quite up to date... so when people ask me like... "how did she came in the industry??"... "where did she work previously??" and things like that.. i can actually answer... "She's from star search 2003.".... "she used to be a news reader in 8tv." and other stuff... which i doubt others can answer... wahahaha.... i still love malaysia, do i????

after working i just realise how naive i am... its a real world, buddy!!! what do you expect??? people will be taking care of me???? giving me full attention as though i'm a baby???letting me know whatever they are thinking about and everything???? hmmm... i'm just so wrong.... the fragile heart will have to strengthen up beacuse if not... i'm so sorry... you are in the wrong field...

this is a field full of gossips... well... i love gossips... as much as i love "gossip girl"... i dont mind gossiping... because honestly... if you are what you are.... it doesnt affect much....
however... how much as i love to gossip... i'll be doing it as ethical as possible... well i do get the point that gossiping is not something ethical... but i will not add anything more negative to it.... i skip personal stuff... and never dig into them if people are unwilling to share... i keep my eyes as straight as possible... i only say things that i have seen it happen... when people share their experience... it grows... but i'll not make it my own....

all these thing has split me into different characteristics... which in my point of view is necessary in this field...

-you'll have to work even though you dont want to/dont like or just not interested...-
(personal quote)

what have i split into????


an accountant - who keeps track of my expenditure.. making sure nothing goes off my budget... since i'm not really earning yet... this is crucial... because now i know and understand how hard it is to earn.... try to spend the minimum...

a panda - yup... i still have my panda eyes... and yep... i'm still lazy... and no... i dont eat bamboo shoots... but i shoot!!! hahahahah.... (dont get the wrong idea) and to add to that.... i'm getting FATTER!!!!!

a chameleon - i change colors according to situations... my true colors arent shown that often anymore... i find that adapting my perspective and perceptions towards certain situations are actually better than just blindly applying what i believe.... (which sometimes i think is quite foolish, no offence... just for my situation)

a lawyer - as i tend to defend myself whenever things turn out the way they are not suppose to and i couldnt help it, or i have nothing to do with it... just gracefully blur the target of who is responsible... to save yourself...

silverstar - ya... that's my old id.... a star... in silver... why???? because i try to shine on my own but i still need the guidance of light... but then... if you glare hard at me... i reflect even harder on you...

a sudden-health-freak-but-tak-jadi - due to my terrifying weight gain... i decided to be more attentive to my diet and exercise whenever i can (or should i say when i have the mood).. well... it's not working really well but there are results... small but still there are....

hmm... what else??? cant really think of anything now...
i tag the person who has been pestering me to write this post... whahaha... (no lah... didnt really pester... hmm.. how do you say that?? erm... encourage???)


i suddenly miss a lot of things.... sigh~~~~

signing off~~~