as time goes by

How ironic... when put together some of the things and you realised that it's some kind of sign?? My last post was actually just a sudden thought after watching a TV programme.. and i just happen to have that thought during the CNY period... which is not something that should be going on during a traditional festive season... Maybe I should not have take the superstition so lightly... It does have its consequences... I decided to ignore it... and I'll never ever do that again... If I were to choose, I'll not be posting that blog... I'll stay positive the whole entire festive season.. and I'll keep my mind off these unlucky stuff... if it really does make a difference... i'm willing to reverse it..

The emptiness is felt everyday I walk into or out of the office... everytime i sign in or sign out... everytime I walk to the washroom... the gush of emptiness will just shove itself on me... leaving me feeling really heavy... it's not about weight now.. it's about a feeling... pushes your heart down making you hard to breathe but not enough to suffocate... I wonder... is this all planned?? in the hands of god?? He actually intend to make this happen?? or were there other reasons?? how could something so good have to meet something so bad?? it doesn't really make sense.. if it's all planned by Him... Why?? There are so many other candidates out there... why??

Every other thing seems so petty... relationship problems... money... stress... pure dissatisfaction... nothing seems to matter... to worry about such things really seems kinda pathetic to me now...
you loss a boy/girl?? so what?? you still get to see him/her... you have a concrete physically visible person for you to hate and blame for all the depression you are going through... at least, the person is there...
you dont have enough money to buy the thing you always wanted?? what's that to be depressed about?? you're alive and kicking.. go get your own funds... what's there to whine about the unfair-ness in the world that some people can carry stuff that costs more than the total of your earnings of your entire life... so?? is that really important?? you do have the chance to move and get it.. eventhough it's costs time and effort.. at least you could pay that..
stress and pure dissatisfaction?? ok, so it's your finals tomorrow and you have not studied anything yet.. or you're required to get some job done within seconds... well, at least you could feel the stress and the satisfaction if you overcome them... pure dissatisfaction is just sad, go get a life.. the world does not stop for you if you hated your job, your body, your face, your gf/bf, your rival, the person who have a nicer figure than you, a singer that sings like crap and depends solely on looks... there are plenty of things that are more important than to stop and feel negative towards something that maybe doesnt even care...

I do wonder is there a sign?? what makes me write my previous blog post?? is it a wake-up call telling me that if i want to pursue something i should not be sitting down write a list, and leave it there thinking that it's impossible to get them fulfilled.. instead, i should be planning on how to get it done and dealt with.. I'm a natural procrastinator.. i have a whole lot of things that i wanna do but i always keep it till tomorrow... until the time comes... something tells me this kind of attitude is not getting me going anywhere..

almost everybody takes things for granted... anything, anybody will still be there tomorrow... there are times that you might not be that lucky... and things can be too late, you'll regret but nothing's gonna change anything except for what's done is done... and you cant do anything about it... you may say it's not fair and you dont deserve it... but, does all the earthquake victims deserve to die because of the disaster?? does the victims of suicide bombs deserve to die exploded?? what did they do to the bomber?? besides being at the wrong place at the wrong time?? somethings are just meant to be and eventhough you question them, you'll never get the answer you wanted or expected or want to hear..

i miss the smile that greets me every now and then in the office.. i miss the company.. the constant company when I stay back late to get my work done... the voice that wishes me happy holidays before the celebration... all these seems minor but you'll realise that it really means a lot after it's gone...

I hope you're in a better place now, enjoying every bit...


Signing off...
may you rest in peace... Ernest Ong... you're a good friend and a fantastic colleague to work with.. you're the only person who colour italics so that it's more obvious... I'll miss you always... Goodbye..

What do you want to do before you die??

Okay, I know it's still within the Chinese New Year celebration season and Valentine's has just past, It's not a time to be talking about such an "unlucky" topic.. Well, superstitions say if you mention the "d" word during Chinese New Year, you'll "suay whole year a!!!" means you'll not have good luck for the rest of the year... But then, that's a topic that came into my mind.. If I don't write it down I forget about it after a while and it'll go to waste.. No use tampering with the date of post because I did think of this during Chinese New Year and I'm typing this during the celebration, so no use changing it because... It's there lah.. ish...

I have been watching this TV show called "The Buried Life" talking about a few guys who didn't want to follow the typical stuff in life made a list of what they want to do and achieve before they die and went on performing them one by one, crossing them off the very long list... Those are mostly kinda impossible things, such as "a date with Megan Fox" (Obviously that failed, as she is fully armed with guards and well-protected by her manager), "attend a party at the Playboy Mansion" (This was successful.. and I didn't the Mansion had such tight security, even Christiano Ronaldo couldn't get in), "Play ball with President Obama" (Apparently Obama is a VERY BUSY person... so this wasn't successful either but i think they manage to have a game with him after that episode), "Help deliver a baby" (this one went great..).. Ok, I can't remember every single episode.. just go and google to find out more... But the best thing about this show is that when they are getting something off their list, they'll help a stranger to fulfill what they wanna do before they die and as far as i remember it, they manage to get all of them fulfilled...

After watching this I have been thinking.. What do I want to do before I die?? Currently, my only goals are traveling to a whole lot of places.. I never thought that actually like to travel but going places is what that came into my mind while i was thinking about my list... besides that, is to go study overseas (travelling again... somehow it counts as travelling.. since i'm going somewhere), and then is to get a writing job or get recognise as a writer...

That's about it.. That's not a lot.. maybe it's a good thing meaning i have achieve most of what i want in life... or I actually don't know what do I wanna achieve in life.. the latter sounds kinda sad... that better not be me...

i'll still be thinking about my list.. and why not you think about it too... take a time off your work or studies to do something crazy that you've always wanted to do.. the feeling of satisfaction after it's done is indescribable... well, i'm imagining it.. as i haven't cross out anything on my list yet..

In a quest to cross out stuff on my list..

Signing off~~
Toodles

CNY (change of resolutions)

Happy Chinese New Year!!! It's the Eighth Day of the festival, everybody is still well and running...
My CNY celebrations are similar to the previous years... relative visiting here and there... off the Johor... more visiting... watch TV... eat.. and that's almost it... Well, what do you expect?? CNY is a celebration when relatives, friends and family get together ain't it??

Speaking about TV... The thing i love most about CNY, besides the reunion-get-together part is the TV programs.. When my VCR was still working, I'll usually be recording a whole lot of them so that i can watch them over and over again during the year... But now, it's not working.. and I couldn't stand the faces of the Sony people when I send it for repair.. Honestly, what is wrong with wanting a VCR to get fixed?? It's old fashion, yes.. I know, so what?? People in the advance countries like US and Japan still uses those you know... It's very useful if you ask me...

Back to my title.. I have been thinking and I guess I'm having too much in my mind and I'm going nowhere with any of that.. yet... (I have not started my korean classes just yet)
I've always wanted to go overseas and stay there for a while not really for travelling purposes but to live a in a different place and lead a different life from the one back at home... I'm not too confident that I will be able to get a job overseas... So my next best thing is to study.. although I don't really fancy studying but I dont mind if I had the chance to..

So, one of my New year resolution is to go to Singapore this year.. but I guess i'll have to cancel that and start saving for something bigger tomorrow.. maybe celebrate my birthday at a different place.. other than home.. a different state or maybe a different country... It's the year of the dragon next year.. I have gone through 2 full cycles of the chinese zodiac years in my life.. and that's something special that's worth a celebration.. besides, I need some excitement to stop me from feeling old as I'm aging all the way and i'm getting really pessimistic about that.. something like that may be able to cheer me up... my dull life is leaving me realising that i have not done much in my life.. somehow wasting my years with nothing much to remember..

should I go travel, backpack alone?? that is really exciting... but i'm kinda scared about that... i have been trying to do things alone nowadays.. like going shopping alone.. going to a concert alone (soon.. i'll blog about that if i have the mood).. eat out alone.. and some other things that i may be trying out soon.. alone... so i'm still considering...

if i manage to save enough funds... i'll be going off overseas, to stay for a year or so and living alone.. i should be getting use to that... i was kinda desperate for a company but it seems not many(actually, there's none) of my friends are interested, but now to me, it's kinda pathetic.. so i'll be living up by myself from now on.. i dont really need company everytime i want to do something...

oh well... hope it goes off well..
and still... Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!


Signing off!!
toodles..

twelve plus one equals thirteen..

Well... the current big Hoo-haa besides Thaipusam and American Idol, the thirteenth zodiac.. horoscope.. star sign.. whatever you call it.. the Ophiuchus... how do you pronouce this anyway?? os-fiu-choos?? well.. again.. it's not really my concern as far as the dates and horoscope thingy changes.. my horoscope will not be this os-fiu-choos thing.. so i wouldnt have to care how to pronounce it..

well.. if you are still seeing stars, question marks, fogs aka blur about what i have to say here.. i'll have to say.. stick your face onto a book.. there's like tons of posts, status, notes.. whatever you can post on stick-your-face-onto-a-book (aka Facebook la.. in case you are not in the same direction as i am.. just have to give it in your face!! then I throw you a book.. wahahaha... ok, enough of these faces and books.. back to the story) almost everybody has been posting, announcing, broadcasting, grumbling, moaning about the change of horoscopes because a certain 13th horoscope has been found..

to know more about this.. http://www.coffetoday.com/the-thirteenth-zodiac/908672/
that's one of the website to go.. or else.. go google la.. 13th horoscope or something..

What do I have to say about this?? Not much.. just the fact that I'm split into 2 horoscopes makes the whole thing a lot more fun... have you notice that there's a repitition of the last date and the first date of 2 consecutive horoscopes?? which means people who were born on these dates belongs to 2 horoscopes.. ain't that interesting??

I admit that i do like to read up about horoscopes and fotune telling stuff just for the fun of it and to testify it's accurate-ness... so as long as i still have something to refer to.. i dont mind being in 1, 2, 3 or even 4 horoscopes..


here are the dates and changes.. help yourselves..


- Capricorn : 20 January – 16 February
- Aquarius : 16 February – 11 March
- Pisces: 11 March – 18 April
- Aries: 18 April – 13 May
- Taurus: 13 May – 21 June
- Gemini: 21 June – 20 July
- Cancer: 20 July – 10 August
- Leo: 10 August – 16 September
- Virgo: 16 September – 30 October
- Libra: 30 October – 23 November
- Scorpio: 23 November – 29 November
-Ophiuchus: 29 November – 17 December
- Sagittarius: 17 December – 20 January


this post is kinda meaningless besides spreading the hoo-ha about the horoscope.. and also to bring back my blog-updating mood so that this place will not be neglected too often..


that's all i have to say...
signing off~~
Toodles

On the way with my resolution 2011.. Yay!

Here I am again... for a random update... Speaking about New year resolutions.. I kept mine moving.. earlier than i have planned.. but it's a good thing.. i guess.. I have registered with my former Korean teacher from when I was attending classes in UTAR.. I'm planning to start either around March or April.. After I'm settled with my finances first... Since I have started working, which will also mean that I'm paying my own fees.. and obviously, the fee for learning a language is not cheap.. especially when you lose your student identity... everything is always more expensive for the working people.. I wonder why???

With the cost of everything increasing since the start of the year... new year, new price as they say.. the only thing that keeps to its stable horizontal line is the amount I'm earning... Coz I'm still new.. I'm not entitle for an increment... yet... tough~~

I have already booked a place with my former and soon-to-be Korean seon seng nim... without doing any research on other language centres offering the service that I am currently looking for.. well, there might be cheaper place which I will regret not finding it first.. or places that does not require me to travel too much and it may also be cheaper which i might be banging my head against the wall five times behind everybody's back after knowing about that.... but... just something to comfort myself for the above situations so that I wont suffer from severe internal bleeding is that since this teacher has taught me before.. she'll know my level and my learning habits so i would be able to pick it back up faster than those who treat me as a new student and unaware of my basics and how much I've learnt previously.. they might be teaching me repititive stuff and might waste my time and money.. so, with somebody who knows where I stopped, I'll be learning something new everytime...
Hopefully those are enough to comfort me if i accidentally found somewhere else that offers the same thing with a cheaper price and a nearer place... i's better go wrap my walls with sponge first.. hehe...

besides that.. i'm now considering about taking the official korean language exam.. TOPIK.. exams are so not me.. I hate exams.. i always stick to the theory where when exams exists.. the student will never be truely passionate about what he or she is learning.. their sole focus will be to ace the exams and not really on mastering the knowledge of the subject itself.. at least that's something i've gone through.. in the end, it's all about exams and i might end up forgetting more than half of it after i step out of the exam hall.. kinda wasted, ain't it?? however, people have been telling me that if i don't take the exam, i'll never be recognised as somebody who knows the language as i have nothing to prove.. no certs or result slips to show how good am i in the language... well.. that carries a point too... cause if i'm really interested in languages and writing, wanting to pursue a career with both of those in my pocket, i should be getting recognition.. getting my writing complete is something that i have said for like a gazillion times and till now i still can't manage to complete them... and besides that, i should be going for exams and get myself some certs to prove that i know the language..

so now, i have started stepping out to get recognitions for Korean.. i think i should be doing something with my japanese as well.. i have my textbooks around.. but i dont really have a tutor to guide.. yeah.. i still have my former japanese tutor's number but i doubt he still remember me.. and i don't think he gives private lessons or something like that.. i do have the materials i think i need.. i have the books.. all i'm left is some coaching.. but that can wait.. until i got my cert for korean first.. one at a time...

before i start attending classes.. it's time to refresh and give my memory a jolt... i have forgot more than half of my vocabulary and grammar.. and work on my listening if i'm serious about taking exams.. i really have bad hearing.. and listening tests is my nightmare.. base on my past listening test experience for japanese.. i think you can find something about it in one of my posts during 2007.. i think.. if you're interested.. i dread listening tests...

okay.. enough blabbing.. it's actually 1am.. and i should be in my bed dreaming about the good-looking korean artiste... male ones.. of course.. hehe.. i always thought choi siwon is kinda cute.. hehehe...



expecting a photo???
sorry to disappoint you..
i'm too lazy to run a google search..
and no.. i don't have his photos stored in my "my pictures" folder..
also... i'm lazy to upload.. or more accurately.. i'm lazy to wait for it to upload although i don't mind blabbing about my laziness...


signing off~~

Toodles!!

Ermmm.. Taiwan trip 1 (June-July2010)

A week has past since the start of year 2011... Here I am again.. To be honest, I actually don't have a single clue about what to update here..

well... after almost half an hour of leaving this page.. I decided to post the most awaited Taiwan trip post.. day 1...

stick around yo while i upload the photos...

I forgot what time was the flight but i remember it was during the morning.. so i reach LCCT at around 7am.. When I walked into the airport, I coincidentally bump into my cousin brother, it appears that he's going on a company trip to Bali... Small world.. It seems that I'm the earliest among the group so I stood aimlessly waiting for the rest to show up until I heard someone calling my name.. and it happens to be another cousin brother who lives in Kota Bharu.. I haven't met him for years, and he still recognises me.. Hehehehe.. he's joining my cousin(mentioned before) for the company trip...

alright.. done with me family reunion stuff.. here's some photos..

on the way to board the plane to Taoyuan airport...



There's nothing much about the journey.. so i'll fast forward... we've now reach Taoyuan airport..


Ok.. I know it seems the same.. but that's 2 different airports in 2 different countries.. Tell me, which airport does not have escalators??


this is our room when we were staying in Taipei



kinda cosy... not bad~~ hehe..

alright.. our first stop.. Danshui... first meal.. Danshui a-gei..



a stroll along the roads of Danshui..



and we witness our first night scene at Taiwan..



After Danshui, we head back to Jiantan (where we were staying) and went to Shihlin night market...



quite a popular place in Taipei...

one of the shops was having a sale.. and of course, that caught our attention...

don't doubt.. this is what we bought... heheh..

before heading back to our place.. we bought dinner...



This is my absolute favourite... cheese potato!! yummmm....

so that wraps up our first day..
and I know it's very absolutely short.. with a very minimal number of photos... well, I'm not that good in describing stuff in english so i kept the whole post as simple as possible.. and the photos.. it takes time to upload and i'm rushing off for dinner.. so just bear with it..

until we have the next post...

Signing off~~~
Toodles

Belated New Year post

It's the third day of the year already... and i haven't post anything up yet.. Better get something on here first.. being neglected in the new year is not a good thing... even for a blog..

There's actually another post in my drafts waiting to be posted.. just that i haven't got the photos uploaded into my computer so it's still lying in my drafts waiting for this one fine day where it could see the daylight.. Yeah.. i admit that i'm very lazy when it comes to uploading photos.. which is why my taiwan trip post that i have promised is not up yet..

alright.. let's get on with the typical new year post.. what shall I be writing about?? what else?? new year resolutons.. before i start blabbing about some dreams that i might not be able to achieve.. let's check if i have set any resolutions for the past year... hold on yo!!

alright.. it turns out that I only have 2 new year resolutions for 2010 (after summarising)..
first.. graduate with first class honours..
gosh!! this will be my worst nightmare.. not only that i'm not anywhere near it.. I can only settle with the majority of second class upper.. there goes my hopes of applying scholarships and stuff.. sigh~~

second.. find a decent job after graduation..
Ooo.. this is much better.. although i have been through a series of job hopping experience.. but i finally settled in a decent place, having a job that i think i'll be able to settle in for 2 years before heading off for my masters degreee..

So, will i be making any more new year resolutions for 2011?? maybe.. give me a few minutes to think..
alright..
first and foremost.. I wanna go for another oversea trip.. I'm actually planning to go to Singapore as it is nearer and I might be able to save some of the hotel expenditure as i have relatives staying there.. and there's not only one.. besides, I wanna have a look around Universal Studios.. I heard that it's kinda pricey.. so I'm still saving for it.. hopefully, I could secure my funds..

secondly, continue learning either japanese or korean.. I feel it's kinda wasted being left as it is.. I haven't decide which to continue yet though.. mast probably it will be korean as I'm still in touch with my korean seon seng nim.. we'll see how it goes..

thirdly, ermm... I was stuck here for 5 whole minutes (playing with country story at the same time).. so I assume i have no more ideas for resolutions for now.. i'll update if I suddenly thought of any..

Okay... That's all for now..

Signing off~~
Toodles!

Time for December

Right... I'm back for my once-a-month update... It's the last month of the year 2010... How time flies.. during the beginning of this year, I was worrying about being jobless after graduation.. It seems like... Ok.. It's kinda long ago... just it doesn't seem like 11 months ago.. maybe like 6 months?? it feels like it though.. oo.. cut the crap~~ in a nutshell, i'm just in denial in the aging process...

December is suppose to be the cold month with warms hearts... as Christmas is near.. jingle bells, snowflakes, feasts, get-together and presents!!!! I never really celebrated Christmas... I'll usually tag along when my friends are celebrating... never really had to mood on my own.. So, what's going on this year?? I'm not that sure yet... hopefully, it'll be fun... even if it involves staying at home watching TV programmes aired by the channel in line with the festive season.. there can still be fun..

This marks almost the end of the year 2010... and to summarise what have i done during the whole year... you can find those events in my previous posts... well.. I never post anything that I wouldn't wanna share.. so feel free to browse around for the history of my life... hmm.. this sounds good.. I should definitely add it in my profile...
Let's see... I had my very last semester in university... sit for my very last final exam (hopefully it's my last..).. then I started work on the very next week after my finals.. guessing that i'm one of the earliest people to start working in my batch... had my moments during that time.. it was fun.. ups and downs... but it's a great experience in my life.. had a bunch of new friends along the way... then i came to the part where i had some, lose some, had it again and lost it without even knowing it... Oh, not forgetting my trip to Taiwan... I haven't been updating about it here.. the delay was due to the unorganised photos... Now i have them organised.. so i guess it'll be up sooner or later.. and then.. a round of roller coaster ride emotionally.. i landed on to my current job.. which I am adapting pretty well and quite happy with what i have..
these are the bigger stuff happening about me throughout the year.. for other smaller stuff.. i might have forgotten them already.. i myself need to check back my posts...

alright... I guess i'm done for now... hopefully to get another post up again before the year ends..



signing off~~
Toodles!

DeePOWraya

I found some photos of our DeePOWraya(22 Oct) celebration in the company's common drive.. so I might as well grab some to share.. first, let me explain the meaning of DeePOWraya... Deepavali(which is the coming festival) POWerful(the main force of the celebration) Hari raya(the previous celebration that took place not long ago~~)






check out the food... catering from big rajah... sluuurp... yummy~~







After filling our stomach... there was a sketch from the Australia and North Asia teams.. They were imitating Petronas Commercials.. Hilarious and very entertaining...

North Asia... the balik kampung petronas commercial...








Australia B, a very significant deepavali commercial... the muthusamy and grandma








Then, we have the inter-teams Kolam competition... our design were prepared a day before.. and this is my very first time doing a Kolam... and, it's really hard~~~ wooo...




Team member explaining the meaning of our Kolam... reminds me of impromptu presentation.. really miss those.. hahah...




Our end product.. although we didn't win.. but it was fun altogether...


Alright... that's all folks..

Signing off~~
toodles!

FoooooD

I know i have not been posting blogs with photos for a very very long time.. so here's a treat.. 2 consecutive posts with photos... Well.. thanks to some photographers, I have some photos to share about the Regional Open house at my company during the Raya season... (29 of September, i think)


A small celebration by the Asia teams in my company...



Check out the food!!!

Each and every team member contributed something.. which fills the tables.. a few tables were lined up to fit all these food...



Let's dig in!!







The teams having rounds of charade... and the good news is.. our team won!! yipppeee yay yay!! well, the operations team won.. actually... but because they were our invited guest so they pass the prize to the first runner up... which is us... hehe.. and no, we did not pass it out... it's for us..




Well... i guess that's all folks!!

Signing off..
Toodles!!

Baby.. baby.. baby Oooh~~~ (I don't wanna grow up)

When I say grow up, I mean my age... It's a pain to the number increases every year marking how long have I exist here... However, I wouldn't wanna turn back time or something, I'm not thrilled about going back to my school days... I just don't want the numbers of my age to add, it can stay the way as it is now.. I'm very happy with it..

I have always want to scram off school exams and assignments to step into the working world... earning my own pay cheque.. which is why I always want my study years to be short as possible.. which explains my devastation when i screwed up my PTS... i skipped form 6, a-levels and any other pre U programmes that require more than 1 year..

Now I have started working, I am one of the youngest.... as like I have mentioned that my university years is shorter than the typical STPM route which most of my colleagues took.. I am currently the youngest in my team which I'm enjoying... knowing that i have exceeded certain expectations where people would usually judge someone who have just graduated fresh out of university with zero experience in the society... Although I don't have much experience, being in the production field has really speed things up for me.. I have seen all kinds of people and been at work at all hours you can find on the clock... I will grow old in super speed if i stayed in production full time for another 2 years...

So, I'm really enjoying the attention as the youngest, i guess that's because i have been the eldest in the family ever since I was born, being the youngest seem like a new experience, something that i hardly get the chance to try... For my next birthday, i'll wish that my age will stop increasing and the aging process will be irrelevant in my life... weee...

I feel old everytime somebody tell me his/her age that is younger than me... that includes the time when I was a volunteer at the Youth 10 Festival where everybody are schooling kids, mostly in university or just started pre-U.. i was the only one graduated.. I felt old and separated from the group even though some of us were like a year or two apart...

maybe, being young is just an excuse for my kiddy and childish behaviour like constantly hugging my teddy bear or other plushies on my desk during work... And being super happy when a colleague who is going for maternity leave offer me to adopt her Jack-Jack for 3 months.. I was super thrilled for the whole day...



Guess which is mine...




With a guest around... the others will certainly grab the chance to take photos.. especially when it looks exactly like Mo JackJackJack...









We call him Guest Jack..


Aren't they cute??



Signing off~~
Toodles!!

WK

My summary of my days in Wolters Kluwer.. 10 stuffs about them~~

*I'm kinda addicted to this 10 points thing.. i think its a great way to keep me writing.. hehe..

Let's move on with it....

1. I have a big cubicle, a U-shape desk with 3 bears(mine); 2 pencil holder with 4 pens, stick on notes, 2 pencils, liquid paper, 4 highlighters, a ruler; a 3-tier tray, a pc, a file with my training notes; a few binders and books... and i'm very happy with it.. a lot of space.. hehe..

2. I have a nice team, with great team mates around to guide me and an understanding team leader (when I was so stressed out with the indexer.. she said to transfer him/her to my team leader, she'll help me handle him/her.. nice!!)

3. Nice and funny colleagues around.. and go to lunch with... although I'm the youngest but there's no gap.. so i guess i'll have to admit that i have an old heart... Sigh~~

4. a great pantry, with unlimited supply of coffee, teh tarik, hot chocolate... hehe.. and biscuits for snacks.. and it's just opposite my cubicle.. just a few steps away.. weeee...

5. my office is situated in a very quiet place in cyberjaya.. super quiet!! same applies to the environment in the office.. It's like a library... the sounds you hear are tapping on the keyboard, footsteps, the coffee machine, the water dispenser and random whispers..

6. I have started on my products.. so far ok but i still need to refer to notes and seniors...

7. we had fun and happening celebrations... Hari raya open house (team members pot-luck and brought food.. we eat and play games, our team manage to win rm100 in the charade!!） Deepowraya celebration (there were sketches imitating petronas ads, food!! the caterer was great! yummylicious!! and a kolam competition among teams.. my first time doing a Kolam.. it's very hard and fun!! although we didn't win..)

8. I get to arrange my shifts... hehe.. as long as i reach the office before 10am... which is very nice.. hehe

9. we have team activities every now and then... last week, we went for satay session at putrajaya..

10. last but not least, i kinda enjoy working here.. the job, the environment, the people are all kinda nice.. hehe..



alright.. that's all for now..
I'll see ya'll when i see ya!!

signing off...
Toodles!!

random, to tell...

10 random facts about my life, today..

1. this morning, i didn't wanna wake up because it was raining

2. the kuih bingka or bengka, however it is spelt is so filling that i could not finish my hot chocolate

3. i had an induction session with my production manager, we had this game about random truths and lies.. how random

4. i drove half of my team to putrajaya today for team lunch -- satay

5. i went to taman warisan pertanian and honestly when i first heard of the destination, it sounds like we are going for a field trip aka lawatan sambil belajar

6. i was chased up the wall by my indexer

7. i forgot to bring a plushie to work

8. i changed my login name and password on my office's pc, and change it back again

9. i chat with a random girl from taiwan through my yahoo messenger yesterday and added her on facebook

10. it's my mommy's birthday

come to think of it.. i think this could be a great way from me to constantly update my blog.. 10 random facts, everyday..  or i'll just note them in my journal...

hmmm.. I'm getting my stationery tomorrow!! Yippee.. no more borrowing liquid paper from my team leader.. hehe...


signing off (i almost typed sighing off.. a small typo makes a big difference)
toodles..

iyammaveryboreingpersonn...

HI!! Just somehow in the mood of writing something.. so here I am... after 1 month in my current company.. i have got to know some of my colleagues pretty well... by listening to their conversations during lunchtime and some sharing.. I think i'm one of the youngest in the group... but i seriously think i look old.. Sigh~~

They have been asking that why did i switch my field from an exciting, happening broadcast tv production field to a boring, routine-ed publishing field?? "it's just routine work, doing the same thing everyday, you'll get bored easily..." Why did you come here?? tv production must be a better and fun environment to be spending your young and carefree days (which i think they mean know, judging on their reaction when they knew my age)".. I know.. i am totally aware of what i am currently signing up for... i know it's gonna be routine work.. i understand that it'll be a 7.5hr job during the weekdays, sitting in the office for 7.5hrs a day, without having to travel.. the furthest i have to walk is from my desk to the cafe which is situated downstairs and at the end of the floor but I dont go there frequently..

the course i studied for my degree is not destined for a 9-5 office job... people enroll to that course for the one main reason is to escape from getting into a 9-5 office job... so what am i doing?? as i have said in the previous post... tv production?? been there, done that... 4 months of internship and 3 months of "part-time" employment is enough for me to see where will i head to if i continue sinking myself into the industry... yes, i like production work... but the things that i like is to be handling the casts and supervising the script (which i hope is written by me), and maybe be in charge of the wardrobe.. that's all i guess.. i don't enjoy experimenting camera angles and lighting, i dont have the interest in arranging the props and trying to make them all look nice on the screen, i dont have the patience to see one thing shot over and over and over and over just to get the perfect shot... and last but not least, i don't like to hang around and act busy because honestly sometimes i have nothing to do on shoot... so i guess i am not that into production after all... the things that i enjoy is lesser than the things that i don't... so since i'm "young and carefree".. i guess i should try my other options and venture into other fields or industry.. like my second choice, the journalism, publishing field.. which i am trying out now..

i know it'll not be as happening and exciting as tv production... all i have is words and more word documents to accompany my hours.. however, i do admit... i'm not a happening and always-seeking-for-excitement person.. i dont plan my weekends.. i prefer staying at home with my tv or computer... i do take annual leaves for nothing (ok, the main reason is to clear them so that they wont go to waste)... i don't mind staying at home 24/7, i have my own ways of entertainment at home.. people will ask, why waste your time going home early?? don't you have any after work programmes?? honestly, no.. i hardly have any.. so a boring job for a boring person is just a match from heaven... they go together perfectly..

if you ask me, do i miss my old life in tv production.. well, yes, i do.. for the things mentioned above, handling casts, wardrobe and scripts... the rest... i can do without them... which is also why i now keep a journal with me.. ok, it's acts as a notebook as well (since i really can't use my pretty journal collection), my yearly organiser... i need to have something to write on.. my blogs are getting more and more exposed to people that i don't want them wandering around about my life... a personal journal works for me then... i could even jot down inspirations... if only i could draw... then it'll be lovely and more interesting instead of dull single-colored writings... but anyway, that also shows how boring am i...

how long have i been spending writing this post??


signing off~~
toodles

my life as a hoarder..

I said my post will be at a monthly basis so here I am now.. doing what I've said i'll do...

My current life is filled with work.. ever since my previous post which I have mention that i'm fitting into my new position.. now, my training is over and I'll be getting my very first product next Friday.. woohoo!! Malaysia Employer's Handbook.. a Top ten product man!! a newbie's first product is a top ten!! stress... hopefully I won't screw up..

I'm now helping my team mates with their product.. for one, i'm getting a hand of what to do.. and then, i have them to check for me after I'm done.. which is a very good thing because i'm not at all confident with what i am doing... hopefully I did not screw up a lot.. wooo.. so nervous about my first product.. I'll first have to be certain about what i have to do when i get a product.. hopefully the 101 briefing on monday will fill me with those details..

after the updates of my life.. let's start on the topic for this post.. i talked about self narcissism during the last post.. this time i'll like to talk about hoarders.. accumulating stuff for an unknown future use.. which also means for no particular reason.. accumulating for the sake of keeping... well.. some things may seem like rubbish to one but a treasure to another.. although i do belong to the category of a hoarder but i do have my arguments.. maybe they might sound the same as any other hoarders out there.. but still.. those are valid reasons..

you keep the plastic wrapper of your favourite toy.. rubbish?? how can it be?? you'll never know you might need to wrap the toy back again or maybe there's something else that needs wrapping and the size happens to fit!!

you keep your old textbooks.. not for the sake of revising (there might be times that you MIGHT, i said might need to revise your moral textbook), i have other reasons for those.. i'm keeping them around for the sake of the pictures inside.. as moral textbooks will always have pictures.. those are for future picture assignments.. since i'm not good in drawing.. i could cut and paste those picture that matches my need of the assignment.. isnt that a good reason??

i keep my old worn out clothes around because i might need them for the cloth and stuff.. as there are a lot of D.I.Y articles everywhere.. these old clothes may come in handy when you need cloths or buttons and other accessories on the clothing.. It's useful to have it around just in case...

as for my old toys.. for the sake of remembrance.. a sign of my childhood.. i love them a lot.. as each and every one of them have a different story within it... that's priceless, you know...

since i like to accumulate things.. and therefore i have a lot of things.. sigh~~ but i just couldnt bear seeing them end up in the trash.. or anywhere else out of my sight... all of them mean something to me... even a piece of paper have its value..

i have been trying to get rid of this habit.. i persuaded myself that old magazines will not have any use in the future.. and sold them all to the old newspaper man.. after a period of reluctance, that is.. i am still trying.. i can still keep stuff around, i guess.. i just have to organise them..

well, that's me as a hoarder.. i admit that i am one.. i dont need you telling me how serious is my condition and need to start throwing stuff away.. i'm completely aware of that.. but i still can't throw it off.. not yet...



signing off~~

my way of self narcissism

First post of the month... I have switch my blogging mode to a monthly basis... so my first post might also be my last post... depending on my mood... i might sneak up and update during my office hours, hehehe...

updates... updates... i'm fitting into my new job... as a production editor.. which has nothing to do with tv production... weee.... i have change my path to journalism/publishing... people will be wondering.. i have a major in broadcasting... supposedly i should be in some tv station or production house doing things that appears on tv... well... been there done that... so i think that's enough... I'm not that into tv production.. I just like to write stories.. that, i can treat it as a hobby... this is when my blogs come in handy.. a platform for my writings... in the meantime... i can deal with that...

that's all about my job... nothing much has been happening in my life... it's a fact that i lead a very non-happening aka boring life.. sticking myself at home like the female version of otaku, except i watch tv series and variety shows instead of anime.. read novels and magazines instead of manga... facebook instead of online chat forum..

oh... that reminds me.. i've read something about online narcissism somewhere (cleo, to be specific)... something that i have never myself would be... i am actually an online narcissist.. hahaha... because i make full use of my twitter.. happily posting random updates since it's just a sentence... besides that, the facebook status thing also serves the same purpose... always posting mysterious (which also means half-way-hanging-or-emo-stuff-with-the-purpose-of-people-commenting-to-ask for-further-information) status... i'm usually very "kepo".. so i always ask when i see these "mysterious" posts... sigh~~ my nature is to be "kepo"... what to do?? but i would usually be posting stuff that i want to remember.. in case when there is a time that i would want to check back.. i more of the too much information (TMI) person.. who post stuff that people would not want to know.. instance...

status posts (pov of reader)
i'm starting work tomorrow (so??)
the smell of rendang from the kitchen is making me hungry (erm.. why do i have to know that?? it's not me who is making you hungry...)
no money~~ (then?? not that i'm gonna give you any..)
i'm in dilemma <-- this has been quite a frequent phrase (what does that have to do with me??)

there's more from where it came from.. but these are just some examples... just to let you know, we are all falling into the category of self narcissism online... in order to prevent that... delete your twitter account and dont post any status updates...

for me, i'll just accept the fact... everybody wants attention, i guess.. that is why people are sharing their lives on the internet through facebook, twitter and even blogs... i think it's the "in" thing now... so we are actually "in"!!! wahahahaha...

and i guess.. that's the of my post for today... thank you very much and have a nice day~~


signing off~~

a short update..

It has been a month or so since I last wrote a blog post.. Now, i'm back to share a fraction of my life.. Another blog post for the month then... I just realise that i have posting blogs once a month.. i guess that should be enough to keep my blog activated..

after a few rounds of job search, i realise that i have not really have much writing works to show.. here's when my blogs became handy... luckily i have been writing quite frequently in the past and enough for people to see my writings by browsing around here..

writing is something i like to do... it will be good to have it as a job.. but after rounds of job search.. to have something you like as your job does not only require passion... there's other factors included as well.. so for now, although i don't have a writing job but i'll still be writing and make sure i have finished works to show when those are required...

thats all folks..
signing off~~

Me, myself as a student (part2)

I know it has been a long time.. my excuses are still the same.. busy and lazy... oh.. and no mood.. well, you need to have to mood to do things... that is why i am not sleeping now (it's 1.00am, fyi) and sitting in front of my desktop typing myself out...

Where did i stop?? ah, yes... I believe i ended at the end of my secondary years.. which turns into a new phase of study.. a totally different environment, known as the university.. I started my university life with foundation.. An exciting start to begin with... as it is completely different from my previous schooling days.. A fun year to start my university life.. although I did not really get to enjoy a campus life but at least then friends part did help replace that... life was happening back then when there were times we race off to the nearest shopping mall for lunch during our 3 hour break.. and even had k-session during our 4 hour break... don't ask me about the long breaks.. i really dont know why were they so long... anyway.. it's a really exciting experience for somebody who just reached 18..

Then, after my foundation years came to an end... my degree years starts... into a course that i was really looking forward to.. i started ok, my exam results, i mean... and then it went down every time... well, that's not something nice to mark my degree life.. so let's just let it go with this brief introduction... moving to another topic.. it's a bunch of nice coursemates that actually adds in the spices of my degree years.. it was not always happy, carefree, lovey-dovey... there were conflicts, arguments, disagreements and many other negative stuff... but in the end, i guess... we are still a class to hang together with.. besides these, the hanging out part and not forgetting the outings for assignments part are really memorable... during the time when we are free from classes, we'll be out at shopping malls, karaoke, steamboat-ing, traveling... etc... all of us have a gang we belong to.. 616... BFFs?? Nah!! it's just a childish way Paris Hilton use to categorize her friends.. She even have a reality show for it!! a reality show to be a BFF?? what the hell does BFF means to you anyway?? to me, a friend is a friend.. the level of "best-ness" differs but however so, their category as a friend will not change... so, we are friends and hopefully it will last forever... yeah!!
Our friendship could be seen through my previous posts of our outings... it's a bond that not a simple combination of alphabets can just represent.. it's kinda hard to put it in words if you ask me.. so just see for yourself (take a peek at my previous posts if you have time)

I'm almost done here.. I know its much much shorter than my previous one.. but my university life is more less recorded in my blog so i guess there is no point for me to repeat and summarise them here.. those who have been following my blog will know and those who have not, feel free to check them out if you have the time..


that's all folks!!
Signing Off~~~

Happy Pappa Day!!

I know I wrote a long post for Mami's day... so now, to be fair.. i should a least have a post about my dedi... my pappa has always been, my atm card, my driver, my teddy bear (yep, he's huggable..), my sos call recipient (the person I will call when i have emergencies)... and many others which i can't think of at the time being...

Well, my pappa has always been there for me whenever i need a driver... as i have always said.. my sense of direction could easily flow down the drain.. My life has only been with Federal Highway and LDP... other places.. go at your own risk.. because i have a huge possibility of getting lost on the way... so here's when my pappa will come and save the day... he'll usually be around if he can to take me to places that i have no idea where in the world it is... He'll always try his best to be around when I need a driver... He's the reason why i'm not familiar with the local public transport... I personally think it is not a bad thing... the buses around here is unpredictable..

Pappa is an engineer.. So i can conclude that he's a science and maths person... he's my occasional tutor for my geography, physics, chemistry, add maths... and all those non-language subjects... the first thing he always say when i ask him a question is, " This is very simple.." Oh... easy for you to say... how can it be simple if i'm having problems with it?? Besides, i'm different from the family.. which is super weird.. My mami and pappa are more towards science and maths while i'm a language person... however, my pappa never stop me or try to "convert" me into a scince and maths person.. he lets me go on and i'm free to choose what i want.. as long as he is sure that i like it..

As for my atm card... i believe this applies to almost everybody... i usually get what i want... From CDs, watches, handphones and many other stuff... he will usually get it for me as long as it is affordable... hehe...

When i'm in trouble or anything that i couldn't handle.. the first person i will be calling is my pappa... especially since i started driving... when my car gets cranky, call pappa... when i have a flat tyre, call pappa... when i  meet an accident, call pappa... when i'm lost somewhere, call pappa... Oh, this depends.. if it's work then it'll not be pappa.. it'll be my colleague.. hehe... Pappa is my savior..

well... he brings me along during his company trips.. to China, to Hong Kong... and once, i almost get to go to Japan before my semester reopens right on the date of departure.. DANG!!! It's quite fun going out with pappa.. I have more freedom... and i don't have to rush over everything... hehe...

in a nutshell... my pappa is still the best pappa anybody could every have... Love ya, pappa!!
HAPPY PAPPA'S DAY!!! (ok, fine... Happy Father's Day to all the pappas aka fathers out there...)



Signing off~~

The last day of my student card

Today marks the last active day of my university student card... so that officially means, after today i am no longer a student.. Although there are several "sequels" to my previous blog posts but I'll continue them later..

This post is mainly to mark the end of my student card... which means i no longer qualify to enjoy the benefits as a student.. student discounts, student promotions, student price and stuff... so from now on, i'll have to depend on my working salary instead of student allowance... judging on the amount i'm earning now.. i should keep my eyes off ebay and shoppings malls.. especially now, as i am still saving for my taiwan trip.. living off without weekly allowance feels weird as i have to feed myself and use my own savings since i have not received my first paycheque yet..

I don't know why i have this crazy thought to continue at the company i'm now working in after my taiwan trip.. that is, IF i did not manage to get another job i might switch to be a permanent.. How crazy is that?? after seeing people coming and leaving like the river flow.. How did i end up with such thought?? Really...

My working days has started a week already... so far so good.. Not much frustrations yet.. hopefully there won't be for the whole month... as i am still considered as a temporary.. i am allowed to leave anytime.. hehe....

good-bye student card... embracing my working life... the expiration of the student equals to the evaporation of assignments, exams, cgpa, and marks... until now, for me... it still sounds like a good thing... yippee for now...

A little something from my current life

Well... Since i am in the mood to post something here.. i will might as well update something about my current life.. which is surrounded and cornered by exams.. foooh... Speaking about exams.. this very last final exam of my degree life is the most torturous ever!! Not only the pressure to my very best to achieve as much gpa as i can to pull up my already pathetic cgpa.. but the mood to get everything done and dealt with, really takes away my mood to study... just think that i could ditch all these once and for all and get on with life makes me excited until i lost the touch with my notes and text books..

the other subjects have passed and are history.. so i'll just talk about the paper i just had this morning and the next paper on thursday... It's film studies paper today.. for this paper, i am not only suppose to know the history and movements of film... i'll have to watch movies too... Not the typical ones.. a significant soviet montage film, the Battleship Potemkin, it's a silent movie.. it's black and white.. and.... the best thing is... it's in Russian!! Then a combination of film noir and science fiction film, Blade Runner... it's an 80s sci-fi film.. and a dash of film noir which is a direct opposite of the typical sci-fi... so i'll have to analyse... well.. it has Harrison Ford in it.. so it's not too bad... but i only watch half of it... at least i watched.. coz i did not touch Battleship Potemkin... i have the feeling that i'll go blank even after watching the film.. so i should not waste time.. better make use of it and search for information online... and a good thing i did... coz what i found is exactly what is required of the question... wahahahahahaha... it's so unusual for me to have luck in spotting questions.. it is usually those i studied hard and memorise will not come out as questions... hmm.. lucky me.. thank god!!

Oh ya.. i am suppose to watch a Malaysian film... but i forgot about it.. so i totally skipped that question.. i did attempt to do that question because it just need arguements instead of theories.. but those need time to build up.. and for the malaysian movie, i could take movies that i have watched.. Kami, the movie, Spinning Gasing, Sepet, Talentime, Impak Maksima, Rain Dogs, Gol dan Gincu... hmm.. i did not realise that i have watched quite a number of local movies.. hahaha... but i also need time to think back and refresh the storyline... however time is what i'm lacking during exam.. so i ditched it..

anyway... i hope my answers are acceptable to get higher marks... hope hope hope.... i really need luck for this...

then on thursday, it will be my last paper... Television Production 2... sigh... a clueless paper.. the whole subject is basically us pouring our whole effort into the final year project which is under this subject, the multi-camera production of a live show... other that tips, dos and don'ts in the studio for the shooting, i could not really remember what else what taught in class... how am i suppose to sit for the exam??!! the best thing is, the guidelines given by the lecturers are so vague that i could just might as well burn the notes and swallow.. hoping i could remember everything in the notes that is so unfamiliar to me... hope hope hope, again...

ok... dinnertime...

SIgning off~~
Toodles

Me, myself as a student

It's me again... to invade my own blogsphere.. another sudden mood... so another random post... Here goes...

After next week, i could unofficially shed off my student identity card and start a whole new life... why "unofficially"?? the official date falls during the convocation, right?? the day i throw off my student id once and for all... well.. i have been a student for almost my whole life.. and i can't believe that there's one day i will have to say goodbye to it... Maybe because i'm used to ticking the box on the occupation category that states student... Now, i'll have to tick something else.. or maybe UNEMPLOYED!! if i don't manage to get a job secures after my finals... yikes!!

I started to put on school uniforms when i was 2... and that's when i start kindergarten.. in case you are wondering why did i start so early... i remember mentioning that my mom was the headmistress of a kindergarten when i was born till i was around 3 or 4 years old.. so i was basically born in a kindergarten.. when i was 2 my mom put me in my very own school uniform and "kicks" me off to class, where i start learning to read, write and count...
since i started at 2.. my kindergarten days was unusually looooong... there was a time when my cousin ask, why are you forever in the kindergarten stage?? What can i do?? i'm not at age yet to enter primary school.. so of course i'm in kindie... what a question to ask.. i should have answered that during that time... aish... As a kindie student, i was quite talkative.. often being punish for talking in class... hehe.. i was quite good at reading.. judging my process on the "Peter and Jane" series... i was usually ahead of others.. '.' v

after 4 years of kindergarten in 4 different kindergartens... hahaha... my record... i finally reach the age to step into primary school.. my first primary school was in Penang... where i spent 4 - 5 months there... then i moved back to Subang and went to Sungei Way.. it was a "transit" while waiting for Lick Hung to accept me... I was there for around 2 - 3 months.. i remember how i hate the prefects there... i dont know why.. they dont let you open your mouth or stand up for god's sake.. What The??!! At least those in Lick Hung were slightly better...
then i was transferred to Lick hung and settled there throughout my primary years... people always say the pressure in Lick hung is unbearable.. but it's really weird that i don't feel anything... The homeworks are ok, additional classes in the afternoon are kinda fun because our initial classroom is occupied by the afternoon session so we get to use the science lab or the "kemahiran hidup" lab... which is very different from typical classrooms... how boring could it be when you can look at saws, hammers and other tools or test tubes, thermometers and other apparatus in class... they are kinda interesting, if you ask me.. a shift from the text... hehehe...
I was quite a good student.. yes, i am... i did my homework although occationally forgetting some, but i always manage to finish it before handing in! I go to school by bus so it arrives super early that i'm usually the first to reach the class and on the lights when i was in the morning session.. so i have plenty of time to complete my "unfinish" business... even if i forgot to do my chinese caligraphy, i could easily find ink and brushes conveniently in one of my classmate's drawers... hehe... as long as i wash it and put it back... he's ok with it.. he's used to it anyway... he needs it too... then i'll have dictionaries in the drawer on another classmate which is a big help when it comes to those exercise that needs to description of words and stuff or even idioms.. that guy have all sorts of dictionaries under his table.. you name it, he got it.. huhu...
besides that, the best thing about our class is we have been in the same boat (class) for 6 years... so we are really united when it comes to conflicts.. we even help back each other up during punishments.. and some of us are still in contact... after 10 years.. (woah!! I'm old!!)
the bus rides are also the best moments, i always set my watch alarm to ring 5 minutes earlier than the school bell to remind me to pack up so that i can run to the bus and secure a seat when the bell rings.. as you know, boys and girls this age like to fight.. it's always a fight on who gets the most seats on the bus... but sometimes the boys will buy us, girls keropok lekor to enjoy during the ride home.. that's kinda nice of them.. but they still fight with you.. sigh~~ boys are already so complicated as such a young age...

anyway.. my primary school life are the happiest student days throughout my whole student life... Where is the pressure?? I did not really feel it.. so stop saying that Lick Hung is full of pressure.. It is not.. and, mind you... I've got 7As for my UPSR... so trust me.. no pressure...

Then, i moved on to secondary school just opposite where i stay.. it takes less than 5 minutes walk if there are no cars on the road separating my place and the school.. this a completely different life compared to my primary school, which i will do anything to get my primary school life back... it's not that i hate the school.. it's just.. i don't like it... don't know why... the people there are ok.. teachers are ok, some are very nice.. the students are fine, classmates get along quite well... i just don't know why.. maybe the lack of sense of belonging??
well... this is the time when i realised i have no interest in science an maths... although my marks have been quite high during primary school... i have suddenly lost interest in them when i reached form 1... weird.. i still don't know why... at least i was quite a decent student in school... i don't break rules.. unless you count bringing liquid paper to school... but do you know how many tubes of liquid paper i can buy with the price of one correction tape?? and how long can i use it?? do the math.. people can also "conteng" using correction tape la.. without liquid paper, there are still loads of things to use, like pens, for instance?? forbid us to bring pens then.. hahaha... obviously i would not be that stupid to waste my liquid paper to "conteng".. what's there to "conteng" anyway???
The best part, i could say during secondary school is the co curricular activities... i was quite an active member back then.. because the school is near so there is no transportation problems.. the same clob and society every year.. Taekwondo, chinese language society and ping pong... shows my loyalty huh?? Taekwondo is because I have been learning it since standard 1... so might as well continue... Chinese language society is because i really miss my primary school days... and ping pong.... erm.... this is just random... i'm not good in ping pong... er... i FAIL in ping pong.. why did i join in the first place?? i think its a random pick... since i'm not THAT into sports and badminton requires members to go to another place from to school to practise.. so i chose ping pong... and i till dont know why...

That sums up my secondary school life... nothing much about it... the most to talk about are my friends... but i guess you already know them.. they have been constantly appearing in my blog.. hui ping, sheh lee, rachel, cheryl, ain, ika, syahira, fathimah, cze theng, wei lin... etc etc... so i'll jump off to my next paragraph...

oh... then, it's my university life.. which is broken into 2 parts.. foundation and degree which is totally different... and i decide to continue them in my next post... so i could have more posts this month and also continue with my endless studies... huhu...

Signing off~~~

*stay tune for my next post... should not be long after judging on the consistent bugging of blogging moods... Toodles!

when I am supposed to be busy...

I'm here... again... ditching my films studies and tv production 2 notes aside and typing for another post blog for the month... haha... like i said.. the mood of writing blogs will just appear during those very crucial peak periods.. when you really need to make use of every second you have to prepare for it... but the mood is like a bubble.. if you dont appreciate its appearance.. then when it pops.. it will be gone forever... and you will certainly regret the hell out of your life for not making full use of it when it's around.. at least, i do all the time...

speaking of appreciation.. film studies certainly reminds me of a very "unforgettable" subject i have taken last semester which will always be in my memories to haunt me.. it is called film appreciation, criticism and interpretation.. a long name increases the "scariness" of this subject... this sole subject is the verdict of I not getting a first class for my degree.. although i dont seem like i mind a lot about this classy matters.. but the fact is i do CARE... anyway.. a simple mistake could just bring you down from the top to the right bottom underneath the soil where people could step on you... a simple mistake deserves to be forgiven, don't you think?? maybe not for the second time.. but for someone who doesn't know... come on... oh, who cares now?? it's history..

but sometimes i do question the need of interpreting the inner, damn deep till nobody could see or understand meaning that is concealed so well only somebody who really have the utmost passion towards the film could really take the time to guess what message is it trying to convey... however.. sometimes i do wonder... does the director actually really thought of these things?? or it's just actually pure accident or meaningless than we main syok saja and go interpret like nobody's business?? I'm not saying that all are like that.. No no no... don't get me wrong.. this is just another way of me seeing it.. of course i do understand the need of interpreting the art of a film to appreciate.. but what if.. well.. i'm saying, what if there aren't any meaning?? why is it made in a particular way is just according to how the situation allows it to be?? There's no deep, sophisticated style of whatsoever message that is trying to be conveyed... just purely the way it is, there's no explanation or anything... the substance is already there when the director is filming and the director did not see a need for it to be removed or maybe they weren't allow/able to remove it... then here we are thinking the indirect message that it is suppose to convey.. something like that would be kinda funny, wouldn't it??

well.. this is just a joke, a sudden thought that i have will cracking my brain to interpret what a "flower pot" means in a random story... so please dont get offended and say that i am condemning the film appreciators, interpretors and critics... because i am not.. this is suppose to be a random thought to be treated like a joke.. thank you very much... ( sorry if you are offended but i really do not mean to..)

Ok now... time for facebook... haha... aren't i suppose to be studying?? i know, i am suppose to.. but let me collect my earnings from happy island, harvest my plants at country story, feed my workers at restaurant city, play with my pet at pet society first.. once i'm done with that.. i'll do the same using my sister's account collect her earnings, harvest, feed and other stuff... THEN only i'll start organising my notes and start studying... okie...

signing off~~ toodles

Mami and Me

Alrightey!! I know that i am now suppose to be drowning myself into the facts and figures of communication technology.. but.. as usual.. my blogging or writing mood will usually be turned on during these very crucial peak periods... sigh.. besides.. i have been ditching the blogsphere for quite a while now.. it's now time to be back.. or else.. my blogger status might even be terminated... Nah.. just kidding, it wouldn't be that serious.. unless i terminate my own blog.. Nothing will happen to Panda's space unless i say so.. yeps..

Now back to the topic... as everybody in the world knows.. mother's day is right at the corner.. so i now have the sudden urge to be writing about me mami..

I have hardly mention about my mami in my blog.. maybe because this is MY blog and it is suppose to be about ME.. ok.. MY family is also a part of me.. whoosh, whatever.. Sorry for the distractions.. it has been a long time since i last sit down in front of the computer and type a blog post.. so just bear with my sudden freak-outs and nonsense..

oo... coming back to where i am suppose to start with.. my mami... the fact that i am most proud of.. she is a masters student wei!! fuyoh, bangga sial!! however... friends of my mom has been constantly saying that my mom has been sacrificing a lot for the family.. Actually they did not say "family"... they said FOR ME.. i didn't really understand at first until i stepped into my university days.. only i know that she was suppose to have a bright future ahead of her since masters are quite hard to come by during her days.. and she decided to settle down and raise me up.. ("you raise me up...so i can stand on mountains~~" hehe.. so touching.. snif snif.. ehem.. back to blogging) so that how she sacrificed for ME...

But, I did TOO sacrifice for her.. erm... hmmm.. uh... ok fine.. i didn't.. eh, wait.. does driving her or my bro or my sis around count?? because she is lazy to drive and i did sacrifice my TV and online time for that, you know.. oh well.. i did help out with household chores too!! wash the dishes occasionally, help clear up when i have the mood, bring the clothes out to dry, take the clothes back in, frantically running to take the clothes back in when my neighbour's maid start screaming "Hujan!! Hujan!!".. and yes, there is a difference between both, one requires effort and the other requires more agility.. hehe.. ah yes.. i sort the clothes too, fold the clothes.. buy clothes.. hehe.. that's not suppose to be in the list..

anyway.. the times when she started teaching me mathematics when i was like 3 years old was my worst nightmare.. just because she is good in maths and also a statistics major does not make me a born mathematical genius or whatsoever.. well.. i guess that is why i hate maths.. until NOW... But i can't deny the fact that it did helped me quite a lot.. imagine at the age of 3 or 4(i'm not sure which).. i already know that the mathematical signs (+ - x /  i dont know their real names, so sorry.. told you my maths is bad) that is moved to the other side of the equal sign will be the opposite of its kind.. like a plus becomes a minus and vice versa.. i did not know this theory really exists until when i reach form 2.. i really thought it was a formula invented by my mami.. haha.. because i have never seen this formula throughout my primary days.. that sounds kinda cool.. hehe..

the best thing about my mami is she goes shopping with me and my sis.. and most importantly.. PAYS!! haha.. thats one of the reason why i love shopping with my mami.. and also we can buy clothes, bags or shoes that fits all 3 of us.. coz we are almost of the same size.. maybe just a slight difference.. but.. nevermind.. save money, save the environment.. thats a good thing.. so the exchange of clothes and other garments part is frequently happening in our house.. sometimes you'll find someone digging into the wardrobe that is not hers.. hahaha...

not forgetting.. my mami's cooking.. my bro has been constantly praising my mom as a "good cook" ever since he start eating solid food.. although he sometimes compare her with my 3rd aunt (saa koar) but she's a chef la.. can't really compare.. but he did say they are on similar standards.. anyway.. my mami cooks yummilicious food.. although now she keeps emphasizing on the less salt, less oil = healthier eating habit.. but still, i'll miss it when i don't get to eat them for more than 3 days..

hmm... that's all i guess.. i have to go back to my facts and figures or else i'll be in deep trouble tomorrow.. see ya soon!!

saje~~

entahlah kenapa.. aku ni malas semacam je.. tahulah exam seterusnya hanya tinggal 1 hari lebih je tapi masihlah malas sangat nak buat ulang kaji.. baru habis je subject yang menyeksakan.. takde ke break yang lama sikit?? kesian la kitorang ni.. buat susah je nak ingat apa-apa kes, seksyen apa kat buku undang.. pas tu ade tak link link kat mana mana sekyen yang lain pula.. penat tau?? dahlah masa ulang kaji nak ingat tu penat.. masa periksa tu lagi menyeksakan!! banyak sangat perlu tulis.. masa tu 2 jam setengah je.. buat penat je tulis.. tangan patah pas tu tinggalkan kat meja.. haha..

aish.. cam ne ni?? dah sem akhir.. exam yang paling last dah.. pecuuuuut!!!