what about internship

right... i should update something about my internship before the end of this month...


so what have i been doing throughout my whole week of internship in xuanworks...
first of all... its a very small company... with not more than 10 employees... so everybody is close and the bond between employees are very tight and hard to break... haha.. i guess... assuming...
i've got a table... although it's not really mine... but at least i get to sit with a computer in front of me...


we have 3 shootings scheduled next week so damn.. it's busy... i never get to go home on time... however no complains because i think its kinda worth it... at least i'm not like hanging around doing nothing... wasting my time...

what have i learnt???
i learnt how to change the color of clothes... which is very very useful when it comes to searching clothes for wardrobe... you'll never find the exact color you need... so what do you do??? change the color in photoshop... but do it after searching high and low on the internet because it's like cheating.... do it when you dont have a choice...

i recalled my very basic editing skills when i was editing the casting videos of talents.... it's kinda fun seeing them act and stuff... until i come to a pair of identical twins... oh my god... its so hard to differentiate and join their videos together because its hard to tell who is who... the best thing is their mom decided to dress them exactly the same during casting... oh great... just as if their face wasnt hard enough to differentiate... and now you have to dress them identically too????
i also saw a 10 year old girl who is as tall as me... gosh!!!! she is just 10!!!! i think she bump into the ceiling when she's 18...

what else??? oh ya... the wonders of a photostating machine... and also the scanner... we were required to photocopy like hundreds and thousands of stuff for the final pre-production presentation.... using up like 2 packets of paper... woohooo...

searching for maps... shooting locations... i now even can DRAW!!! i actually volunteered to draw the map to our location... wahahaha... i never ever imagined me volunteering to DRAW.... even straight lines...

besides... i have prepared storyboards... tranlated scripts... talking about translating.... i have to translate chemistery stuff as well... so thanks to the online dictionary... i can even confirm the names for stuff like bearberry essence... xxxxline.... xxxxic.... do you actually expect me to know or remember those terms???

then there are the powerpoint slides.... inserting pictures... cropping... adjusting.... converting....

brainstorm for ideas for a campaign... on the radio!!!! i have never been familiar to radio commercials... coz usually in assignments we'll usually opt out the 30sec radio commercial and focus on prints ads and tvc instead... so the lack of experience really matters a lot... i'm still blank... sigh~~~~

hmmm.... i guess that's all as far as i can remember....

next week will be a very very busy week as we have 3 shootings all scheduled next week.... wonder what will i become after this???? hopefully i can lose a few kgs.... that will be great.... but till now i dont think that's gonna happen coz i keep eating in the office.... hahahaha... it might just turn out the other way round as i will be gaining a few more kgs... Noooooooooo....


that's practically almost all of my first week of internship....


oh ya... my bi-weekly report... i almost forgot about that....

signing off~~~

updating~~~

i guess i SHOULD be updating my blog more often since i'm currently on my semester break... and i practically have nothing to do.... however... it is because i have nothing to do... that is why i cant find anything to update here... see the connection??? between no updates and free time???


i didnt get to go to jessie's birthday party.. as due to UNFORESEEN circumstances... which is totally unplanned.. who the hell knew that i would actually ****** ok its not for you to know... those who know just keep it to yourself... ask me personally if you really want to know because i dont intend to tell it here... just dont feel like it...


what else??? oh yes... had my second round of k-session yesterday... come on... the rm5++ promotion is really too hard to resist.... this time me and hui ping went to 1U... a place which i'll be frequently passing-by when i start my internship next week... wahahaha.... sigh~~~


oh ya... there's something quite "bermanfaat" that i have done during these few days... i have been revising my japanese and korean... wahahaha!!!! so that's something to be proud of... after days of loitering at home... i finally did something beneficial....
but i have just read through... i'll do more tomorrow... like practise my writing and stuff... all my grammer... aza aza ganbatte kudasai!!!


now that i have realised... i'm just days to my third year... which also marks the final year of my degree.. oh gawd!!! time sure flies~~ like a speeding bullet... a flash of lightning... in one more year.... i'm graduating, man!!!! for tuhan's sake!!!! i really can't believe it... it seems like forever since i step into my schooling life and now i'm almost graduating already.... 1 more year to go.... so now what??? will i be able to get a job after i graduated??? the most important thing is will i be able to feed myself??? or i'll still have to depend on my family???? No... better not.... so i sincerely hope that i'll be able to get a job... with a satisfying pay.... i can start work right after i graduate.. or maybe right after my last paper of my finals... i dont mind that... boy, i sound desperate... but i'm serious... by the way... i'll grab any opportunity available... hehehehe....


i'm starting my internship next monday... as i have said for like a gazillion times already... hopefully its ok... i know there are some of my coursemates who have already started their internship since last week!!! oh boy.... nervous~~~ thinking of it just adds the nervous-ness in me... gosh!!! i never ever imagined that i'll be working in an advertising production house... never in my mind since i have started my degree ever thought that i'll be working with stuff regarding to advertisements.... i myself never thought i will step over to the advertising line, although i'm minoring advertising... but i'm just not an advertising person... cant draw... lack of creativity and flexibility... fail man!!!! so just hopefully this will turn out ok.... really do hope...


what else??? hmmm... oh yeah!!!! i said i'll update my fanfic blog!!!! oh gawd.. i forgot all about that... poor janet... i'll read up where i have stop and try to gain some ideas and pour them into the blog... aish....



well... there should be more posts starting next week... since i might have quite a lot to share regarding my internship... so stay tune...


signing off~~~

post-exam...

i'm back!!! to update about me post exam life.... 5 days after my exam... what did i do???? should i mention about monday's paper??? nah!!! it's a disaster... i believe many will agree... so let's forget about it and get on with my 2 exam-free days...

tuesday .... started with the video i've promised.... then... off for the long-awaited k-session with huiping... wuhahahaha.... neway promotion.... rm5++ for lunch and happy hour... we sang from 2pm til 7pm... sang all the songs we wanted to sing and a whole lot of long-time-no-sing songs... enjoyed big time.... haven't really sang that long since... the first time i went to neway... which was like... hmm..... 2 or 3 years ago????

anyway.... after enjoying... went back home ate my dinner and started editing the video i shot on sunday.... woo-hoo... talking about pure kan cheong-ness... once i put in the cd... i realise this is not a format that i am familiar with... tried to play it with media player... cannot.... real player... cannot... quick time player.... cannot... i even tried power dvd player.... also cannot... oh no.... big trouble man!!! how am i going to edit if i cant even play it???? ok lo... luckily i still managed to get somebody to help me convert the clips... or else it may seem that i could not get the job done as promised... hehehe... phew~~~


wednesday... i round over to my future workplace... damansara perdana... to see the traffic flow and whether are there parking space available.... there are parking space... just that i'll have to walk quite a distance from there to my future workplace... and i'll have to pay too.... yikes... parking space... since i enrolled into uni this problem has never got off my mind... even now... when i'm not going to uni... i still have to worry about whether are there parking space available in that area... i guess this is a compulsory problem to worry about for drivers....


thursday... half of the lai family is back from kampar... my life continues with pet society and restaurant city... and of course... a little household chores...

today.... accompanied hui ping to some bird nest talk... it's some kind of investment programme... so obviously they got the wrong target.... how could students like me, afford rm30k plus of investment plan???? you do the math... i'm still depending on my parents... and i'm not earning much from my internship.... wahahaha

tomorrow... jessie birthday party...

wee-heee..

signing off~~~

what do you feel when exam is nearing???

As i go around peeking at other people's blog... i found something very interesting from one my high school mate's blog.... which very much describes my feelings during exam... although mine is almost over... but like i once said before... sharing is caring....

those in purple... are my own opinions... the rest are all taken from my friend's blog...



What do you feel when exam is nearing?

Stress:

No need for that. Remember, the more you stress, the weaker you become and you get all tensed up. This leads to lack of sleep (just to force yourself to finish up all the notes), brain congestion (too stressed of counting the time you have left for studies & in the end rushing through everything), forgetting your meals (one good excuse ---- No appetite) and in the end --> Allostatic load and KO
my stress level usually risen when i see the question paper and realise that i have no idea how am i going to answer... this will really stress me out... other than that... it's still ok... the stress is usually an aftermath... when i think i didnt do well for the exam... that's when the stress factor comes in...


Depression:

"Oh my god..I'm dead..I'm dead!!! I haven't study this, that, here, there, everything!!!"
"Shit..Why can't I remember anything?!!"
"Darn..Why people can remember such details which I don't even have a clue what that's all about?!"
"Time is running out . . . I'm dead for sure . . ."

And before you realise, you are already DEAD before the exams. Rather than spending your time sulking, STUDY and give in your best efforts!
again... my depression level risen after exams, normally.... when i realise that i couldnt answer a single question properly... then i'll damn depressed... but this feeling usually will not last long... as after every paper i have done... it's a step closer to my holidays... so usually the feeling will be gone until i get back my results... ehehe


Insomnia:

Yeah it's normal, it happens all the time. People trying to stay up all night before the exams, trying as hard as they might to squeeze all the information into any possible sulcus or gyrus in the brain. Yes you can stuff them in, but will they stay there when your brain is screaming in agony for some sleep?

NO. So, why not use the time for some good rest instead?
oh no... i dont burn the midnight oil for exams... assignments, yes... but not for exams... i make sure i have enough sleep before exams... eventhough i'm not done memorising the notes and facts... i'll still go to sleep first and maybe snatch a few minutes before the exams starts to cram those into my brain...


Start asking people around for answers:

Haha..This is an interesting one. Before the exams, you are playing and fooling around in class when your friend is desperately trying to concentrate while you're laughing and joking and playing around behind them. Now you want their precious notes? That depends how KIND the person you're asking from then.
wahahaha... this will not happen to me.... unless i was absent during a particular lecture or tutorial.... i dont go around asking for other people's notes.... maybe i'll just ask people to print the notes that were received via email since my printer isnt very stable... wahaha... other than that... i never ask people for their notes...
well... i dont have to... i listen and pay attention during class... i write down what is necessary for me to know.... so that's enough for me.... since everybody is attending the same class... it is ridiculus for me to not know something that the lecturer or tutor has taught but others do... RIDICULUS!!!


Studying last minute:

You are asking for it. Time management is everything. You spent the time available for rest & relax, now you pay double/triple/quadruple for making up the time lost. Plan, plan and PLAN your studies right. It's what that decides whether you get to sleep, relax and study well for long term. You shouldn't be STUDYING before exams, it should be REVISION. (Remember your brain needs input a few times before registering in your brain! Well, unless you're a genius born with superb memory. Too bad I'm not.)
ah-ha... that's what i do everytime... i know i'm not suppose to be studying last minute... but lazy-ness is born in me... so i guess it sometimes serves me right when i dont remember important points... sigh~~


Stay happy in exams and good luck~



*the author of this post is a medic student... so several theories about human body acceptance level should be accurate... so dont doubt....

pre-merdeka.... sigh....

i still have one more subject to go before i could declare "merdeka" for myself... while i think a majority of utar students are already officially in the mist of "merdeka" mood... sigh... why is it always like that??? my exams always takes longer than anybody else.... ever since spm... it's always i have to start earlier and end later than everybody... maybe its just some kinda trick that will make me study and do my revisions longer than anybody else... but to tell the truth... it is really hard to concentrate and study when you know that others are already enjoying themselves with their holiday plans....
how can you not be influence by the carefree and merry mood????

so that is what happening to me currently... i only have like around 1 day to study my completely untouched international advertising subject.... because half day is gone already for today... and tomorrow's wesak day... so another half day gone case.... so that sums up to be 1 day... to start studying from scratch...

what about my sunday??? have fogotten my sunday??? hehehe... i'm taking a break on sunday.... i'm off to help keekee and friends for their video.... so another half day gone... and then it's mother's day.... the next half is gone also... how to study???
and keekee... i am more than happy to help you out.... because i'm lazy to study... and this is the best excuse... so dont feel bad or anything... if you do.... just treat me a huge lunch on that day... wahahahaha... i'm just kidding.... dont take it seriously...

what will i be doing after my exams???? well... that's for you to know... and for me to find out... i'll update on that later... after i know what am i going to do for the 2 weeks.... besides getting myself ready physically and mentally for my intern....

oh... maybe i'll post blogs about some stuff that has already happened but has not been written out yet.... let's see if i got the mood or not... maybe i'll pop up with a post of two about my shooting week and stuff.... hehehe....

what else??? oh... its time for lunch and after that... i seriously need to get on with my mpgest and stuff... i dont wanna fail my very last paper... and it is one of the hardest paper of all 6 subjects... but come to think of it.... all 6 subjects are hard this semester.... how can they do this to us... it should be balanced.... aish.....

signing off..... -whish-

ramblings

i seriously have the feeling that i'm not going to do well in this semester's finals... my cgpa is definitely going to drop again... gosh... what have i been doing for the past few days???? honestly... i'm not sure... i studied... certainly... not much but at least i did.... remembered points... yeah... i'm on track... the correct one.... forcing point forms and words to be drilled into my almost-full-of-anything-but-academic-stuff brain... yeah... i did that... go to the exam hall... yes.. i'm getting there... last mental note to myself whether i remembered everything that i'm suppose to remember... checked....

into the exam hall.... lay down my stationary.... put my phone and stuff on the floor... flips through the exam question paper... voila... congratulations, you've done it again.... the stuff that you spotted and memorised so hard is not out... very good... brilliant.... so what now???? crap as much as you can and don't show anyone that you are freaking out because you don't know how to answer a single freaking question.... great.... just great... start writing... write those you have been memorising so hard before.... make them worth it... worth the effort... eventhough it obviously seem not related to the question asked.... just write... puke as much words as you can... get an extra answer booklet... just to comfort yourself.. i have loads of things to write about... loads of nonsensical stuff... loads of nonsense, that is... does the word "nonsensical" exist??

ok fine... i finish everything in time... not really finish.. i mean pour out all the nonsense i have on the paper... hoping that it'll get a few marks for effort of writing but i guess i'm thinking too much... so i'll just throw everything out of my mind and stop thinking about it... i'll feel better that way.... hopefully... but not....

everything just falls apart... i know i did not put enough effort... i knew that all along... but i didnt bother to add... so what??? i couldnt care less... i'm still the lazy bum who skips math questions so that i dont have figure out so many solutions and yet i still did my homework...

i'm very self contradicting... which kills the hell out of me... i want good results but i'm lazy... damn lazy... i'm disappointed with my forever-dropping cgpa... but when it comes to putting effort in finals... i back off... what do i want actually???

sigh sigh....

why is my post so emo for the past few months???? has my lifestyle changed??? i want my bubbly happy life back!!!! give me back my bubbles!!!!
or is it the aging problem???? changes how i see things... oh no... if that's the case... i better do something.... FAST.... i dont wanna grow old yet.... i still want my bubbly life back...
or maybe its my constant failure.... blame design subjects!!! they have not been nice to me since i was in foundation.... i still hate them... thoroughly...
i'm still waiting for my bubbles...

hopefully i'll find them this coming Sunday... i'm looking forward to it.... time to meet new friends and get my mind off exams and failure and whatever stuff that is bothering me...
bubbles... come to me....


in the meantime...


i just did a test on facebook....

just took the "What is your deepest, darkest fear?" quiz and the result is You fear failure..

You are a very driven person, with specific goals set to guide you through life. The idea that you might not achieve these goals is scary to you. Since you identify so strongly with your actions (your work, your relationships, etc.), you feel that failure would reflect poorly upon you. Without success and accolades, you secretly wonder what value you have, and if people would still love and respect you.



so i have this phobia thingy.... failure-phobia... or whatever you call that.... well i admit that though... although it took me long enough to realise that... hehehe...