things just cant get any worst... a few very depressing days.... besides yesterday of course... we went to the curve to celebrate cheng hui's birthday... well... i'll save the best for last... let me release my "depress-ness" here...
firstly... today... all my ideas for multimedia for advertising assignment was banned... i was too money minded.. according to the tutor... but what's wrong with money minded??? arent that what people look for these days??? yeah.. i'm practical.. and realistic... so i'll have to start from square one AGAIN.... damn!!! what the hell is going on????!!!! why is this so hard???? i dont have any more canggih idea... my brain is already in critical condition after stressing out too much for the previous 4 ideas.... dang!!! its already halfway to the ICU already... i dont wanna kill my brain... i really need it!! i really need suggestions and stuff... the most of all is i need cheering up.... its just too depressing.....
secondly... people in my class arent working very well lately... we are longer the one big happy family of bc3 anymore... now we are scatterred... all over the place... friendship are actually diamonds... they are precious.. they are rare.... but judging on the situation now... it's like autumn leaves... scatterring everywhere.... relationships are tearing apart.... arguements.... quarreling... disagreements.... i sure hope all scattered pieces are able to find their way back and join back into the big happy family as it used to be....
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Well I do agree with you on this though... and things are certainly not going well for me and you know who also la... fact is I know what's going on and who's involved in the gossips and all... trust me... I'm very very clear... I choose to ignore "some" of the people who are involve (I believe you're very well aware who are they) because I believe they still know me... why I rejected the group ideas... why i did what i did... If those who knows me... they'll know that I see tasks based on how it can be carried out... not based on personal preferences or wanting to use my idea... And I do prefer "friends" coming up to me straight and shoot me with whatever they think bout me instead of making things worse behind... it might turn into something else through gossips...
I confront some girls from BC3 whom I think suka sgt nak gossip... But it doesn't mean I dun forgive them... fact is I'm wrong in so many ways... I just wish people would come up to me and tell it to me as a sincere friend... I hate knowing all the things I know now... And yes... I don't trust those people whom I know involved in this... I respected friendship you see... but those who are not sincere towards friendship won't receive sincerity from others...
P3... I think you do know me... I believe you know I shoot people when I don't agree with them... and my intentions are never to harm anyone... just know that... no matter what you do... just dun forget... you're not one of them who would do anything to hurt someone else... and stand strong on your views... believe in your own judgements... and always ask yourself... are you a good friend to others or not... We're involved in a cunning industries with people wearing masks all around... choose your friends wisely... remember one phrase... those who stabbed and gossip bout their friends will do the same to you if you're not careful... most importantly... don't get yourself involved in unhealthy topics which hurt and harm others... especially to those who won't harm you... be sincere and honest to them no matter what... I believe they'll appreciate it more than anything in the world...
to tell the truth...
i have been reading this comment for god knows how many times already... wanting to post a reply but i'm not sure how should i do this...
i really appreciate your honesty and sincerity towards me as a friend... and i know i did somehow rather said things that were not really pleasing towards the ear about you... but to be frank... i was really not happy when you turn down my drama script... i know your intention was for the sake of the whole assignment but i was kinda childish in that situation... and complained about it behind your back... however deep down inside i really understood your intentions about the script and i do appreciate your effort.. its just sometimes when something you put so much effort in was being turned down.. you will feel kinda disappointed and start having negative feelings... i just need to let it out.. but all the while.. i'm ok with your decision... honestly... i'm really fine with it...
i really cherish you as a friend... so i really dont want to hurt you in any way possible... but sometimes its hard to bring the truth in front to your face.. i'm not that kind of person who can accept critism openly... so i assume others are the same... until i know that you are really ok about critisms to your face... then only i'm fine with pouring stuff all over you openly and honestly...
i hope you understand...
however i dont think you will be scrolling back and read this reply but its from the bottom of my heart, if you are reading...
Lol... Well then we have a lot of time left for us to know each other... actually I know how you felt when I turned down your drama script... But I don't really know how to face you and admit the impact I'm giving you... I was too ego to confront you in the first place and made things clear... And I do know why you and the others didn't come face to face with me clearing the situation... Because you don't wanna hurt anybody... I have so so so much more to learn from each and everyone of you... And critisms are most welcome... believe me... I appreciate people who actually criticize me... because that shows the intention of helping me to improve... So I can assure you that I'm a friend you can be completely honest with... I don't take critism hardly no matter how pierceful the comment may be... I do ponder on every single thing which was said, and I'll get feedback from others then I take what is most useful to me...
I hope to work in assignments with you again to be frank... and I hope I can a better groupmate to you in the future... Trust me, you are one of the most respectable person I've known... dedicated, passionate, harworking, efficient, intelligent... and so much more which I can learn from... Your writing skills? I was amazed honestly... You're good at it... So far I can't find any flaws in you... and I can't ask for anything more in a friend... But after all the misunderstandings... All I asked is just truthfulness, sincerity and honesty from you... If there's anything at all which you're not happy bout me... you may release your complaints to anybody you like... but all I'm asking for, is for you to confront me and let me know my faults... I would appreciate that more than anything...
Thanks for tolerating with me all these while... LOL... I'm not easy to work with... but I'll improve on it... As I've said, this industry is cunning and realistic... that's the real world out there... But I hope our friendship is honest and pure... I was seriously angry when I know what was said behind my back... can't help to feel that I was stabbed in some ways... BUT... I do take critism into mind and lessons into heart... And I don't hold any grudges and this I can assure you... I might need time to actually put my heart out back for some of the BC3-rians... as said, respect and trust is earned... when someone betrayed it, they'll have to work hard to prove themselves worthy of it... Same goes to me... I'll need to work hard on eleminating my laziness and procastinating behaviour and earn the trust and respect of my groupmates... I'm the main problem... so I'll solve it out, if you don't mind... I hope you can help me out in the process of improving... I can assure you I'm not someone who won't listen...
Thanks for replying me with complete honesty... This is what I'm looking for... and I appreciate it...
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