XOXO (detailed explanation)

The reason this is repost is due to some people who don’t understand the point of the point and starts giving anonymous rude comments about the points that doesn’t even exists in the post… besides… I think that fella is banned from hk now coz he criticize hk so much until one of my friends said that he should just stay in an egg and grow there because hk is just a small portion of the real world…


Ok… if you totally understand my previous post (XOXO) regarding this.. I think there’s no need for you to continue reading but you still can just for the fun of it.. because at first… XOXO was just my perception about certain things and I am not talking about anybody in particular… but now this is directed to the anonymous in person… however I doubt that fella will be reading this post after leaving such shallow opinions…


Ok… let’s start….

As i said... i have rants to get on with... at first i thought that it might just spoil my mood... but second thought... timing isnt really an issue... so i decided to pick this lovely morning... to release some of my stuff... which maybe some people are very curious about... wahahahah... (*winks)

–ok… this paragraph doesn’t need explaining, does it??? Ok… in case some people still don’t understand.. I’ll just make it clear that I have made a clear point that this is just me letting out several negative stuff that I have within me… so those who are interested can go on reading… those who are not, then they should stop because it will ruin their lovely morning.. –



first things first... i would like to say... everybody is not perfect... everybody have their flaws and weaknesses... but its up to them whether to improve or change or not... and its up to you whether you could accept it or not... sometimes a flaw may not seem such a big problem to person A but it's a great big deal to person B... so who's problem is it??? the person with the flaw or person B??? in my opinion it has to be person B... because it is not a big deal to other people... so you either learn to accept... or just totally ignore... i understand it is hard to accept something you dont agree with... but i dont think its necessary to make such a fuss about it.. since some people could stand the way it is... well... in some situations... if everybody couldnt stand the flaw... or a majority couldnt... then the person should do something with the flaw... because its disturbing almost everybody around the person... but if there's just a minority... maybe it's the flaw that makes out who you are... makes you unique.. makes you special... what's the fuss???

–hmm…. Here I’m saying that sometimes when you couldn’t accept somebody’s flaw… you should not straight away go on and blame the person for not being perfect… as stated “everybody is not perfect… everybody have their flaws and weaknesses…” instead.. maybe you should ask yourself that is it your problem because you couldn’t tolerate with such small matter??? Ask around and see if its such a big deal.. if its not… then maybe you should do something yourself and not go around and blame others… sometimes a flaw will make someone unique… in case some people don’t understand this again… I’ll give an example… jay chou… he has been criticized a lot for not being able to pronounce his lyrics clearly… but then… look at how many fans he have… since the majority could accept… then it’s not such a big problem after all… and now… it has became his signature… however… he did put some effort on his pronunciation… but somehow people prefer him not doing that… haha.. –

well... everybody has a right to voice out when they see something they dont agree with... but i shall also say... they also the right not to... so just see how it goes... if they decided not to say anything... may they can still bear with it... and they also have their ways of avoiding it to affect themselves... so why make a fool???? and ruin things that are in a good condition???

–here it means that people have the right to open their mouths or not… so any third party is not suppose or allowed to force anybody to voice out… and sometimes when people don’t mention maybe it means that people don’t think the matter is important enough to express… and maybe people just don’t want to ruin things that are going on nicely all the while…. So people are just trying to be nice… which force them not to be??? –

i shall also say that... talking behind people's back is not a good thing... but sometimes... there might be a reason behind that... although it may not be strong enough to support but then... sometimes its really better that way... i have experience... that people cannot really handle critisms although they claim they could... in the end... friendships... gone... everything... vanished.... so why pretend as though you could when in the reality you couldnt???? and as a result... break things that arent suppose to be broken???

–oooo… here comes the very “misunderstood” part… I shall highlight it.. talking behind people's back is not a good thing… so that’s what I said… however… there might be reasons behind it.. maybe they don’t wanna spoil the relationship they have with the person… because criticizing in front of that person may hurt his/her feelings… and they will turn defensive.. and fight back… things in the end turn out ugly and not the way anybody has expected… -

i stand my views as if i dont like people doing that to me.. i will not do that to others in the first place... like i hate being framed... so at least i will not be framing people for what they have not done.... but however... i never said that i hate people talking about things behind my back... honestly i'm ok with that... ok... maybe i'll be a little uncomfortable... but come on.... who likes to be the topic of gossips??? i'm still ok with it... because the mouth belongs to others... i cant do anything about it... although... due to my very "kepo"-ness... i am always curious about what they have to say about me... well... if i get to know it...

–ok… here’s another “misunderstood” part… I said “if i dont like people doing that to me.. i will not do that to others in the first place...” so I said that… I can still accept people talking behind my back because I do that too… well.. I cant expect people to respect me if I don’t respect people on the first place.. so I’m fine with people talking behind my back… good or bad… and I don’t see it as backstabbing because they are telling the truth about what they don’t like about me… and those are not my secrets… so since it’s the truth… how can you say its backstabbing??? Backstabbing means betrayal.. misuse of trust… like I trust them with a secret and they go off telling people.. that, to me is backstab… but of course I cant expect everybody… all of my friends to like me 100%... so they are allowed to say and even discuss my flaws with others… when they decided its time for me to know and change… I’ll get to know eventually… if not… they either think it’s just a small matter… or they think I’m hopeless to change… -

hmm... ok let's make it this way... if its a negative thing... and that person doesnt like it... ok.. i'll try my best not to do that in front of him/her.. but that doesnt mean that i could change overnight and completely stop to be a different person.... maybe others could accept so i could express the way i am to the people who can accept... no harm done....

– maybe my command of English is that bad until people don’t understand what I write… maybe I should consider English lessons or something… here I said that if somebody doesn’t like me doing something… hmm.. this is vague… let me give an example… A doesn’t like me cursing… I’ll avoid cursing in front of her… but maybe in front of B who doesn’t mind me cursing.. I’ll still curse… because I cant just stop straight away… maybe some people can… but I need some time… I’m a bit slow sometimes… so bear with me..-

its hard to change something that has been comfortably set in you... maybe you could avoid.. but its still in you... like how i dont like malaysian cantonese.... i avoid using the term that were only used in malaysia... but my hong kong friends still say i speak in a very malaysian way... what to do??? its with me all the time.... sometimes they'll say... "hey... you now speak less like a malaysian already... welcome to hong kong!!!".... i'll be like "really??!!! oh gosh!!! i didnt realise!! yippee!!"

–this is just an example that I used to explain the above point.. just to say that I actually can change without realizing… and I’m so sorry to mention hk here… coz it made hk a shooting target… I apologise to each and every hong kong citizen who have come by this blog for unintentionally making it a shooting target for criticisms… and making them feel offended… I’m so sorry…-

same theory... different situations... applicable anytime.... anywhere...

–does this need explanation?? Coz I don’t know how to explain it… I’m just making an assumptions that usually people don’t change overnight but they will change without even realizing it… sorry if its wrong… just my own assumption-

however... i believe people talks about other people behind their backs all the time... good or bad.. it's just a part of mingling with other friends... nobody, i believe... nobody don't talk about the people they know behind their backs... of course unless they are dumb.... cant talk isnt a crime after all... being talked about isnt really as bad as some people think it is... in another way... i think maybe because i'm remembered for something... people know me for something... good or bad... hmmm... that's another thing then.... i'm working in the entertainment industry and we need these "gossips" to survive... no gossips... nothing... there's no word of mouth... then... please take out your wallet and pay for the promotion.. thank you very much....

– well… here I assume that everybody talks… even like when you discuss about stars (I mean singers, actors stars… not star light star bright… no wishes will be granted… thank you very much) I’m sure you couldn’t be talking about brad pitt or tom cruise in front of their faces right??? So that is kinda consider talking behind their backs… but actually when they talk about brad pitt or tom cruise… they are actually spreading their name around… that is why they are so well known… they might be talking about their life-partner change… or they can also be talking about how good looking they are and how good is their acting… this is call word-of-mouth promotion.. which is free of charge… and that’s a really typical thing that is happening in the entertainment industry… people criticize because they don’t know or understand… well.. if these are people who are also working in the industry themselves… I feel very sorry for their naïve-ness…. No.. their density….-

Thank you for your time!!!

delayed post again... outing on 20/6

sorry for another delayed post... hehehe...

20 june...

today is the day after my "best internship day" ever.. which i get to meet up with ain and gang... ain is back from the US for holidays... and yippee... she's not infected by the AH1N1... that means we can hang out!!!

we set off to sunway pyramid.... then meet up with jia shan and cze theng... well... all 3 of us realise one thing... we havent been speaking BM for like how many years was it???? picking it back up is a little "cake water" in my terms... and the normal terms is .... AWKWARD!!! a lot of words are forgotten... and sometimes you get stuck in the middle of a sentence dono how to continue because of this one word that is missing from your brain... and in the end... english comes back into the conversation....

here we are....







when we were having lunch in Teppanyaki.... and ika is actually wearing baju kurung... fuyoh!!! formal gile.... ade function ke???


then we shot off to the arcade....



first... the car racing thing... which is almost a "must-do" in arcades....




then syahira and ika have a go on the house of the dead.... the lost at the stage where there's this huge round belly guy... or thing.... gross... reminds me that i'm getting fat again... sigh~~~


then we walk around pyramid aimlessly.... talking and laughing along... and ika have this very funny hobby... when she sees an escalator... she'll have to get on it.. even when nobody is planning to join her....




so she has to come back down... herself....



and she does it again... but this time... we accompany her... "kesian je~~"

we wanted to take a group photo... but we trust no stranger to handle the camera... so this is what we did...



we took turns holding the camera... so there will be one of us disappearing from each photo... haha.... this is the very last photo we took right before my camera battery decided to go to rest...
















Of course.... the other 6 photos were taken using ain's iphone... so there are several NG (no-good) photos... during the process....


first and foremost... jia shan decided to capture her feet first before capturing us.... and she also decided to do it the artistic way... which is to blur the whole thing... and that's her feet you are looking at... by the way...




after looking at her feet... she decided to give people a different perspective of taking photos... which is upside down.... well... it's really.... hmmm.... artistic of her....




here's another artist... who wants to portray the feel of us as drunkards.... it's really successful by the way!!! way to go, cze theng!!!!


that's all folks...


signing off~~~

XOXO

As i said... i have rants to get on with... at first i thought that it might just spoil my mood... but second thought... timing isnt really an issue... so i decided to pick this lovely morning... to release some of my stuff... which maybe some people are very curious about... wahahahah... (*winks)

first things first... i would like to say... everybody is not perfect... everybody have their flaws and weaknesses... but its up to them whether to improve or change or not... and its up to you whether you could accept it or not... sometimes a flaw may not seem such a big problem to person A but it's a great big deal to person B... so who's problem is it??? the person with the flaw or person B??? in my opinion it has to be person B... because it is not a big deal to other people... so you either learn to accept... or just totally ignore... i understand it is hard to accept something you dont agree with... but i dont think its necessary to make such a fuss about it.. since some people could stand the way it is... well... in some situations... if everybody couldnt stand the flaw... or a majority couldnt... then the person should do something with the flaw... because its disturbing almost everybody around the person... but if there's just a minority... maybe it's the flaw that makes out who you are... makes you unique.. makes you special... what's the fuss???

well... everybody has a right to voice out when they see something they dont agree with... but i shall also say... they also the right not to... so just see how it goes... if they decided not to say anything... may they can still bear with it... and they also have their ways of avoiding it to affect themselves... so why make a fool???? and ruin things that are in a good condition???

i shall also say that... talking behind people's back is not a good thing... but sometimes... there might be a reason behind that... although it may not be strong enough to support but then... sometimes its really better that way... i have experience... that people cannot really handle critisms although they claim they could... in the end... friendships... gone... everything... vanished.... so why pretend as though you could when in the reality you couldnt???? and as a result... break things that arent suppose to be broken???


i stand my views as if i dont like people doing that to me.. i will not do that to others in the first place... like i hate being framed... so at least i will not be framing people for what they have not done.... but however... i never said that i hate people talking about things behind my back... honestly i'm ok with that... ok... maybe i'll be a little uncomfortable... but come on.... who likes to be the topic of gossips??? i'm still ok with it... because the mouth belongs to others... i cant do anything about it... although... due to my very "kepo"-ness... i am always curious about what they have to say about me... well... if i get to know it...

hmm... ok let's make it this way... if its a negative thing... and that person doesnt like it... ok.. i'll try my best not to do that in front of him/her.. but that doesnt mean that i could change overnight and completely stop to be a different person.... maybe others could accept so i could express the way i am to the people who can accept... no harm done....

its hard to change something that has been comfortably set in you... maybe you could avoid.. but its still in you... like how i dont like malaysian cantonese.... i avoid using the term that were only used in malaysia... but my hong kong friends still say i speak in a very malaysian way... what to do??? its with me all the time.... sometimes they'll say... "hey... you now speak less like a malaysian already... welcome to hong kong!!!".... i'll be like "really??!!! oh gosh!!! i didnt realise!! yippee!!"

same theory... different situations... applicable anytime.... anywhere...

however... i believe people talks about other people behind their backs all the time... good or bad.. it's just a part of mingling with other friends... nobody, i believe... nobody don't talk about the people they know behind their backs... of course unless they are dumb.... cant talk isnt a crime after all... being talked about isnt really as bad as some people think it is... in another way... i think maybe because i'm remembered for something... people know me for something... good or bad... hmmm... that's another thing then.... i'm working in the entertainment industry and we need these "gossips" to survive... no gossips... nothing... there's no word of mouth... then... please take out your wallet and pay for the promotion.. thank you very much....

Internship lessons to be learnt

Honestly... how long have i been staring in front of this page???? sheesh... that is what happen when you have the mood to blog but nothing to blog about...

however... i'm still thinking of things to blog... so while i think... i'll just crap along the way... bear with me....
weekends are near!! woohoo.... another week of internship has ended!!!
it was a very empty week... because the pending jobs are all done... no preproduction stuff to rush... no shootings to go... now left are things like VO recordings and other post-production stuff...

this week's bi-weekly report is gonna be really really short... i hope miss june will be happy... after rejecting my reports because they exceeded 3 pages... oh gosh!! what's wrong with having a lot of things to do??? at least i DO have things to do... ok fine... if you wanna tell me doing slides and getting refreshments for clients are things that nobody wants to know... then tell me... what do THEY want to know so that i can DECORATE my report to be exactly the way you want... happy???

well.... i'm very busy when it comes to near-production days... coz now i'm practically in charge of calling the talents... checking their availability and stuff... wuahahhaah... luckily my knowledge about local artiste are still quite up to date... so when people ask me like... "how did she came in the industry??"... "where did she work previously??" and things like that.. i can actually answer... "She's from star search 2003.".... "she used to be a news reader in 8tv." and other stuff... which i doubt others can answer... wahahaha.... i still love malaysia, do i????

after working i just realise how naive i am... its a real world, buddy!!! what do you expect??? people will be taking care of me???? giving me full attention as though i'm a baby???letting me know whatever they are thinking about and everything???? hmmm... i'm just so wrong.... the fragile heart will have to strengthen up beacuse if not... i'm so sorry... you are in the wrong field...

this is a field full of gossips... well... i love gossips... as much as i love "gossip girl"... i dont mind gossiping... because honestly... if you are what you are.... it doesnt affect much....
however... how much as i love to gossip... i'll be doing it as ethical as possible... well i do get the point that gossiping is not something ethical... but i will not add anything more negative to it.... i skip personal stuff... and never dig into them if people are unwilling to share... i keep my eyes as straight as possible... i only say things that i have seen it happen... when people share their experience... it grows... but i'll not make it my own....

all these thing has split me into different characteristics... which in my point of view is necessary in this field...

-you'll have to work even though you dont want to/dont like or just not interested...-
(personal quote)

what have i split into????


an accountant - who keeps track of my expenditure.. making sure nothing goes off my budget... since i'm not really earning yet... this is crucial... because now i know and understand how hard it is to earn.... try to spend the minimum...

a panda - yup... i still have my panda eyes... and yep... i'm still lazy... and no... i dont eat bamboo shoots... but i shoot!!! hahahahah.... (dont get the wrong idea) and to add to that.... i'm getting FATTER!!!!!

a chameleon - i change colors according to situations... my true colors arent shown that often anymore... i find that adapting my perspective and perceptions towards certain situations are actually better than just blindly applying what i believe.... (which sometimes i think is quite foolish, no offence... just for my situation)

a lawyer - as i tend to defend myself whenever things turn out the way they are not suppose to and i couldnt help it, or i have nothing to do with it... just gracefully blur the target of who is responsible... to save yourself...

silverstar - ya... that's my old id.... a star... in silver... why???? because i try to shine on my own but i still need the guidance of light... but then... if you glare hard at me... i reflect even harder on you...

a sudden-health-freak-but-tak-jadi - due to my terrifying weight gain... i decided to be more attentive to my diet and exercise whenever i can (or should i say when i have the mood).. well... it's not working really well but there are results... small but still there are....

hmm... what else??? cant really think of anything now...
i tag the person who has been pestering me to write this post... whahaha... (no lah... didnt really pester... hmm.. how do you say that?? erm... encourage???)


i suddenly miss a lot of things.... sigh~~~~

signing off~~~

weird..

After 2 months of internship.. i realised a lot of things... like the world is not as innocent as how you think.. people will not stop and wait for you just because you couldnt catch up.. and not forgetting... the naive thinking of certain people that drives you crazy... i thought i was naive enough.. but who knows there were more... well... living in your own world doesnt help chase away the truth that you avoid facing (loosely translated, J-man, 2009).

besides that.. i enjoy being an intern... despite well.. the "adults" tend to leave you out in certain stuff... then asking you for help but not telling what or how should you help out... however.. interns have this "get out of jail free" card.. which equals to "make mistakes but will be forgiven" card... where you can no longer enjoy if you are a permanent...

people around says they miss school and wish to end this internship soon and get on with school stuff... assignments.. mid terms.. marks... finals... assessments!!! noooo way!!! that's specifically NOT what i miss about school... the only thing maybe is my friends and the fact that i can go home on time unless u have my own activities... besides that... i sure hope i can just escape from assignments... exams... and particularly marks...

a friend of mine who works part time and studies at the same time also thinks that she is more comfortable working than studying.. so i guess i'm not that weird after all.. and she's a student with a cgpa of 3.7 and above.. even she is tired of studying.. then why shouldnt i be?? my cgpa is below 3.5, by the way...

ever since the start of this year.. i suddenly feel that i'm tired of studying... but its already my 3rd and last year.. so i might as well brush up and get going... finish up my last year....

aza aza...

another week ended

Today... it marks another week of my internship...

how time flies~~~ i'll be getting my allowance again next week!!! hehe... i AM realistic... money is one of the factors... anyway... i'm not getting very much anyway.. so stop criticising... and anyhow.. it's still better than nothing...

yesterday's shooting was fun... honestly.. i enjoyed it more than the previous 3 shootings... hmmm... why is it??? this time.. i'm still doing my usual thing... which is taking pictures for conty.... however... the art department people are also doing the same thing... so i guess.. it's kinda "extra"... well.. besides that i have nothing much to do... because this time, i'm in charge of wardrobe!!! can you believe that??? me... a person who is not at all good in clothes... in charge of wardrobe... wahahaha... but i enjoyed it... because i feel very involved in the project... and the best part is... i get to mingle with the talents!!! fuahahahaha.... which is something i really enjoy.... hahaha...


what else??? nothing much to report about internship besides shooting and some random stuff going on because i think they might be kinda boring... so... let's see... i havent blog about my outing with several long-time-no-see friends.... i'll do that later because that will require photo uploading... which if what i'm kinda reluctant to do...


hmmm.... i have some pretty sad stuff and rantings to do... but i'll not continue here... it might ruin the mood of this post... hehe...

stay tune!!!

signing off!!!

bio-essence (7/6)

i realised i have not been blogging about a very cool event that i have been to last last week... so now... i'm here to post a blog about it before i forget....


7th June...

so what do we have today????


Doesnt ring the bell???




Dont worry i have clearer ones...


See the picture now???

guess which side i'm on???



hahahaha....


Then here he come... can you see him??? hmm.. i think this is when i was pushed towards the side by other even "crazier" fans....

haha... lucky i managed to stand back up and caught this...

hahaha... i was lucky...





then its a bunch of interviews... and stuff... i think they might bore you coz if you are not a raymond or linda fan... you wouldnt wanna know...






pictures do say a thousand words dont they???? i need not say much here.... a dozen of pictures will just do the trick.... (oopppss... miscalculation... there are only 10 here...)


signing off~~~

TGIF

i have marked today as the happiest day of my internship days... i think they will not be any other days that could be better than today....

first thing first... i get to go to astro to see a radio infomercial recording for mixFM... haha.. what an opportunity... and they are only bringing one intern over... xiaochin doesnt have the transport.. and kevin seems reluctant... so i guess its me then... we are suppose to take turns anyway... so i have used up my chance... awww... what a waste... but i have definitely made an entrance there... *embarassing...


the recording was pretty fast... i went back to the office at around 12pm... people who know damansara perdana will understand the misery of searching for a parking place during this time of the day... it's a disaster... BUT!!! i manage to find one... proper parking space without "joining the divider" or whatsoever... after 2 rounds... during my third round around taht place!!! i'm so lucky!!!! actually there was a car waiting for it already... but i somehow appeared behind it so i just wait for it to go in and spread my envy-ness of what good luck that fellow have to get such a nice place during this is of the day...

wuahhahaha... who knows??? the car suddenly left its "waiting spot"... so i assume there wasnt a place after all but when i got closer... the reverse lights of one of the cars lit up.... wooohooo!!!!! i've found a place!!!! although there a little distance from the office but at least... i got a proper place!!! so after parking my car and paying the parking ticket... i walk back to the office...

then mrs boss say we are all going to tenji for lunch... what's the occassion???? i dont know... no idea... saja.... so after settling down... off we go to tenji for lunch buffet!!!! japanese lunch buffet man!!!!


after that... we went back to the office... and get to go bcak on time... 7pm sharp!!!

the very best thing is... it FRIDAY today... so i'll get my weekends... and i'll be meeting up with ain and gang tomorrow... oh gosh!!! this day just couldnt get any better....

TGIF!!!

blabbing.... -points-

oh gosh... the "create post" page has been open for.... the whole day... i guess... everytime i on the computer... i'll certainly check my blog... then try to post a new blog post or something... i have been trying to write something since in the afternoon... but nothing special comes in mind...


so i guess.. its time for my random blabs again....


hmm... so what should i write about??? weekends are my rest-days... which i usually will try not to step out of my house unless its necessary.... i prefer staying in... with the internet, facebook, blogs and other online mini games... or maybe just a book will do... i'm still on my way with sophie kinsella's "remember me".... i decide to take it slow.. there's no rush when it comes to reading... although i can read fast but sometimes i think is better to look at every word than to just browse thru the sentence and take things for granted.... i still have loads of books waiting for me... especially my Dan Brown series... which i'm on the way of giving up due to the hard-to-understand content... i'm still the shallow reader who prefers reading light and simple stories...


basically... things are still going on pretty ok for me... just that i have done a few things that i never ever thought i would be doing... which took a hell lot of courage from me before i started doing it... it's a chance that i want to take... i have been delaying it for a long time now... and i think i will regret it if i still want to "preserve" my dignity and hold it back.... sometimes things are meant to happen... and when you try to stop it for the wrong reasons.... you'll just feel uncomfortable inside... and the feeling will last until you found a way to fix it....
so i sure hope that it will turn out the way i want it to be... but if it doesnt... oh well... at least i tried... i should not have stopped that in the first place... so its my fault and i'm not blaming anybody for it... i'm ready to get whatever i deserve... good or bad... (i still hope its good)


working days are pretty tiring...
and when you have to digest some things that is completely pointless... it really exhausts you... besides... everything must have a reason behind it... if you cant give me the reason... so it makes it pointless... a waste of time... effort... and life....
i tried to understand your expectations... but it seems that i'm not in the same level as you since i dont get any of your points... yes.. i admit that i'm maybe not as good as you... so what else can i do?? maybe you just dont get the point yet.... until everybody starts leaving... leaving you with nobody but yourself... is that when you are going to understand the problem??? will it be too late then??? i can honestly say that i dont agree with your ways... and i dont understand what you actually want... sometimes... it just irritates me when you dont speak the language... and just get on with what you think is appropriate.... i find that very disturbing....
anyway... i hope you do see the problem... and change before its too late...



signing off~~~

---intern update---

there goes the 3rd week of my internship...


this week i got to deal with the talents when they show up at the office for wardrobe fitting... and i also got to call them up to confirm their availability for the proposed shooting date... they all sound very kind and nice... not as demanding as i imagined... bombarding me with all sorts of questions that i dont know how to answer and gets pissed off when i cannot answer them.. instead they just laugh and say... "okay, you get back to me when you get to know about that... thanks..."
phew~~~


the hardest part when it comes to calling talents is when you are rejecting them... since after proposing to clients.. they will only be choosing 1 when you have already called a dozen to check their availability and promised to call back and confirm... whatever that is... whether accept or reject... this week.. i have to reject around 10 (i think) VO talents that i have called previously to confirm their availability... i really dont have the heart to do that.. so i got kevin to do it for me... hehehehe.... thanks yo!! its really sad when such a nice voice is rejected... they all sound really nice.. and must be very disappointed when they receive rejection... sigh~~~~



hmmm.... i'll have to get used to that... because there are more to reject in the future... i really hope that the clients could shortlist them early and just accept which i managed to get hold first... instead of calling... confirming... then rejecting.. which is a waste of time, hope and effort....


i'm starting to enjoy dealing with talents now... and i'm getting used to calls... since i dont have to rest for like 10 minutes after every call...


besides that.... i just have to say.... VOs... they earn a lot!!!!!!

Just to let you know...

i get to go back early today... so i have time for blogs... weeheee....


just to let you know that last saturday... and last last sunday... i went to the popular warehouse sales in summit... books were up to 90% discount!!!! weeee....


suddenly... i have the "book mood".... which is to purchase books!!!! the first time i went... i did not really buy a lot of books... maybe just one....





Yala... i still wanna improve my korean... still learning... so i thought of buying a basic sentence book... since i have been learning a lot of words previously.... hopefully it will come in handy... this book 70% off... from rm42.80 it became rm.... ok i need some time for maths here.... around rm12.90... wooohooo... not bad huh??? i was planning to get the japanese one... but i have the text books from level 1 til 4... so i guess... although its cheap... i dont really have to spend on it....

then i got some cds... i can say... the cd is.... woohooo... makes me regret buying me previous ones... coz they were like around 90%!!!! gosh!!!! anyway... bought 1 only....

then some stationary..... heheheheh...



the following week... i went to the same warehouse sale with huiping... this time... i want to buy more books!!!!








these are what i have bought.... hehehehe.. and they cost me less than rm50.... i took out rm50 from the atm.... and i still have around rm10 to spare.... good isnt it???

i just love books... i couldnt stop... i was actually tempted to buy more.... but my conscience disallow me... told me not to waste money.. although its cheap... but i should not use them up so easily... ok.... i listen to my conscience.... but at least i got a whole lot..... i'm still happy...


reading culture man!!!!!

internship week 2

another week has pass...
12 more to go....

this week is a very busy week as well... because there are 2 shootings... there should be 3 but another 1 was delayed till next week... oh well... 2 is ENOUGH to handle....

tuesday morning... call time 0615... fuwah!!! luckily dedi agreed to send me to work... hehe.. off to kota damansara... landed on a very huge house... very nice... the design is kinda similar to those vacation resorts... got photos... but i dont think i'm allowed to reveal them here... in case there are any copyright stuff... so i guess i'll show them when the ad is aired.... meanwhile... just say that the shooting goes on quite smoothly... everything in place... i'm assigned to take photos behind the scenes... but manatahu... just the first scene the battery life has dropped down to 20mins.... owh shucks!!!! we still have to whole day to go!!!! and i only have 20 mins???? besides the camera also functions as a conty when photos are taken previously can be refered regarding the detail of arrangement and stuff... (what am i talking about??? i dont know...) so what else can i do???? conserve battery... only take photos of those which I THINK is important... sigh~~~

then at 5pm we shift location... of to sungai buloh we go.... in a kampung house... which is damn hot because the electricity were all used for the shooting equipments... so the fan was off... understand la... kampung house... how much electricity they have???? the owner of the house is very kind... he keeps offering to help when i was clearing up... we get to wrap up earlier than the estimated time... which was a YIPPEEEE!!!!! darn tired... didnt feel like eating dinner... just wanna go back...


on thursday... call time is still 0615... this time the location..... templer hills!!!! a show unit in templer hills to be exact... again... no photos... cooz i dont wanna be sued for anything... the show unit was very nice... but due to its wide windows... it became very hot when the sun is shining to its maximum.... anyway... it'll still fun... i'm still taking photos... but this time doesnt make any difference as the last time... my battery ran out just before i realised... aish... change the camera la!!!! again... we wrapped up before the estimated time... YIPPEEEE!!!!! but we stayed there the whole day.... the talents were great... the little boy was extremely cute... but still... darn tired... had a few bites for dinner.... and balik...


yesterday.... made a few calls to check the availability of VO talents... just then i realised than i'm god damn lucky to not be placed in a telecommunications company... i totally freak out when it comes to phone calls... my voice shivers... my hand grips hard on t he receiver as though its gonna fall off... and i need 10-15 minutes rest in between every phone call... gosh this is tiring..... i'll try to avoid phone calls....


woke up early this morning to send my bi-weekly report.... off to lunch....

signing off~~~~

what about internship

right... i should update something about my internship before the end of this month...


so what have i been doing throughout my whole week of internship in xuanworks...
first of all... its a very small company... with not more than 10 employees... so everybody is close and the bond between employees are very tight and hard to break... haha.. i guess... assuming...
i've got a table... although it's not really mine... but at least i get to sit with a computer in front of me...


we have 3 shootings scheduled next week so damn.. it's busy... i never get to go home on time... however no complains because i think its kinda worth it... at least i'm not like hanging around doing nothing... wasting my time...

what have i learnt???
i learnt how to change the color of clothes... which is very very useful when it comes to searching clothes for wardrobe... you'll never find the exact color you need... so what do you do??? change the color in photoshop... but do it after searching high and low on the internet because it's like cheating.... do it when you dont have a choice...

i recalled my very basic editing skills when i was editing the casting videos of talents.... it's kinda fun seeing them act and stuff... until i come to a pair of identical twins... oh my god... its so hard to differentiate and join their videos together because its hard to tell who is who... the best thing is their mom decided to dress them exactly the same during casting... oh great... just as if their face wasnt hard enough to differentiate... and now you have to dress them identically too????
i also saw a 10 year old girl who is as tall as me... gosh!!!! she is just 10!!!! i think she bump into the ceiling when she's 18...

what else??? oh ya... the wonders of a photostating machine... and also the scanner... we were required to photocopy like hundreds and thousands of stuff for the final pre-production presentation.... using up like 2 packets of paper... woohooo...

searching for maps... shooting locations... i now even can DRAW!!! i actually volunteered to draw the map to our location... wahahaha... i never ever imagined me volunteering to DRAW.... even straight lines...

besides... i have prepared storyboards... tranlated scripts... talking about translating.... i have to translate chemistery stuff as well... so thanks to the online dictionary... i can even confirm the names for stuff like bearberry essence... xxxxline.... xxxxic.... do you actually expect me to know or remember those terms???

then there are the powerpoint slides.... inserting pictures... cropping... adjusting.... converting....

brainstorm for ideas for a campaign... on the radio!!!! i have never been familiar to radio commercials... coz usually in assignments we'll usually opt out the 30sec radio commercial and focus on prints ads and tvc instead... so the lack of experience really matters a lot... i'm still blank... sigh~~~~

hmmm.... i guess that's all as far as i can remember....

next week will be a very very busy week as we have 3 shootings all scheduled next week.... wonder what will i become after this???? hopefully i can lose a few kgs.... that will be great.... but till now i dont think that's gonna happen coz i keep eating in the office.... hahahaha... it might just turn out the other way round as i will be gaining a few more kgs... Noooooooooo....


that's practically almost all of my first week of internship....


oh ya... my bi-weekly report... i almost forgot about that....

signing off~~~

updating~~~

i guess i SHOULD be updating my blog more often since i'm currently on my semester break... and i practically have nothing to do.... however... it is because i have nothing to do... that is why i cant find anything to update here... see the connection??? between no updates and free time???


i didnt get to go to jessie's birthday party.. as due to UNFORESEEN circumstances... which is totally unplanned.. who the hell knew that i would actually ****** ok its not for you to know... those who know just keep it to yourself... ask me personally if you really want to know because i dont intend to tell it here... just dont feel like it...


what else??? oh yes... had my second round of k-session yesterday... come on... the rm5++ promotion is really too hard to resist.... this time me and hui ping went to 1U... a place which i'll be frequently passing-by when i start my internship next week... wahahaha.... sigh~~~


oh ya... there's something quite "bermanfaat" that i have done during these few days... i have been revising my japanese and korean... wahahaha!!!! so that's something to be proud of... after days of loitering at home... i finally did something beneficial....
but i have just read through... i'll do more tomorrow... like practise my writing and stuff... all my grammer... aza aza ganbatte kudasai!!!


now that i have realised... i'm just days to my third year... which also marks the final year of my degree.. oh gawd!!! time sure flies~~ like a speeding bullet... a flash of lightning... in one more year.... i'm graduating, man!!!! for tuhan's sake!!!! i really can't believe it... it seems like forever since i step into my schooling life and now i'm almost graduating already.... 1 more year to go.... so now what??? will i be able to get a job after i graduated??? the most important thing is will i be able to feed myself??? or i'll still have to depend on my family???? No... better not.... so i sincerely hope that i'll be able to get a job... with a satisfying pay.... i can start work right after i graduate.. or maybe right after my last paper of my finals... i dont mind that... boy, i sound desperate... but i'm serious... by the way... i'll grab any opportunity available... hehehehe....


i'm starting my internship next monday... as i have said for like a gazillion times already... hopefully its ok... i know there are some of my coursemates who have already started their internship since last week!!! oh boy.... nervous~~~ thinking of it just adds the nervous-ness in me... gosh!!! i never ever imagined that i'll be working in an advertising production house... never in my mind since i have started my degree ever thought that i'll be working with stuff regarding to advertisements.... i myself never thought i will step over to the advertising line, although i'm minoring advertising... but i'm just not an advertising person... cant draw... lack of creativity and flexibility... fail man!!!! so just hopefully this will turn out ok.... really do hope...


what else??? hmmm... oh yeah!!!! i said i'll update my fanfic blog!!!! oh gawd.. i forgot all about that... poor janet... i'll read up where i have stop and try to gain some ideas and pour them into the blog... aish....



well... there should be more posts starting next week... since i might have quite a lot to share regarding my internship... so stay tune...


signing off~~~

post-exam...

i'm back!!! to update about me post exam life.... 5 days after my exam... what did i do???? should i mention about monday's paper??? nah!!! it's a disaster... i believe many will agree... so let's forget about it and get on with my 2 exam-free days...

tuesday .... started with the video i've promised.... then... off for the long-awaited k-session with huiping... wuhahahaha.... neway promotion.... rm5++ for lunch and happy hour... we sang from 2pm til 7pm... sang all the songs we wanted to sing and a whole lot of long-time-no-sing songs... enjoyed big time.... haven't really sang that long since... the first time i went to neway... which was like... hmm..... 2 or 3 years ago????

anyway.... after enjoying... went back home ate my dinner and started editing the video i shot on sunday.... woo-hoo... talking about pure kan cheong-ness... once i put in the cd... i realise this is not a format that i am familiar with... tried to play it with media player... cannot.... real player... cannot... quick time player.... cannot... i even tried power dvd player.... also cannot... oh no.... big trouble man!!! how am i going to edit if i cant even play it???? ok lo... luckily i still managed to get somebody to help me convert the clips... or else it may seem that i could not get the job done as promised... hehehe... phew~~~


wednesday... i round over to my future workplace... damansara perdana... to see the traffic flow and whether are there parking space available.... there are parking space... just that i'll have to walk quite a distance from there to my future workplace... and i'll have to pay too.... yikes... parking space... since i enrolled into uni this problem has never got off my mind... even now... when i'm not going to uni... i still have to worry about whether are there parking space available in that area... i guess this is a compulsory problem to worry about for drivers....


thursday... half of the lai family is back from kampar... my life continues with pet society and restaurant city... and of course... a little household chores...

today.... accompanied hui ping to some bird nest talk... it's some kind of investment programme... so obviously they got the wrong target.... how could students like me, afford rm30k plus of investment plan???? you do the math... i'm still depending on my parents... and i'm not earning much from my internship.... wahahaha

tomorrow... jessie birthday party...

wee-heee..

signing off~~~

what do you feel when exam is nearing???

As i go around peeking at other people's blog... i found something very interesting from one my high school mate's blog.... which very much describes my feelings during exam... although mine is almost over... but like i once said before... sharing is caring....

those in purple... are my own opinions... the rest are all taken from my friend's blog...



What do you feel when exam is nearing?

Stress:

No need for that. Remember, the more you stress, the weaker you become and you get all tensed up. This leads to lack of sleep (just to force yourself to finish up all the notes), brain congestion (too stressed of counting the time you have left for studies & in the end rushing through everything), forgetting your meals (one good excuse ---- No appetite) and in the end --> Allostatic load and KO
my stress level usually risen when i see the question paper and realise that i have no idea how am i going to answer... this will really stress me out... other than that... it's still ok... the stress is usually an aftermath... when i think i didnt do well for the exam... that's when the stress factor comes in...


Depression:

"Oh my god..I'm dead..I'm dead!!! I haven't study this, that, here, there, everything!!!"
"Shit..Why can't I remember anything?!!"
"Darn..Why people can remember such details which I don't even have a clue what that's all about?!"
"Time is running out . . . I'm dead for sure . . ."

And before you realise, you are already DEAD before the exams. Rather than spending your time sulking, STUDY and give in your best efforts!
again... my depression level risen after exams, normally.... when i realise that i couldnt answer a single question properly... then i'll damn depressed... but this feeling usually will not last long... as after every paper i have done... it's a step closer to my holidays... so usually the feeling will be gone until i get back my results... ehehe


Insomnia:

Yeah it's normal, it happens all the time. People trying to stay up all night before the exams, trying as hard as they might to squeeze all the information into any possible sulcus or gyrus in the brain. Yes you can stuff them in, but will they stay there when your brain is screaming in agony for some sleep?

NO. So, why not use the time for some good rest instead?
oh no... i dont burn the midnight oil for exams... assignments, yes... but not for exams... i make sure i have enough sleep before exams... eventhough i'm not done memorising the notes and facts... i'll still go to sleep first and maybe snatch a few minutes before the exams starts to cram those into my brain...


Start asking people around for answers:

Haha..This is an interesting one. Before the exams, you are playing and fooling around in class when your friend is desperately trying to concentrate while you're laughing and joking and playing around behind them. Now you want their precious notes? That depends how KIND the person you're asking from then.
wahahaha... this will not happen to me.... unless i was absent during a particular lecture or tutorial.... i dont go around asking for other people's notes.... maybe i'll just ask people to print the notes that were received via email since my printer isnt very stable... wahaha... other than that... i never ask people for their notes...
well... i dont have to... i listen and pay attention during class... i write down what is necessary for me to know.... so that's enough for me.... since everybody is attending the same class... it is ridiculus for me to not know something that the lecturer or tutor has taught but others do... RIDICULUS!!!


Studying last minute:

You are asking for it. Time management is everything. You spent the time available for rest & relax, now you pay double/triple/quadruple for making up the time lost. Plan, plan and PLAN your studies right. It's what that decides whether you get to sleep, relax and study well for long term. You shouldn't be STUDYING before exams, it should be REVISION. (Remember your brain needs input a few times before registering in your brain! Well, unless you're a genius born with superb memory. Too bad I'm not.)
ah-ha... that's what i do everytime... i know i'm not suppose to be studying last minute... but lazy-ness is born in me... so i guess it sometimes serves me right when i dont remember important points... sigh~~


Stay happy in exams and good luck~



*the author of this post is a medic student... so several theories about human body acceptance level should be accurate... so dont doubt....

pre-merdeka.... sigh....

i still have one more subject to go before i could declare "merdeka" for myself... while i think a majority of utar students are already officially in the mist of "merdeka" mood... sigh... why is it always like that??? my exams always takes longer than anybody else.... ever since spm... it's always i have to start earlier and end later than everybody... maybe its just some kinda trick that will make me study and do my revisions longer than anybody else... but to tell the truth... it is really hard to concentrate and study when you know that others are already enjoying themselves with their holiday plans....
how can you not be influence by the carefree and merry mood????

so that is what happening to me currently... i only have like around 1 day to study my completely untouched international advertising subject.... because half day is gone already for today... and tomorrow's wesak day... so another half day gone case.... so that sums up to be 1 day... to start studying from scratch...

what about my sunday??? have fogotten my sunday??? hehehe... i'm taking a break on sunday.... i'm off to help keekee and friends for their video.... so another half day gone... and then it's mother's day.... the next half is gone also... how to study???
and keekee... i am more than happy to help you out.... because i'm lazy to study... and this is the best excuse... so dont feel bad or anything... if you do.... just treat me a huge lunch on that day... wahahahaha... i'm just kidding.... dont take it seriously...

what will i be doing after my exams???? well... that's for you to know... and for me to find out... i'll update on that later... after i know what am i going to do for the 2 weeks.... besides getting myself ready physically and mentally for my intern....

oh... maybe i'll post blogs about some stuff that has already happened but has not been written out yet.... let's see if i got the mood or not... maybe i'll pop up with a post of two about my shooting week and stuff.... hehehe....

what else??? oh... its time for lunch and after that... i seriously need to get on with my mpgest and stuff... i dont wanna fail my very last paper... and it is one of the hardest paper of all 6 subjects... but come to think of it.... all 6 subjects are hard this semester.... how can they do this to us... it should be balanced.... aish.....

signing off..... -whish-

ramblings

i seriously have the feeling that i'm not going to do well in this semester's finals... my cgpa is definitely going to drop again... gosh... what have i been doing for the past few days???? honestly... i'm not sure... i studied... certainly... not much but at least i did.... remembered points... yeah... i'm on track... the correct one.... forcing point forms and words to be drilled into my almost-full-of-anything-but-academic-stuff brain... yeah... i did that... go to the exam hall... yes.. i'm getting there... last mental note to myself whether i remembered everything that i'm suppose to remember... checked....

into the exam hall.... lay down my stationary.... put my phone and stuff on the floor... flips through the exam question paper... voila... congratulations, you've done it again.... the stuff that you spotted and memorised so hard is not out... very good... brilliant.... so what now???? crap as much as you can and don't show anyone that you are freaking out because you don't know how to answer a single freaking question.... great.... just great... start writing... write those you have been memorising so hard before.... make them worth it... worth the effort... eventhough it obviously seem not related to the question asked.... just write... puke as much words as you can... get an extra answer booklet... just to comfort yourself.. i have loads of things to write about... loads of nonsensical stuff... loads of nonsense, that is... does the word "nonsensical" exist??

ok fine... i finish everything in time... not really finish.. i mean pour out all the nonsense i have on the paper... hoping that it'll get a few marks for effort of writing but i guess i'm thinking too much... so i'll just throw everything out of my mind and stop thinking about it... i'll feel better that way.... hopefully... but not....

everything just falls apart... i know i did not put enough effort... i knew that all along... but i didnt bother to add... so what??? i couldnt care less... i'm still the lazy bum who skips math questions so that i dont have figure out so many solutions and yet i still did my homework...

i'm very self contradicting... which kills the hell out of me... i want good results but i'm lazy... damn lazy... i'm disappointed with my forever-dropping cgpa... but when it comes to putting effort in finals... i back off... what do i want actually???

sigh sigh....

why is my post so emo for the past few months???? has my lifestyle changed??? i want my bubbly happy life back!!!! give me back my bubbles!!!!
or is it the aging problem???? changes how i see things... oh no... if that's the case... i better do something.... FAST.... i dont wanna grow old yet.... i still want my bubbly life back...
or maybe its my constant failure.... blame design subjects!!! they have not been nice to me since i was in foundation.... i still hate them... thoroughly...
i'm still waiting for my bubbles...

hopefully i'll find them this coming Sunday... i'm looking forward to it.... time to meet new friends and get my mind off exams and failure and whatever stuff that is bothering me...
bubbles... come to me....


in the meantime...


i just did a test on facebook....

just took the "What is your deepest, darkest fear?" quiz and the result is You fear failure..

You are a very driven person, with specific goals set to guide you through life. The idea that you might not achieve these goals is scary to you. Since you identify so strongly with your actions (your work, your relationships, etc.), you feel that failure would reflect poorly upon you. Without success and accolades, you secretly wonder what value you have, and if people would still love and respect you.



so i have this phobia thingy.... failure-phobia... or whatever you call that.... well i admit that though... although it took me long enough to realise that... hehehe...

tadaima!!!

heyo heyo!!! what's up besides the ceiling or sky....

what's with the long break yo ask me???

well well well... assumptions people....

my study week... last week... this week 3 papers...

what am i doing???? since i'm not blogging????

wahahaha... is your guess "STUDYING"???

lucky guess.... that's not the main reason!!!

its just my internet connection was down for almost a week here!!!
yala tu... i can concentrate on my revision and get the marks i couldnt get during my mid terms and assignments... yeah right... never!!!
1 week without facebook... pet society... blog... aish.... torture!!!
luckily i still have my tv... my savior... so no internet is still fine with me...
until.... when i found out that the stuff that are coming out for exam only has a few sentences in my notes... i began to freak out... oh no.... where is the internet when i need it.... this is tertiary studies... when you don't have enough info... you search for info... but the point is... how am i going to search with the damn dsl light blinking like some kinda of flashing thingy (dono what could i use to describe) which is obviouly driving me crazy...

current exam status... 2 down 4 more to go...

what else...
i guess that pretty much sums up my past few days....
if there's anything else i'll be updating...
so for now... i'll just be....
signing off!!
goodbye folks!!

update for the sake of updating....

forget about the long breaks between posts.... the other blogs suffer longer breaks... so just please bear with me...

currently i'm on my study leave... which literally... i should be studying... which is what i did but not a lot....

my everyday life is practically the same everyday since monday.... wake up at 10am.... breakfast... tv... bath.... internet (facebook, mainly)... lunch.... "study" while watching tv... dinner... "study" while watching tv again.... zzzzz...

what have i studied???? not very sure... internet research maybe... since that is what i have been frequently doing.... not really research... more to entertainment....

my current semester has net been very good... seeing that i fail mid terms.... failed assignments.... doing very poorly in presentations... so i guess i'll be dragging down my cgpa to a lower level.... what can i do??? was being kinda distracted after seeing friends leaving the country... and finally doing what they always wanted to do.... while i'm still stuck here doing what i-dont-know-what-am-i-doing... must i sound so depressing???? well... i cant deny the fact that i'm really envious of mew mew.... a new friend i've known but never met.... she get to be in the very place that i have always dreamt of going.... and she's working well there... despite the economy crisis thingy that might affect her... it seems that she wasnt really affected except for maybe the extremely long working hours.... but i bet she wouldnt mind that....

ok... i must get rid of all these depressing stuff in my mind.... think of something happy.... maybe that's why i have been watching so much tv.... because watching tv... simply makes me happy...

just like the title od the post... i'm updating for the sake of updating.... since i dont have much to share.... so i might as well just pour random words to make up for it....

hmm... i wonder... will my application be successful????
if its ok... i'm so gonna have to brush up my english.....
my english grammer is pathetic and embarassing...
wahahahaha


signing off!!

aint that easy

today started off just like any other school day... woke up at 6am.... breakfast... bath...
oh yes.... the lights in the bathroom decided to not work on this early morning... so i'll have to bath in total darkness... feeling around for shower foam and the knob for the shower...


went off to school early... reach uni at 7am... slept til 7.30am... and walk up to class to start on my script.... i know i started very late... and i know the deadline is tomorrow.. but what can i do??? i wrote the teaser already... then i did some mistakes and end up losing the whole document... what else can i do??? rewrite.... then my act one started off a little weird... so i decided to change the idea from the original one... what to do again??? rewrite.... come on... this is the subject that i enjoy... so just bear with me....

what else??? oohh... cold storage is officially open today... wahahaha... purchase rm100 worth of stuff and get a goodie bag.... well.. it should have open earlier because it's already my last week and i'm going for my internship next semester...


ok now.. i admit its hard to change a novel format story into a script because i cant just put down descriptions and expect words to appear on the tv screen... i'll have to explain everything in dialogues or actions... such as the character's past... habits.... experiences.... it'll be weird for the character to say... "oh i do this all the time" suddenly without anybody else to talk to... when he/she is doing a frequent habit.... yikes... its not as easy as i thought though....


by the way... what's an epilogue??? its not a trailer of a preview... but it reveals what is going to happen in the next episode.... how come it is not a preview???? how am i going to write something that i'm not sure of??? aish.... back to work folks!!! hopefully it turns out ok.....
since i really love the story of "the eternal watcher"....

and i also hope the lecturer likes it too.... beeeboooo

extra shooting

Yesterday was a long day... as 6 of us... jo.. kevin.. jessie.. chenghui.. egg and me were off to shoot a short video regarding street culture...

all 6 of us will be meeting up at 9am at pc for a short briefing.. then set off to meet our hero of the video.. alex in his house at section 17...

i actually overslept a little and woke up at 8.15am when the initial time to wake up is 7.50am.. so i rush my breakfast... bath and pack my bag... the most important thing is to bring the dv tape...

i somehow manage to arrive at pc around 8.55am... found chenghui in the internet lab... with bc5's deafening noise from the class next to the lab..

Anyway... jessie appeared at around 9.30am... and then kevin and jo arrive at 9.45am... with edmund... a personnel from essence... who will be guiding us throughout the shooting... and also our financial support of the day... however when kevin introduced edmund to me... the first thing that came to my mind is " i thought our hero's name is alex.. since when did it change to edmund?? and by the way, this guy doesnt look like a dancer.."
however after a few seconds of "flash thoughts" i suddenly remembered that i have seen edmund before during our previous briefing with essence on thursday... luckily i did not blurt out the question "eii??? change hero already ah??"... or else... AWKWARD!!

then after a round of introducing... planning, google-mapping and stuff... we headed off to alex's place... and met out hero of the whole video for the very first time....

we did a very very brief planning about the shoot.. and started shooting amatuerishly... but still.. it goes ok... so i guess... still acceptable... but the best skill learnt at the end of the day is how to avoid the camera...

after that... let's just summarize the journey... ken3.... mcD... ken3(plan to shoot but fail due to the rain)... alex's house... mid valley!!!

our production day... started from 10am til 10pm.... full 12 hours of work... play... eat... enjoy!!!

then we'll have to start on our survey forms and also capturing the videos....

what i should do

Honestly... i should be updating my other 2 blogs... including my fanfic blog... that makes three...

besides my blogs... there are several things that need to be done before i start shaking my legs for study week....
communication research methods assignment 2
screenplay and scriptwriting assignment 2
multimedia broadcasting (although hardly participating.. but i did help with the sketches and stuff!!!)

and not forgetting... my media planning presentation tomorrow... woo-hoo... "looking forward"... i'm starting to hate presentations now... especially when things get so complicated... its just a simply presentation... i stand in front and talk.... but there just have to be loads of critism.... opinions... "shootings"... which "pressurize" the whole thing... ( i know that's not the right word.. but i cant think of any other better words...)


a lot of things have been changing.... about me... the me in the past... is not the me now anymore... and i think the future me will be different too.... i keep changing i'm not even sure if i could keep up with myself.... things that i used to enjoy doesnt seem that fun anymore... people change....


the industrial training list is out.... however... the place i'm going to is already confirmed... so no harm done... haha... what kinda harm will it cause anyway??? it turns out that we will not be going to the same place... the LAI gang are now separated.... all over the place... with 3 in damansara perdana.... the rest... one eating free biscuits... one in cheras but assume she in singapore... one went back to his old "home"... one is joining forces with her "rakan sekampung".... one who is the oddest of all... is "beautify-ing" people in the future....


all these while i have been looking forward to my industrial training semester... but now... it seems to change... i kinda want it to delay.... hahaha.... eat my words!!! my stomach is now full of words... i think this is why i'm a kg heavier than before.... stoopeed words....


i am so broke... no money... why??? i dont know... but hopefully.... my urge to spend will come back.... come back... "bring back o bring back... o bring back my money to me to me..." that sure rhymes...
correction... my money is not really lost....



i dont know what am i talking about... signing off!!!

why i talk in class

why do i talk in class???

why do i like to talk in class???

why do i enjoy talking in class????

• it keeps me awake... other than writing notes and scribbling pmc...
• you can usually find a lot of topics to talk about when the lecturer is talking in front of the class....
• i dont find it hard to concentrate while talking... so i have nothing to lose... i can listen and talk at the same time... i still know what the lecturer is talking about... so why not??? i gain knowledge and be entertained at the same time...
• like i said above... i can multitask.... i can copy notes and talk at the same time... but i sometimes will miss a word or two... so i talk and ask my friends beside me... that will usually be egg...
  
• sometimes talking does not necessarily involves topics out of the subject we are learning... and it helps understanding too!!!!
• a class with complete silence... especially bc students... it means something is really really wrong... either they are interested in the topic or they are all turned off... in other words... sleeping... zzzz....
• last but not least.... its my hobby to talk... not only in class... but everywhere else!!!

why am i posting this??? its just to let teachers... tutors... lecturers know why students talk in class... why they MUST talk in class... because i'm really fed-up with people who cant just stand a little... when i mean little... i do REALLy mean LITTLE... more like a whispering noise of people chit chatting.... i understand it might be very distracting for some people... but come on la... dont tell me you will pay 100% of attention to someone who is blabbing in front.... even i myself cant guarantee that... although i DO pay attention in class...


anyway.... try to ignore it somehow... treat it as a natural noise... dont irritate yourself too much unless... the whole place is turning into a marketplace... and that's getting a bit too far... so its ok to show some colours...


although i have no classes tomorrow...but i still have to wake up early in the morning... since i'm off for "ching ming".... woooo....


ciaoz....

assignments... presentations...

i actually have nothing to write about... my current life is majorly about.... assignments..... assignment..... presentations.... presentations.... assignments.... finals.... oh... it's too early for that...

today's beta test is a pure disaster... it just adds my hatred towards design subjects... hate hate hate.... its week 13 next week... which marks the due of our short film.... i have not finalise the script yet... gosh... and my production report... aish... what else do i have to worry??? hmm... the stoopeed programme id for multimedia broadcasting...
and my pilot script... which i have already started writing... so i will not worry about that first....

there's something wrong with my antivirus... it just will not update... it has been 2 months already.... aish... what i have to do now is uninstall the thing and reinstall it but i cant find the cd... so much for being organised....

another week with less than rm10 to spend.... but still i got thru... haha.. i'm now upgrading my "jimat" skills... so that i can carry on with the same thing when i'm out for internship... i really need to go light on the cash.... hopefully my allowance is high... but i really doubt that... i never ever experienced high allowance before... i've got like... rm1 per hour... rm20 per day... so we'll see how it goes...

i cant sign into pet society again... aish.. why is this happening to me all the time???? my internet connection is getting very cranky these few days... it is either damn slow... or the dns light will never stop blinking...


i should be starting on my communication research methods report... i have said that since i'm done presenting my proposal which is like 2 weeks ago already.... till now... nothing is done... but i still have to finalise the script for the short film... which hopefully could be done within a short time... then i should write my production report... which i am still starring at a blank document not knowing what words to fill.... and i am also supposed to do the outtro for the multimedia broadcasting assignment... but i hate it so much... i rather do other things first... eventhough the due date is later.... aish...


signing off!!!